Still Staring

By: unnamed

This is for all those Filipino writers out there! Hope you enjoy!

This is in Syaoran's P.O.V. just a normal day in class for Syaoran!

If this seems to come from another fic then gomen! I didn't mean to steal it honest! T.T I was just at work and then this idea just struck me in the head! D

Here I am again staring at the back of your head. Even though I have seen it hundreds of times, yet I can't stop staring.

I can never get sick staring the back of your head, I guess if you knew about that you'd probably think that I'm crazy… which is why I try really hard for you not to notice…

You're killing me back here Kinimoto… you're my rival, my enemy, so how did this happen? How did you reduce me to… to… to this..?

How can you reduce me to think of you every living second of my day? And torment me with dreams of you at night? How…?

Your head then moves to the right as you stare at the teacher with intense concentration, giving me a better view of you. I know I shouldn't but I can't help myself… it's not right but it feels so good that I can't stop myself… you're a drug to me Kinimoto… you're not good for my system yet I can't help myself…

My attention shifts to your lips as you try to understand what the teacher was saying. I felt myself shiver as you're lips curl, imagining my own lips against yours.

Damn it! I try knocking some sense into my head as I slam it repeatedly against my table…

Why? Why? WHY? … why isn't that I just give-up on these fantasies of mine? You can never like me right? I mean look what I did to you when we first met? Us being able to be friends isn't that shocking enough?

Sakura, I mean—oh my god… I called you by your first name didn't I? sigh this brings me to another topic…

Do you remember when we first started calling each other by our first names right? Well Meilin told that to my family back home… well… let's put it this way people who are in my family and ONLY in my family can call me by my first name… so when Meiling reported that to my family they thought that I wanted you INSIDE the family… don't get me wrong though… I do want you to be inside the family but what chance do I have…? and now, they're more than thrilled to meet their cute future-in-law…

My attention then moves as I hear something fall unto the floor… it was a pen… your pen…

Time seemed to slow as I observe you pick it up… my eyes taking in every detail as I take in every style and grace as you pick the pen up… God I'm pathetic…

I see Hirigazawa as he just stare at me with a sly smile on his face and he casually began to stare back in front…

Seriously that guy just gives me the creeps and I can't help being mad at him… why? Because I'm jealous… that you can think of him more than just a friend…

I should stop this and just confess what I feel for you… to tell you that I would lie for you… that I will save form any danger… and that I will protect you if every last bit of my strength… that every step I take is for you… that I will die for you…

But I won't… I can't… I want to see you happy… even not from my own arms… I will be glad that you are happy…

The bell rings signaling the end of class…

I was looking through my files and found the original version! Wai! This seems to be a better one though… hope you like it!

Ja ne!