Let Me Go
A Robin x Starfire One-shot
A/N: This is my first Teen Titans fic; I hope it hasn't been done a thousand times already. The idea came to me after listening to Three Doors Down's "Let Me Go," hence the title. I would have made this a songfic, but FFdotnet is anal about putting lyrics into stories now. So, I've incorporated lyrics into the dialogue.
I look longingly at her pouty, pink lips. What a joy it would be to kiss them, just once. Her emerald eyes are filled to the brim with unshed tears as she reaches out to me. I step away.
"I don't know who I am," I tell her. "I must find myself." I lead a life of crime-fighting which, in itself, is a good thing; however, the secrets I must keep from my teammates, and the secrets they must keep from me, are becoming my downfall. I don't know what my purpose is yet; I must find it before it is too late. Am I destined to fight evil on a daily basis, and then die?
She starts to cry, burying her face in her hands. She shakes her head in sobbing protest, her crimson locks flying all over the place. "Do not go," she whispers.
I turn away from her. The sight of her quivering body and the sound of her sobs make me want to forget about my journey and take her into my arms, promising to never let go. I clench my hands into fists at my side to keep them from shaking. "No matter how hard I try, I can't escape these things inside. There are too many secrets in my life. In this world, there's real and make believe."
"This seems real to me!" she screams back, her hands flying out to the sides. I close my eyes, trying not to look at her reddened eyes and damp cheeks.
"You love me, but you don't know who I am," I inform her curtly. She gasps at the statement, and I hear her agonizing sobs again. I continue, "I won't leave forever."
"Do not leave at all," she begs. I don't know how much more of her pleading I can take. Why can't I just stay? I steel myself. I am about to give into her wishes, but I cannot. I must find out who I am.
"In my head, there is only you now."
I look back at her then, a bit surprised by her admission. I walk the few steps toward her and pull her into my arms, taking in the scent of her hair. She wraps her slender arms around my neck, crying even harder than before. Hot tears drip onto my shoulder, and the knowledge that I've caused them stings me even more.
With one arm still wrapped around her waist, I reach up with the other gloved hand and pull off my mask – my precious secret. I push back from her, and she looks up at me. Her emerald orbs widen, and her hand flies to her mouth. I slowly reach down and grasp one of her hands. I pull it up to cup my cheek, savoring the warmth which I will most likely never feel again. I place my mask, my identity, in her open hand and turn away.
"Let me go."
I begin to walk away, closing myself off to her screams and cries. I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand. Once I've found out who I truly am and what my destiny is, maybe then I can return and pick up the broken pieces of our hearts.
I hope you all enjoyed it. Just a little snippet for me to pass an hour with. Please let me know what you think.