Sorry for that long ass wait. I've had this done for a while, just never got around to post it till now. I'm bored. Go figure. Anyway! Enjoy the last chapter!


Chapter 7: The Tape

"Is friend Raven okay?" asked Starfire a few hours later.

"She will be," Robin replied. "But I can't help but wonder why she would do something like this."

Beastboy remained quiet as he stared out the window. Terra stood next to him, watching his blank eyes. Starfire turned to him and blinked.

"Do you know, Beastboy?"

Reality snapped him back. The changling turned to his questioner and shrugged. Terra and Starfire exchanged glances.

"But you do know, don't you?" said Robin, folding his arms across his chest.

"Leave him alone, Robin. He's had a ruff day," Terra ordered placing a hand on Beastboy's shoulder.

Beastboy moved his body from her touch.

"Can I see her?" he asked Robin.

"Sure. Cyborg's just finishing up."

He walked inside. Several wires were hooked up to his Raven.

'She's not mine anymore,' he thought. 'I don't even know who she is.'

Cyborg looked up.

"She'll be okay soon. I bet she'll be up in a few hours and we'll take out that breathing tube."

Beastboy sighed. The half man moved next to him. He placed a hand on her shoulder.

"The last thing she said before she passed out was that she was sorry to you. I don't know what happened between the two of you, but I know something did. Y'all can't keep it quiet for too long before someone notices. I know that she likes you, maybe even loves you. She said she felt something different. I don't know what she meant. All I know is that she needs you to pull out of this cause I'm not going to let her do this again."

Tears found their way to Beastboy's eyes. He collapsed into a chair. Cyborg looked at him.

"I'm the reason she did this. I told her that I loved her than betrayed her. She wanted to end it all because of me and I don't know what to do anymore."

Cyborg nodded.

"Then you need to tell her that."

"I did!" he said through gritted teeth. "I told her that I love her and only her. She didn't believe me. I should have seen it sooner. I should have stopped her. I failed her. I nearly killed her."

"No, she nearly killed herself. Not you."

Cyborg left the room leaving the beeping of a heart monitor and a soft rain hitting the window. Beastboy looked up. The girl lying on the bed wasn't the girl he once knew. She was gone with him as the killer. Standing, he stubbled over to her. He noticed the bandages around both of her wrists and winced. He thought he had saved her, but he failed. Wrapping one of her hands in his, he leaned down and kissed her forehead gently, not caring that Terra was walking into the room. The earth mover stood in the doorway silently. Her eyes moved from Beastboy to Raven then back again. Even admiss the beeping from the heart monitor, silence filled the room. Terra didn't even have to say a word.

"I'm sorry, Terra."

"For what?" she asked knowing full well what he was talking about.

"I don't love you anymore. Maybe...I never did."

Silence came again. Terra walked over to him and gave him a hug. He returned it but without his hand that was around Raven's. The girl pulled back. She smiled. Beastboy nodded.

"Thank you for understanding," he said.

"In a way, I always knew."

A smile creeped across his face.

"I'll still kick your butt on Space Race 2005."

"You wish!"

"Bring it!"

They both laughed. Then, they fell silent.

"You better treat her like you treated me. She'll need it," said Terra.

"Yeah," he replied looking down at Raven. "Maybe I'll be even better."

Terra smirked. She turned and left the room. Beastboy's smile didn't fade. His emerald eyes watched Raven, not letting him forget anything. He didn't want to forget her. He never did. She was sick and he needed to help her.

xxxxxTwo Weeks Laterxxxxx

"Yo, B! You got mail!"

Beastboy flew off the couch and practically tackled down Cyborg for the package in his hand. The emerald eyed teen ripped open the box and pulled out a tape and three envelopes. He opened one. It was from a hospital. Robin and Cyborg eyed him cautiously. Beastboy groaned.

"Dude! These guys are expensive!"

"What else do ya expect! They're docs!" Cyborg replied.

"Just open up another one," Robin said taking the bill from Beastboy.

Beastboy opened another one. This one was a doctor's note.

"What does it say?" asked Starfire.

Beastboy read it out loud.

"Dear Teen Titans,

I am sending you this tape and this note-"

"Not to mention the bill," Terra said under her breath.

"Hey, shut it!" Cyborg ordered.

Beastboy continued.

"Your friend is doing very well. She should be out in no longer than a month. We have given her medications and we will be taking her off of those soon. I am surprised by her recovery. She seems to really want to get better. I am glad that you had sent her to us when you did. The depression in her mind was eatting at her sense. She couldn't think straight and I think that was the cause for the suicide attempt. I also believe that false truths in her thoughts were guiding her down the wrong path. She now knows what is true and what is false. Also, I believe that she will be in a much better mood for the most part. I don't think anyone will get hurt for a long time, but I could be wrong. From what she tells me, one certain person annoys her to the point of insanity."

They all laughed except for Beastboy and Starfire. He looked at them.

"Dude, what's so funny?"

"That was so normal Rave!" Terra said with a large grin.

"Who was the doctor talking about?"

"He was talking about B, Star," replied Cyborg.


Beastboy glared at them. He knew that it was true, he just didn't want to say anything. He wanted to prove that he wasn't the idiot Raven said he was. So, he continued to read the letter.

"I hope that she doesn't do something too mean. I don't think that could help her to a full recovery. I just wanted to update you and send you this tape. We have several conversations recorded onto the tape and I thought you would like to hear them. They start from the beginning of her recovery to the most recent. I hope you enjoy.

Doctor W. C. Taylor"

Beastboy put the letter down. He looked at the last letter. Slowly, he reached down and picked it up. Opening the envelope, he noticed a familiar writing. It was Raven's. So, he quickly put the letter in a pocket.

"Why are you not reading that one, Beastboy?" Starfire asked.

"I want to read it alone. And I would like to watch the tape alone, too."

"Go ahead," said Robin. "It is yours after all."

Beastboy nodded and took the tape to his room. He entered and locked the door. After tripping on several things, he found his way to his own TV and VCR. He put the tape in. The screen showed a white room with Raven sitting on a wooden chair. She was alone and looking down at her feet. There was a voice from nowhere.

"What is your name?" the voice asked.

"Raven Roth," the hollow teen replied.

Beastboy watched in amazement. That was what she was like right after the attempt.

"How old are you?" the questions continued.


"Do you know why you are here?"

"I'm sick and he wants me to get better?"

"Who, my dear?"

"Beastboy," she said looking up at the camera.

Beastboy held his breath.

"Do you know why he wants you to get better?"

She nodded.

"You didn't answer my question."

"Do I have to?"


She sighed. Beastboy grinned. That was his Raven.

"He wants me to get better because I tried to kill myself."

"Why did you do that?"

"Because I thought that he didn't love me."

Those words echoed in his mind. He loved her with everything in him. The tape flashed to another session. Raven sat in the same chair, but she stared at the camera. Emptiness still filled her violet eyes. Beastboy still did not breathe.

"How are you feeling today, my dear?" the voice asked.

"I feel...empty. Like, I have nothing to live for."

"Do you still want to die?"

She hesitated before she replied.


Beastboy's heart dropped. He didn't know how long ago this was, but he hated it. He just wanted to scream at the TV. She knew the difference between right and wrong and he knew it. He knew almost everything about her.

"Do you know how long you have been here?"

"I lost track after the first hour."

"I want a correct answer, Raven."

She sighed.

"Four days."

"So, four days and you still want to die? Why is that?"

"Because I hate it here."


"This place isn't making me feel better. I want to go home."

"You can't, my dear. Do you know why?"

"Because he wants me to get better," she replied looking down.



"Why is that?"

"Because," she looked up. "he loves me."

Taking in a deep breath, Beastboy nearly fainted. The screen changed again. The date said that she had been there for ten days. He looked at a different Raven. She didn't look empty, she looked confused.

"How do you feel today, Raven?"

"I feel confused."


"I don't know what is right anymore."

"Why is that?"

"They say that hurting myself and trying to kill myself is bad. They say that I was wrong and I need to live out my life. But I want to die."

"Do you know why you can't?"


"Then, why are you still alive?"

"Because I love him and I want to get better for him."

"Who's him, Raven? Do we have to go through this everytime?"

"Do you have to ask the same stupid question when you know the answer?"

Beastboy laughed. That was his Raven. There was silence in the tape. Raven slowly smiled, a hint of slyness in her eyes.

"I think I got you speechless," she said.

"Now, Raven. You're not supposed to do that. You know why we have this questionair."

"Yeah, because you want to see the difference in my attitude. I know. I also know that I have you speechless."

Beastboy laughed some more. She got them good. She had them in a corner that they couldn't get out of. That was how smart she was. The tape flickered to another session. This one was at the two week mark.

"How do you feel?"

She sighed.

"I'm bored."

"Why is that?"

"You are asking the same dumb question."

He laughed yet again.

"Just answer the question," the voice said, quite annoyed.

"I feel better, but I don't know if that is because of the medication you have me on or the fact that you are annoyed by me."

"Why do you say that?"

"Depends on what you are talking about."

"The annoyed part."

A smiled creeped across her face.

"Because I am outwitting you."

"Now, why do you think you feel better because of the medication?"

"Take me off of it for three days and question me then. You might have a real answer."

Beastboy laughed harder. The tape flashed. It was three days later. The empty Raven was back. There was dark circles around her eyes and she held onto her arms.

"How do you feel today, my dear?"

"So empty. So alone."

"Is is because you are off the medication?"

"No, it is because you aren't helping me get better. I want to get better."

"Why is that?"

"I want to be with him. I have to be with him. I can't be away from him any longer."

"Can you promise to work harder than before? Can you get better?"

"Yes. Please, just help me. I have to be with him."

The tape flashed again. It was the first month.

"How are you feeling today?"

"Alright, I guess."

"Do you know how long you have been in here?"

"A month."

"Why do you feel alright?"

"I'm not better, but I am getting there. I think that I am almost there."

"To what?"

"To going home. I want to go home."


"Because I want to be with him."


"Because I love him."

Beastboy's heart jumped. She loved him. She had not told him face to face yet, but he knew that she did deep inside. The tape flashed again. It was a month and a half. Raven said crosslegged, hovering in the air. She looked like she normally did.

"How are you feeling?"

"I'm really bored. I want something to do and I have to pee."

Beastboy laughed hysterically. She was almost normal.

"You can wait."

"I'm half tempted to teleport out of here."

"You won't."

"How do you know?"



"What did you do today?"

"Well, you made me sit in a room with a switchblade."

"Why did I do that?"

"Because you wanted to see if I would use it."

"So, what did you do with it?"

"Have you seen it?"

"No. What did you do with it?"

"I blew it up."

The tape flashed. It was recorded two days ago.

"How do you feel today?"

"How many times are you going to ask me the same question?"

"When will you answer correctly?"

She sighed, clearly annoyed. This was the normal Raven, his Raven. She was almost ready to come back home. He wanted her back home.

"Alright, I'm much better."

"Do you have suicidal thoughts?"


"Do you want to cut?"


"Do you want to go home?"


"What if I told you you could go home in two days?"

Her eyes lit up. Then, the tape ended.

"Dude! What happened!"

"I came home," Raven said standing behind him.

Beastboy turned. His eyes grew wide. Raven was standing there, her arms folded.


A half smile creeped across her face.

"Hey, Beastboy."

He jumped up and rushed to her. Smiling, he pulled her into a hug. She wrapped her arms around his neck, her head resting on his shoulder.

"I missed you so much," she whispered.

"I missed you too."

"Did you read my letter?"

Beastboy pulled back. He pulled the letter out of his pocket.

"Not yet, but why? I have you here now."

"Just read it," she said.

He opened it up and looked at it. There was one line written on it. Just one. He looked at her. She smiled.

"I love you."

"I thought you would never say that."

She blushed. He grinned and pulled her back into his arms. He rose one hand to her lips and gently rubbed his thumb across them.

"You have no idea how long I have wanted to kiss you again."

"I don't? I thought that you wouldn't ever kiss me again."

"Don't think like that. I would give anything to kiss you again."

"Then prove it."

So, he did.


Such a cute story. I'll try to finish the really sweet one I'm working on now!

Hikari Moriyaku