I don't own Lily and Ray... or anything affiliated with RFR. Just a hardcore fan... trying to keep the memory ofthe show she loved... ALIVE!


Sound Wave, what a messed up
mix bag of emotions...
Lily realized it had been all she wanted,

a chance to express herself and let everyone know what was important to her.

Then again, it had been a chance to express herself and let everyone know what was important to her, or rather who. Be careful what you wish for...

She had worked so hard for weeks to even get on the stand-by list for Soundwave, now she almost wished she never made the cut. IN SHORT, it was a disaster beyond belief...

NO amount of the audience's adoration or the congratulatory back-pats she received on her way to get through to Ray could compensate for her loss...
Those words still rang in her ear, and her voice would be forever haunted by the release of the utmost desire in her heart...

Now, everyone knew, except the one who need to know most...
She could still almost taste the desperation on her lips...

anything to make him stay, except asking him to.
Her last impassioned plea, "Ray, I love you..." Fell on deaf ears.

Now she was determined to never feel anything real ever again,

to never be passionate about anything or anyone else.

She would pretend from now on, to be living 'til she was blue in the face!

Ray was her life, so now inside she was dead and wasn't sure she'd ever be able to come back.

To see him kiss Grace, to witness 'her' take Ray's hand and lead him away from her... had broken Lily's heart beyond repair... WORSE, IT WAS ALL HER FAULT!

SHE SAW EVERYTHING SO CLEARLY NOW,

all that lead up to this devastating moment... SHE SAW TRUTH!
She knew then, this pain she now bore, this agony would be hers for life.
She needed to get out of there... back to the only place that could comfort her, where she could be her true self, one last time for one last song(the one that had gotten her in this mess to begin with), she would go there before the mask would begin to fall into place, before the lies began. Where she could be "Shady Lane" and say want she really wanted to; not scared little Lily Randall who would hold herself back from what she wanted. Her sanctuary, the station was the only place she could run to for shelter now, so in the midst of the crowd as she saw Ray's retreating figure,

SHE ran as fast and as far away as she could in the other direction...