The brilliant manga that is Chrono Crusade (or Chrno Crusade to all you die-hards) does not belong to me. This ficlet contains major spoilers for pretty much everything in the series, but they won't make a lot of sense unless you know what they are. Except the main point, of course.
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It was my decision to let her go. I could have stopped her, could have made sure she didn't make it into the Militia, could have kept her at the Monastery until she was older than Sister Kate. I could have tied her down and left her there, I could have broke the contract and left…
Better yet, I could have never made the contract in the first place. I could have died and left her for Father Remington to find and everything would be fine. She would live a nice long life and I could never have brought her all this heartache.
It's too much, too quickly. I can't handle it.
Just a while ago she was fine, then I—I did what I swore I would never do. How could I? I killed her, I killed her. Just like Mary Magdalene, just like everyone. What I touch, dies. Nothing I try will ever make it right again.
My contract is what killed Mary Magdalene. My horns are what corrupted Joshua. My rage is what killed Rosette. My arrogance is what started it all.
Aion and I…
If I had stepped down from the start, left him alone to fulfil his dream, then none of this would ever have happened. Without me he would be nothing now. Not a menace, not a Sinner, maybe no even alive. All because of me.
Rosette is dead. Dead in my arms, just like Mary. Feathers everywhere, but they aren't really there. Tears and blood soak us both, one horn has meshed back with my skull but it wasn't enough. I regained my power too late.
I've failed everyone. Aion, Satella, Azmaria, Ewan…
Joshua and Rosette…
I owe you all so much, but I don't have anything to give. There's nothing I can do but kill, and death doesn't bring life. Countering death with death doesn't make things even, it just makes things wrong.
Now Rosette is dead. Just when we got Joshua back, she died. And it was because of me.
I'm so sorry. So, so, so sorry.
I don't have anything left to give. No healing, no sheilds, no promises.
I'm sorry, Mary.
I'm sorry, Joshua.
I'm sorry, Rosette. You most of all.
This is all my fault. I could have done something, anything, and I didn't. Instead I did everything and I killed her and everyone is going to die because of me. Everything is going to die, and it's all my fault.
The worst part of all this is that I don't care that everything is going to die, that we've failed and Aion is going to win. The only thing I care about, the thing that I won't let me stop screaming, is that…Rosette….
You're dead, Rosette. You're dead and it's because of my decision. I'm so sorry.
Can you hear me, Rosette? I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Please don't leave me all alone. Please, Rosette, come back to me. Please…!
- Fin -
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