Roy hadn't wanted to admit to it, which was no change. He didn't want to admit that the Fullmetal alchemist was gone. Roy wouldn't believe it till he saw a body.
However, he was certain he was never going to find one so he kept waiting. Waiting for the Fullmetal alchemist to return. Return so Roy could see him one last time. But would it really be the last time? He would just keep saying one last time, craving forever for just one more kiss, one more brush of hands, or one more moment.
Something fate could never grant him.