True Nothings

By Crystal Baulle

Disclaimer: All characters belong to J.K. Rowling except Sinistra's daughter Saskia and Sinistra's ex, Karl Lesharpe is mine too…

Author's Note: Well, I was hoping to update before the end of 2006, so here we are...on Boxing Day! I shall say no more, although I feel very guilty about not updating for 5 or 6 months. I apologise to the patient readers out there who read my fics.

I am about 2 chapters from the end of this story, so prepare for the (probably coming) sequel...

Set 7th year, however this was started before HBP in March 2005, for new readers.

Thanks to Slim Shady for your review of chapter 17 : )

Chapter 18: Confused and Unknowing

Well, it's going to have to come out sometime…

Minerva McGonagall stood in Dumbledore's office, trying not to face him. She couldn't just tell him that she was in…love with Severus. It would just seem all so...strange.

Five minutes later, he was still sitting in the same spot. She was still standing still and facing the door.

Finally, Albus broke the silence again. "Minerva, you know that I wouldn't tell anybody, even if what you have to say makes you asha-"

"Alright." McGonagall sighed, turning to face Dumbledore. "When Severus and I were trapped in that room, we kind of…got…close."

"Close…you don't mean…"

"Yes, Albus, I do mean like that. That's why Selina hates me." Minerva snapped.

"Well, I'm sure she doesn't hate you…that much…"

"She thinks he's still in love with me." McGonagall whispered. "And I can't even remember how Severus and I got in this whole mess in the first place…I don't know how I could have loved him..."

"It's alright, really…Minerva, you don't have to deny anything…"

The door suddenly opened. "May I have a word with…"

Severus stood in the doorway, lost for words.

McGonagall was staring back at him, somehow feeling quite alienated.

Albus watched the two of them looking at each other.

"I came to ask you to come to the Great Hall for breakfast. Everyone is waiting for you." Severus said, not taking the slightest glance at Minerva.

"Oh. Well, I was just going now, wasn't I, Minerva?" Albus replied, picking up his hat and leaving Severus and Minerva behind in the office, walking down the hallway.

"No…well, I…" Minerva stuttered.

"I think it's time we had this discussion." Severus said, with that element of darkness he always managed. "Let me get one thing straight; you're still in love with me…"

"Well, yes – I mean, no – god, I don't know anymore!" Minerva exclaimed. "I mean, I do, but…it never should have happened like this!"

"I don't know whether I love Selina or not. I just don't know. This is so confusing!" Severus replied.

"But you must know!" Minerva exclaimed. "Are you going to come to a decision or not?"

"I'll have a think over breakfast." Severus snapped, turning towards the door.

"Alright." Minerva sighed, following Severus out the door, and walking down the corridor in silence. She had nothing else to say to him.

Realising breakfast had already begun, they reluctantly took the only two seats left, Minerva on Dumbledore's left, and Severus to her left, with Selina on his left. They tried not to look at each other.

"So, have you and Severus sorted your differences out yet?" Dumbledore asked McGonagall.

"We're going to continue after-"

None of them had realised that Trelawney was on the other side of Sinistra, until now, when she was holding up a card, shaking and terrified, into a completely petrified Sinistra's face.

"Ace of spades…oh, you poor darling…you're going to DIE!" Trelawney screamed, suddenly hugging Sinistra as if it depended on her life.

"That's her second death prediction in a week!" Snape hissed.

"Get away from me, you mad, crazy woman!" Sinistra barked, pushing Trelawney away from her. "I am not going to die!"

Trelawney looked incredibly offended this time.

"Sybil, if you wouldn't mind, could we have a word?" Dumbledore asked, after he had calmed the students for a second time, then proceeding to walk her outside.

"Don't worry, Selina." Snape replied.

"She's completely and utterly -"

"Confused." McGonagall finished.

Sinistra glared at her.

"Well, not quite the word I was looking for, Minerva." Sinistra replied. "I'd say completely and utterly -"

"Let's just say Sybil is a very confused woman who doesn't know where on earth her mind lies." Snape snapped, knowing Sinistra was about to use about a hundred expletives in that sentence if he hadn't cut her off.

Completely utter nutter, fucking woman – how about we just kill you off first? Then your prediction will never come true!

Sinistra was clearly in a very bad mood, especially towards Minerva.

"So what took you both so long to get down here?" Selina asked, skeptically.

"We have sorted out a few things, Selina, and now I think it would be nice to try and sort out a few things between you and me, Selina." McGonagall replied. "I cannot work like this -"

Trying to be nice to me! How far will she go? Since when were you ever nice to me, Minerva McGonagall? Since when has anyone been nice to me in a while? Predicting my damn death…as if! You're trying to get on my fiancé's side now!

"Quit the acting, Minerva. You and I both know that this will never, never, EVER -"

Saskia had interrupted at the wrong moment. "What's never, ever?" she asked.

Severus knew what Selina was about to say. Before he could reply, Minerva had already left the hall.

And before Selina could stop him, he had already rushed after her.

"Where's Severus going?" Saskia asked.

"Listen to me, Saskia," Selina snapped, sitting Saskia down on her knee and preparing to whisper in her ear, "I don't want you to see Minerva anymore."

"Why?" Saskia asked. "She's really nice to me -"

"Well, she's hasn't been very nice to me." Selina snapped, trying to put it into terms Saskia might understand.

"You still haven't answered my first question." Saskia replied.

Shocked that she had remembered, Sinistra replied, "I'll never, ever, ever stop loving you, Saskia," then kissed her on the forehead.

"And Mummy, one more thing, I saw Professor Sprout reading a newspaper, and there's a photo of Dad on the front page." Saskia said.

Sinistra got out of her seat, and walked over to where Sprout and Flitwick were sitting. Seeing Flitwick was now reading it, she tried to look at the front page when Sprout interrupted.

"Selina?" she asked. "Are you looking for something?"

"Can I have that newspaper for a moment, Filius?" Sinistra asked.

Before he could reply, her mouth dropped open as she read the front page headline:


To be continued…(as I leave you in suspense, once again)

crystal baulle