Disclaimer: If I owned Naruto, trust me, those two would have hooked up years ago before Sasuke even thought of leaving the village, and would be making many babies right now, as we speak. Nuff said!
Author's Note: Wow, I wonder if anybody even remembers this fic and will read this update. I sure hope so. Apologies, I'm sure, are not enough to gain forgiveness from my readers for how long I have neglected this fic, so I might as well stop typing this note and get started on the chapter already. (And get ready… this one's LONG.)
Finale - "Exodus of the Heart"
If you thought their lives would have simply ended in "happily ever after," well you were wrong. Such things only happen in fairytales. Both Sasuke and Naruto had gone through way too much until now for them to just pop back into their daily routines sans any worries or problems. They both still had deep wounds in their hearts and minds that were slowly becoming permanent scars, directly affecting their words and actions. Neither one of them could completely forget everything and move on as if nothing had happened.
Naruto was slowly mending his wounds, both mentally and physically. The heavy sense of grief and remorse that was weighing down on his very soul was getting lighter, ounce by ounce. His smiles occurred more frequently, gaining a tiny bit of shine as he let the brighter side of life take over inch by inch. The words that came out of his mouth, that were once mere whispers of a ghost, were little by little gaining confidence and a cheerful tone.
On the other hand, Sasuke's mental state got worse after the night that Naruto had attempted to abandon the village. It was as if the whole situation had traumatized him and caused him to feel some sort of constant fear and uneasiness, which he tried his best to keep to himself. Even if Sasuke attempted to hide this horrible feeling that was gnawing away at his insides, the dark haired man couldn't help but send a messenger bird to Naruto at least twice everyday to make sure he was safe and sound at the Uchiha mansion. He even wished sometimes that he wasn't an ANBU captain, so that he may spend most of the day with the blonde man. Naruto had suddenly become an entity that was made out of dust, and in Sasuke's eyes, he was something so delicate, that the lightest of winds could blow him away forever.
It was hard for Sasuke to believe that someone out there could have inflicted such a huge impact on him other than Itachi, but it was flat out the truth. It was somewhat scary how much control Naruto had over him, even if the blonde man was seemingly oblivious to it. A single word or action from Naruto could cause the dark haired man the greatest happiness possible, or the worst pain existent.
At first, Naruto didn't think too deeply of it, smiling to himself at the loving gestures of the other man. Every time he received a message questioning his well-being, it made the blonde man's heart beat faster, and with trembling hands, he always made sure send back the bird with a message confirming his "safe and soundness." This was all so new to him; someone who cared so much to check on him multiple times a day, especially from the Uchiha Sasuke, who didn't speak more than three words per sentence and never smiled at a single soul.
Naruto felt like the luckiest person existent, being the only in the whole world to get to see this softer side of Sasuke.
Well, at least until Naruto truly started noticing things were not at all fine.
Sasuke always did all the purchasing and kitchen stocking, since he was the one with the enviable income of an ANBU officer. Plus, the man wouldn't straight up admit it, but he didn't want Naruto going to such public places all on his own. It not only worried his overly-protective self to no limits, but it extremely bothered his other very possessive self as well. He didn't want anybody setting eyes on his blonde lover, or talking to him, or attempting anything at all in general. As a matter of fact, he just wished Naruto wouldn't step a single foot out of his home so that he wouldn't even have to worry about worrying altogether.
But to Sasuke's dismay, Naruto was a free-spirited person by nature, and as his old self started to slowly appear once again in the blonde man, it was unavoidable for him venture out on his own sooner or later.
It all started with one particular food item: ramen.
Sasuke would not, absolutely not let Naruto eat a single strand of ramen noodle. When the kyuubi vessel had somehow gotten his hands on some cups of instant ramen and helped himself to some, Sasuke threw the biggest fit he had ever seen a guy throw.
"Naruto, your health is not fully back to how it used to be. Do you not know that ramen is very unhealthy for you? Why, why are you doing this? Please, angel, it is already distressing to me how frail you have become and that the... that... thing's chakra has significantly diminished, affecting your recovery rate severely. Let's please... please try our best to stay away from things that will only worsen everything instead of improving them, okay? Can you do this for me?" he had said, in a shaky and extremely flustered voice, while firmly holding Naruto's shoulders with his hands.
Bewildered, Naruto's aquamarine eyes had widened at the sudden outburst of the older man, not quite knowing how to react to such strange behavior coming from Sasuke. First of all, the dark haired man had uttered more sentences in a row than he normally did in an entire month. Second, it all was filled with such anxiety and concern, that it ripped Naruto's heart to shreds that he had done something to cause Sasuke such distress.
After a few seconds of uncomfortable silence, Naruto finally opened his mouth. "I... I'm sorry Sasuke," he managed to whisper out, guilt written all over his face. "I just... I wasn't thinking. Please, don't be upset." With a shaky hand, he reached out and placed it on Sasuke's cold cheek.
Sasuke closed his eyes and let out a long sigh. He placed his own hand on top of Naruto's, pressing it firmly against his cheek. He then softly whispered out in a shaky voice, "I'm sorry too, Naruto. I didn't mean to go off on you like that. I'm very sorry, I..." the man's apologies were cut short when he suddenly felt soft warm lips on his own. He was caught off guard at first, but quickly let himself be carried away by the deepening kiss. After a few seconds, both sides started struggling for air and gently pulled away from each other. Kissing Naruto was something so amazing to Sasuke, that everytime they did it, he felt like the blonde man was sucking not only his breath, but his very soul away from him.
Naruto looked up at Sasuke with a loving look before stating, "Okay, we will both try our best to not upset the other from now on. I will stay away from ramen as much as possible, but you will let me have it once in a while, okay? Sound good?"
"Fine," the black haired man gave in with one simple word. There was no way he could argue with his angel. Especially if said angel was looking up at him with the most beautiful and impossibly innocent looking light blue eyes. The conversation ended with a tight hug, and a good night's sleep in each other's comforting arms.
A week or so passed by after that night with no huge issues crossing their way. Sasuke still sent his messenger birds to check on Naruto, and the blonde would send a confirmation accordingly every single time. Naruto was still somewhat scared of the real world, and how it would treat him or react to his return. He remained at the mansion most of the time unless he was running very quick and simple errands to the grocery shop around the corner.
Then that dreaded word 'ramen' happened again. This time, it was in a slightly different way that it caused distress once again in the duo's lives. Iruka had invited Naruto to come to Ichiraku during lunch so that they could catch up on things, and as an excuse to treat his son to his absolute favorite food in the world. Naruto agreed in a heartbeat, because Iruka was the one other person he loved in this world, and he was very eager to see him.
Before leaving the mansion, he made sure to record a return message on one of Sasuke's messenger birds.
I will be having lunch today with Iruka at Ichiraku and perhaps run some small errands. Therefore, I might be home a bit late today. If you are back before I am, please wait for me so that we may have dinner together. Be careful during your mission, and see you very soon.
He then performed the seal accordingly and sent the bird on its way to his love, who was most probably impatiently waiting for his response.
Or… he thought he did.
Naruto didn't realize he had performed the incorrect seal for delivering the message, and instead had dismissed the bird from its duty, along with the letter that was attached. In despite of this mishap, the blonde cheerfully left the mansion to go see his guardian, whom he hadn't talked to in a while. Behind him, the bird that he had sent off flew into the sky and disappeared with a poof of smoke.
Iruka was waiting for him when he got to Ichiraku, and stood up excitedly to give Naruto a tight hug.
"Naruto! I haven't seen you in such a long time! How are you? Are you feeling better? How is your health? How is Sasuke, what is it like living with him?" the jounin bombarded him with questions that had been bottled up inside. The younger man giggled softly and signaled his guardian to have a seat along with him. They ordered their ramen first, and Naruto started answering Iruka's questions one by one.
"Well, I am doing a lot better. I... I still have yet to fully heal both physically and emotionally, but I can safely say that it is all improving day by day," Naruto said, staring at his hands with distant look on his face. Iruka observed and listened quietly as the blonde spoke. It seemed like he was playing everything through in his mind as he told him about his experiences.
"That's good, I'm very glad to hear that, Naruto," Iruka said, smiling.
"The... the kyuubi's power is very weak, very... distant at the moment. Not sure what exactly happened that is causing this change. I don't feel its usual strong healing protective power, rather, it's more like a small presence buried deep inside of me," Naruto continued, turning to look at Iruka with a concerned look. "I mean, it... it might be a good thing actually, you know. With the kyuubi being somewhat of a curse to me..." his sentence trailed off at that, the blonde not knowing how to continue. Iruka quickly sensed Naruto's uneasiness and jumped on to a different subject matter.
"How's the ANBU captain doing? You haven't told me anything about living with him!"
Naruto blushed at the question, his current status with Sasuke being a pretty sensitive matter to him as well. "Well, he is doing well, I think. We both have a lot of work on still... especially leaving the past behind us. Otherwise, everything is good. He is so very good to me, I couldn't have asked for any more from him," he stated with a soft smile on his face. Iruka sighed in relief at the positive answer, but still worried at the two of them still having to "work" on this past of theirs.
"Naruto, what exactly is troubling you? What is this you still need to work on?"
The blonde sighed and stirred his ramen with his chopsticks, trying to think of a good way to explain things.
"I am not quite sure, but I think Sasuke is struggling with everything related to me. I feel like he's trying to cage me in, and control every aspect of my life," he stated. Then he hurriedly added, "I mean, of course, it's not in a horrible psychopath way… but I think he feels he must do this, or else something bad will happen all over again. If any of that makes sense."
Iruka smiled and nodded. "Of course it makes sense. I understand what you are talking about, Naruto. And for a problem like that, there is no solution other than to sit down and talk about it. Both of you need to stop feeling troubled every single minute you're away from each other. You're lacking a very important part of a relationship, and I am sure you know what I am referring to."
Naruto smiled at his guarding, grateful for the helpful and supportive words. "Thanks, Iruka. You are always a life saver. That is exactly what I will do when I get home; have a long chat with Mr. Uchiha. Perhaps have some tea while at it."
Iruka laughed at the small joke and hugged the younger man once again. "It will all be fine, Naruto. You just have to figure out a way to stop worrying about it all."
Naruto just nodded in response.
"All right, well I think I have kept you for too long. You should get going before Sasuke finishes his work for the day and comes back to an empty house."
Naruto rolled his eyes, "trust me, that's the last thing I want. Thanks for lunch, I will talk to you again next time."
They waved at each other and parted ways. Naruto felt like part of whatever it was that was weighing down on his heart had been lifted after his talk with Iruka. At this moment, all he had on his mind was to hurry up and get back home, and patiently wait for his love to come home. He would greet him with a smile on his face, have a pleasant dinner ready, and then he would tell him everything that was on his mind.
Unfortunately, his plans of going back to the mansion were slowed down by the appearance of a certain someone.
His hurried walk down the path toward the mansion was suddenly interrupted by a person he wasn't expecting to run into anytime soon. Naruto gasped as he abruptly stopped in his tracks, and looked at the woman in front of him.
"Sa…Saku…ra…" he managed to gasp out, as his voice trembled. It wasn't from fear, that his body started shaking. It was everything that the pink haired woman had uttered to him. Her poisonous words that had been mercilessly lashed out at him were playing over and over in his mind as they stood in front of each other wordlessly.
"It truly befuddles and bewilders me… just how outrageous it is that Sasuke has fallen for someone like you."
"Why can't you go for someone who is unimportant and worthless like you?"
"His reputation as ANBU captain… heirs for his Uchiha bloodline… have you thought of these things, Naruto?"
"Disappear from this town forever Naruto… and never return."
A few painstakingly slow seconds passed before Sakura finally broke the silence with a surprisingly calm and quiet voice.
"Naruto. I was wondering… if maybe…" she paused, appearing to be going through some sort of inner turmoil. Naruto could sense in her green eyes that she was struggling with whatever she had to say.
"If maybe… we could talk. It won't take long," she finally muttered out. Naruto's eyes widened at the request. He wasn't sure if he was ready to talk to this person who had caused him such great amounts of distress and pain. Just thinking about the things she had said to him while he was still barely recovering at the hospital was enough to making him feel weak at the knees and almost ready to collapse to the ground. He had even subconsciously placed his right hand on his chest, to protect it from any heart stabbing words that could possibly come out of her mouth.
After a few minutes of more silence, Naruto finally felt calm enough to respond. "Sakura, I… I'm not so sure I can speak with you right now."
Sakura looked at him with slightly pained eyes, shocking the blonde haired man. "It really won't take too much of your time, I promise. I really must talk with you, Naruto. There are some things… that I must absolutely say to you. Please," she begged. After a bit more of hesitation, Naruto finally gave in and motioned toward a nearby park. He really hoped he had made the right decision as they walked toward a small bench and sat down at opposite ends. Neither one of them looked sideways to face the other. Both pairs of eyes stared intently at the ground in front of them, as an uncomfortable silence insisted on settling down between them.
Naruto could sense that Sakura was still having a hard time bringing up whatever it was she had to say. "Sakura, I really have to get going soon, what is it you need to talk about?" he inquired, hoping that it would help the pink haired woman spit it all out.
With a voice filled with guilt and remorse, she started speaking.
"I know saying sorry is cliché, and especially in this case, fairly ineffective and meaningless. Therefore, I will say things in a slightly different way. Perhaps you will be able to at least understand, if not forgive." Naruto knew she could see him out of the corner of her eye, so he just nodded in response.
"I think all my life, I have always gotten what I have wanted, one way or another. My parents bought me clothing when I wanted it, and they bought me any sort of food I wanted as well. All I had to say was, 'dad, I want to eat this.' I got things that I didn't even ask for, excuse my bluntness; you liked me back then… you wanted me." Naruto stiffened at her words, remembering the days in which he had fallen for the pink haired girl, and had wanted her to like him back as well. But he didn't let the words hurt him, since he could hear in her voice that she was not saying it in a crude or haughty manner.
She continued, "When I dreamt about being in the same class as… as Sasuke-kun, my dreams came true. When I wished over and over again about being in the same team as Sasuke-kun, my wish came true. Everything… just everything seemed to be going the way I wanted them to go." Letting out a long sigh she then said in a lower voice, "All except the one thing I wanted most. When I asked the skies to grant me Sasuke-kun's love… they did not listen to my pleas." Naruto could hear Sakura's voice softening more and more, and her eyes were most likely filling up with unshed tears. "I felt like I had to do whatever it took to obtain this one thing that I couldn't get, regardless of the consequences. Just like a spoiled brat throwing a tantrum to obtain candy from her parents."
She was now barely speaking her words, her lips trembling. "He…Sasuke… is such an amazing person. Physically, yes, he's amazing. His fighting skills, amazing, his voice, his eyes, his everything… amazing." The pink haired woman finally tore her eyes away from the ground and looked sideways at Naruto with green orbs that were filled with glittering tears. "But what makes him truly amazing, is how he unconditionally and devotedly loves… you." Naruto raised his shocked aquamarine eyes to meet with Sakura's emerald ones.
"Sasuke said some things to me. He said them in that very short and straightforward manner he normally speaks. But with those simple words, he said so much and more. He stated that I could never be the owner of his heart, because someone else already had such a strong grip on it. Not because I am not good enough, or because I lack in any way." A small smile appeared on the woman's thin lips.
"He said I can't, because I just am not," she finally got to the main point of everything she had wanted to say, "and that someone that I am not, is well… you."
Naruto was speechless. He had no idea that Sasuke had gone through such conversation with Sakura, and much less imagined he would have taken the time and effort to explain to her how he felt. Sasuke was by no means someone who would stand there and go through the trouble of wasting time speaking out the deepest of his thoughts and concerns to anybody in general. It brought tears to Naruto's eyes as well, knowing that Sasuke had done it all for him.
"Sasuke… you really are amazing."
"Basically, this whole time I have been trying to achieve the impossible. Cutting my hair short, becoming stronger, crying, begging, trying to get rid of you… it all was pointless since in the end, I am Haruno Sakura. Not Uzumaki Naruto, the one and only owner of Uchiha Sasuke's heart," she said with a smile still lingering on her lips. The blonde man appreciated Sakura's words of apology, but he knew it would also be cliché to respond to it with an 'it's okay, I forgive you' or a 'hopefully we can still be friends.'
He figured she was done with whatever she had to say to him, so he stood up from the bench. Without facing her, he simply said the best thing he could have possibly said to Sakura at the moment.
"I hope you find that which brings you happiness without having to change yourself or anybody else."
Then he walked away without looking back, leaving behind a tearful Sakura. They both knew in their hearts that apology and forgiveness had been exchanged without the need to have said the actual words.
Naruto's heart felt even lighter after meeting Sakura. Today had been a good day.
He stopped in his tracks when he realized where he was standing at. It had been a very long time since he had passed by this place where a memory so dear to his heart had occurred years ago. He could almost see the young Sasuke sitting at the tip of the pier, turning his head so slightly it could have almost gone unnoticed. The blonde man smiled as he remembered the smirk on the boy's face, bringing him joy greater than any other thing in the world could have brought him. The sun was setting in the distance, tinting the entire scenery with dark hues of orange and red. The water rippled and glimmered as the sun's rays reflected off of it. Naruto was admiring how beautiful and surreal everything looked, reminiscing the old days when suddenly two very strong hands grabbed his shoulders roughly, and turned him sideways.
The blonde man gasped in shock and fear, horrifying thoughts crossing his mind. Then he looked up and saw the owner of the hands, and sighed in relief.
"Sa…Sasuke! You scared me!" he exclaimed. "What are you doing he-…" He was interrupted when an extremely angry and flustered Sasuke started yelling at him, shaking his shoulders while at it.
"Where in the world have you been Naruto? Why didn't you respond to my messenger bird? Do you have any idea how worried out of my mind I have been? What is wrong with you, is this some sort of sick joke or something?" the dark haired man barked out nonstop accusations and questions, with a tone of voice very uncharacteristic of Sasuke. Naruto just stared back at the sweaty and fuming Sasuke, speechless. The older man looked like an absolute mess, as if he'd been drop kicked into the deepest and darkest corners of hell and had somehow crawled and dragged himself back out.
"Sasuke… I have no idea what you are talking about. I did send you a message back! I swear I did!"
Sasuke stared at Naruto with an incredulous look on his face, and sarcastically said, "Yeah you must have. Or wait, you must have imagined you did. You know why? Because I didn't get any sort of response from you! I waited a few minutes, which turned into a couple hours. Do you have any idea what was going through my mind when that second hour passed by?" He started to sound less angry and more toward the agitated side. His voice then suddenly turned into a pained whisper. "I thought… I thought you had disappeared again. I started panicking, I literally flew back to the mansion, and when you were nowhere to be found, I… oh God, Naruto. Don't do this to me ever again, please."
It took the blonde a few seconds to figure out what exactly was happening. He was extremely confused at Sasuke's sudden outburst, and the older man's trembling hands that were holding on to his shoulders like dear life, made his own body start trembling as well. Naruto then raised his hands and gently placed them on Sasuke's cheeks.
"Love, I am so sorry… it must have been some sort of mistake. I attached a note to the bird, explaining to you that I was going out to have lunch with Iruka and that I might be back late. I guess I accidentally dismissed the message from being sent. Please forgive me," Naruto calmly explained to the poor flustered man.
After a few moments of registering Naruto's words through his brain, Sasuke's expression visibly softened. It didn't change the fact that he still felt extremely shaken and upset from the whole ordeal, but he was relieved beyond words to see that it had been a misunderstanding, and Naruto was safe and sound. Letting out a long sigh, the black haired man muttered out, "I'm sorry I raised my voice at you like that." Naruto just smiled and nodded in response.
Returning the smile, Sasuke looked down at his love and laid a soft kiss on his forehead, blonde locks tickling his lips. Naruto felt touched by the simple gesture, and said, "Sasuke, I thank you so much for everything. For rescuing me when I was about to step into eternal darkness... for taking care of me when I needed it the most... and most importantly, for... for loving me back like I love you." He meant every word he said with all his heart and more. It was obvious that there were guilt issues related with it as well, but Naruto could tell that Sasuke's love for him was the main reason for it all, and he felt blessed. He felt that this was the perfect time to have that "talk" as Iruka had suggested earlier. There would be no coffee or tea available, but he absolutely felt like he had to bring it up now.
Naruto then gently held Sasuke's face with his hands once again to make sure he had the older man's full and undivided attention, and added, "But you can't go on being like this. I completely understand the extent of the hardships we both had to go through, and the resulting wounds have been extremely difficult to mend." Sasuke's deep black eyes didn't stop staring intently at Naruto's, paying attention to every single word he said.
"But if you continue treating me... us, like our relationship's made of out something that will come crashing down at the slightest tremor, things will never get better. It'll all stay the same forever, with both of us struggling with our inner fears and insecurities," Naruto stated as his eyes started to moisten. The whole conversation was a very sensitive one, since both of them had been avoiding having to deal with the subject matter. Sasuke tore his eyes away from Naruto's face, looked down at the grass and sighed heavily.
With trembling lips, Naruto managed to smile at the distressed Sasuke. "Honey, the strongest of bonds in the world are built upon trust. They are results of each entity being confident of being able to love and protect the other, no matter what happens... whether it's good or bad. It's not about being afraid of someone possibly not being present or disappearing, it's about knowing that he/she will be there for you when you need them the most."
A teardrop trickled down Naruto's cheek as he whispered out his next phrase, "Sasuke... I want our love to be built upon those things. I don't want to see an uneasy and unhappy Sasuke everyday, I don't... I don't want to always have to be careful with every single little detail in my life. We have to try to start living life normally, with the secure feeling of having each other present. I trust with all of my soul that you, Uchiha Sasuke, will always be there for me when I need you most, and I would like to ask for the same sort of trust from you as well. Do you understand me, love? Do you feel what I'm feeling inside my heart?"
Naruto grabbed the older man's hand and placed it on his chest, where his heart was beating and crying out its love and trust for the dark haired man. He wanted Sasuke to listen to his words not with just his hearing, but with the deepest parts of his heart as well. This was something he wished for more than anything in this world. He was sick and tired of living life with the past gnawing and chasing him from behind, and watching Sasuke suffering the same sort of torture he was going through.
An infinite amount of thoughts and feelings were rushing through Sasuke's mind, and Naruto could see it all being reflected through those dark eyes of his. Worry, concern, anger, remorse, guilt, pain, frustration, and so much more.
But what mattered the most, was that there was this undeniable love that was still present amongst the turmoil, and it stood out like a white dove amongst ravens.
Sasuke leaned forward, embracing Naruto in a tight hug. After a moment of silence, he whispered into Naruto's ear, "Yes, I feel what your heart is feeling. And you have my trust. All of it."
The blonde sighed both in relief and happiness. He pulled out of Sasuke's embrace and sat down on the grass, grabbing Sasuke's hand, pulling him down as well. Sasuke sat next to Naruto and looked at him with questioning eyes.
"I haven't seen the sun setting in the horizon for the longest time. So I want to see it today," Naruto firmly stated, staring off into the distance. Sasuke just nodded in response.
After a few minutes, Naruto turned his head when he heard Sasuke shuffling through his pockets for something.
"What is it, Sasuke?" he worriedly asked. His concerns were soon replaced by surprise when he saw what Sasuke had pulled out of his pocket. "Oh my goodness... it's the... it's that pendant! I thought I had lost it forever!" he exclaimed. Sasuke smiled, carefully clasping the necklace around Naruto's neck. "I'm giving this to you today as symbol of my trust in that you will always be there for me. I gave specific instructions to this little guy to protect you when I'm not around."
Naruto laughed at Sasuke's unusual and rare silliness. It amazed him to no ends when the dark haired man could show some sense of humor once in a blue moon. At the same time, it was such a touching and loving gesture, that it made Naruto's heart beat faster. He looked down and gently caressed the blue gem with his thumb.
"Thank you, Sasuke."
"Are you hungry? Because I am."
Sasuke raised an eyebrow, and stared at him with his famous incredulous look. "You kidding me? You do realize that I literally raided every single corner in this entire town before I finally ended up here, right?"
Naruto grinned sheepishly, "Gomen, gomen. Of course you're starving. Let's go home."
The taller man stood up immediately, and held out a hand to help Naruto up as well. Then hand in hand, they headed home as the sun's last rays disappeared into the horizon.
A pair of red eyes had been watching the whole ordeal from a distance. His lips curved into a small grin.
"After all that I have put you through... I'll at least let you have that. You deserve it."
He then pulled down his straw hat, covering the upper half of his face. The bell that hung from it made a small tinkling noise as he turned around. Tightening the Akatsuki robe around his body, he slowly left the town without looking back.
(Okay, fic ends here... if you don't want to read my crappy ass sex scene. Please skip to author's notes.)
"Na...ruto..." Sasuke gasped out as they broke apart from the heated kiss they were sharing on his king sized bed.
Naruto looked up at Sasuke's face through slightly lidded eyes. Their kissing was so full of emotion that it seemed to put Naruto in a drugged state every single time. Sasuke looked down at Naruto from above, with dark eyes filled with passion and lust. But instead of proceeding with the removal of clothing, Sasuke just laid down next to Naruto and pulled him close to his body with a tight embrace. The blonde could feel the older man's heated breath, and he could also feel his fastened heartbeat.
He then uneasily whispered out, "Sasuke... do I... disgust you?"
Sasuke stiffened at the question and pulled Naruto away so that he could look into his eyes. With a shocked and slightly horrified expression, Sasuke asked, "Wha...what the heck would make you think that? No! Of course not, Naruto. That's the last thing in the world that I feel toward you, good God."
"Then why do you stop at the kisses? Is it because I am a demon? Or is it because I... I've been raped and tainted?" the blonde demanded, choking on unshed tears. He felt insecure and ashamed of himself because Sasuke refused to advance further in the relationship.
"No, no, no. That is not how it is at all Naruto. How can you think I could be that ignorant and shallow?" Sasuke asked in a voice filled with hurt.
Naruto suddenly felt guilty for having asked those questions. "I'm sorry, Sasuke. It's just... I feel insecure about myself because of what happened... I didn't mean to hurt your feelings."
"Baby, it is not like that at all, okay? I was just... scared to advance further, because it might bring back those horrible memories. It was because I care about you, love," Sasuke explained with a very sincere voice.
"Good Lord, Naruto, you honestly thought that I didn't want to do anything more than kissing?" Sasuke raised an eyebrow and added in a playful voice, "do you have any idea how many times I've had to run away to the bathroom to take a freezing cold shower after making out with you?"
Both men just laughed together at each other's silliness. "No, Sasuke, I had no idea... but now I do. So let's get down to business, ne?" Naruto said, looking at Sasuke with lustful eyes.
"I thought you would never ask."
As soon as he finished the sentence, Sasuke attacked Naruto's already swollen lips with his own. He kissed him with even more passion, knowing this time that it would for sure lead to more than he could have ever asked for. The dark haired man laid feather light kisses on each of the blonde's eyelids, his lips, then moved down to kiss the tender skin on his neck. Naruto let out a pleased sigh as Sasuke sucked on the sensitive skin there, making sure to leave a mark on his property.
Sasuke didn't waste any more time and removed Naruto's clothing in one swift motion. The blonde blushed a deep red when he was suddenly naked in front of his lover for the first time.
"God... you're beautiful, Naruto," Sasuke whispered out while letting his eyes graze down Naruto's body. It has lost some muscle and some of that sun-kissed color as well, due to his long time in the hospital, but in his eyes, the blonde was still as perfect as perfect could get. He leaned forward to capture one of Naruto's pink and taut nipples with his lips. Naruto let out a surprised gasp, "Sa...suke!"
Making sure that nipple got enough licking to leave it nice and swollen, he moved his head and worked on the other one as well. "Nnngghh... oh God..."
Sasuke smirked as he heard the blonde mewling out pleasured moans from that sexy little mouth of his. He reached down with his hand and wrapped Naruto's hardening erection with this fingers. Naruto's eyes widened at the older man's sudden action, and immediately covered his mouth with his hands to stop himself from crying out. Sasuke pulled away Naruto's hands from his mouth with his free hand, and pulled up the wrists above the blonde's head and held them down firmly.
He then whispered in a low voice, "Cry out for me Naruto. Make those sounds that drive me insane beyond control." "Nnnghh! Ah! Sasu...ke!" the blonde cried out and closed his eyes as Sasuke pumped his erection up and down with his hand. The dark haired man gently kissed the whisker shaped scars on Naruto's cheeks. "I'll try my best not to hurt you. I promise." Naruto could barely register what Sasuke was talking about, and whined in protest when Sasuke's hand pulled away from his shaft. He managed to open his eyes and look at Sasuke, who had pulled away from him totally. Sasuke slowly took off his shirt, his tight muscles rippling along with his movements. The blonde had to close his mouth to stop the drool from leaking out. He already knew that Sasuke was the man that every single female in Konoha desired in their wildest dreams, but this was beyond whatever they imagined in their minds. He was blessed to see this walking sex-God sans clothing, and it was just not describable in words how freaking hot he was from head to toe.
Then when he removed his pants along with his boxers, Naruto almost had a nosebleed right there.
Sasuke smirked at Naruto's reaction to his "display of affection", specifically referring to his painfully hard erection.
"You like what you see, usuratonkachi?" he said in a mocking voice.
Naruto smirked in response as he broke out of his trance. "Shut up, teme, and fuck me senseless already," he snapped back, reaching out and pulling the older man on top of him. Sasuke growled hungrily, "fuck, Naruto, it turns me on when you talk dirty like that."
He then devoured the blonde's mouth, letting his tongue invade every inch of the warm cavern. He reached out to open a drawer next to the bed and pulled out a tube of lube. A breathless Naruto managed to gasp out, "ready, aren't we?"
"Always. I just needed to see the red light turn green," Sasuke replied as he coated his index finger with the cold gel. He leaned forward and focused on kissing the blonde once again as he slowly and gently rubbed Naruto's entrance with the tip of his finger. Then once he felt Naruto's tense body losen up a tiny bit, he pushed the finger into the tight ring of muscles. "Shit, Naruto, it's tight. Relax, baby, relax," the older man coaxed in a soft voice.
Naruto let out moans of pain into Sasuke's mouth as the single finger turned into two, and then three. "Nngggh, Sasuke... " "Sshhh, baby, relax... I'm sorry, it'll get better, I promise." Sasuke gently rubbed one of Naruto's nipples with his other hand, trying to pleasure the blonde and perhaps distract him from the initial pain.
Then when his fingers hit that certain spot deep inside, Naruto gasped out in shock. "Oh God, Sasuke... what in the world... that was... nnnghhh!" His words were cut short when those invading fingers rubbed against the same spot again and sent shivers up his spine. "Baby, I think you're ready. Are you?" Sasuke asked, lovingly with a hint of concern. He wanted nothing more than join their bodies as one, but never without Naruto's consent.
Naruto managed to nod and whisper out to his love, "I'm ready... please... make love to me."
That was as green as the light could get for Sasuke, and he slathered some more gel on his own erection. His dark passionate eyes never left Naruto's deep blue pools as he lifted the blondes legs and wrapped them around his waist. He wanted to make sure the younger man knew that the only thing he was focused on right now was their lovemaking. Then once he positioned the tip of his erection at the entrance to Naruto's tight hole, he slowly pushed it in. Naruto let out a small gasp, a hint of pain in his pants. Sasuke looked at the blonde's face for any signs of extreme pain while he kept pushing his length deeper into his lover. Once it was halfway in, he pushed it the rest of the way in one swift motion.
"AH! Nggghhh, Sasuke!" Naruto cried out as pain and pleasure both hit him like a shock of lightning. His whole body quivered as he felt the throbbing erection sheathed deep inside of him. "Baby, moan for me... let me hear your pleasure in your voice," Sasuke beckoned, as he slowly started to move in and out of the tight hole.
"Let me know that you are enjoying this as much as I am."
Naruto looked up at the moving figure above him. He had long lost the ability to utter anything coherent, and felt like he could get drunk off the intoxicating view in front of him. Sasuke's face was fully concentrated on him, and him only; small beads of sweat trickling down his handsome face and dropping onto his chest. The black silky strands of hair swayed back and forth along with this thrusts. He let out long moans of pleasure as Sasuke rammed hard into him, hitting his prostate every single time.
Sasuke... those people out there, they have every right to be jealous of me. You are a drug, an irresistible drug, and I am shamelessly addicted.
"Naruto, focus. Don't let your mind wander. Only think of me and the things I'm doing to you," Sasuke managed to say between thrusts. Naruto blinked and nodded. He lifted his arms and wrapped them around the older man's neck. Then he pulled his face close to Sasuke's and stared directly into his midnight orbs. "Harder baby... do it harder and faster," he whispered in a shaky voice.
"Nnngh, God Naruto, fuck." Sasuke groaned as the blonde's request almost sent him over the edge. Not wanting to disappoint his lover, the Uchiha picked up his thrust's speed and changed the angle a bit so that he could ram his length in deeper and harder. He then reached down and grabbed Naruto's neglected and weeping erection and pumped it along with his thrust's tempo. Naruto moaned in ecstasy as he felt himself nearing release, and he dug his nails into Sasuke's neck.
"Sa...su...ke... I'm going... I'm going to... "
Sasuke kissed Naruto softly on the lips as his thrusts were leading him closer and closer to climax as well.
"I love you, Naruto," Sasuke managed to gasp out as he rammed into the blonde one last time before spilling his seed deep inside his lover. As soon as he felt the warm liquid coating the walls within him, Naruto moaned Sasuke's name out loud as he came, spilling his own seed all over his stomach and chest.
Panting loudly, Sasuke tried to catch his breath while slowly pulling out of Naruto. After grabbing some tissue and cleaning up the mess on his lover's stomach, Sasuke laid down next to the blonde, gently wrapping an arm around him. Sighing contently, Naruto snuggled closer, wanted to be surrounded by Sasuke's warm and comforting embrace. The feeling of Sasuke's fingers slowly and softly brushing through his blonde hair was very soothing. After a few moments of silence, Naruto suddenly remembered Sasuke's declaration right as he came inside of him.
"Me too," the younger man whispered out.
"Hmm?" Sasuke questioned, half asleep.
Naruto smiled and gently placed his left hand on the dark haired man's chest. He could feel Sasuke's heart beating steadily. When the Uchiha's fingers stopped moving along his strands of hair and his breath evened out, he knew the man had fallen asleep.
With a voice filled with love, devotion, and trust, Naruto declared it as well.
"That I love you too, Sasuke."
Author's Note: Thanks to everyone who reviewed the last chapter. I won't put individual thank you's, because people complain about how they thought there was more to the fic, but instead it's a bunch of worthless thank-you notes. People complain about everything, I tell ya. No way to satisfy everyone in the world, ne? Did you like Naruto's speech? Thought he deserved some spotlight since Sasuke got all of it in the last chappie. So my long ass fanfic finally comes to an end. I apologize if I have left out a bunch of details, or solutions to pending issues and such, but I guess I just got lazy about it. I do not like never-ending sex scenes with too much talking, so I made it pretty simple. Sorry if it was disappointing, I suck at these things, seriously. Will there be an epilogue? Who knows, we'll see. –grin-
P.S. After all this time passed, I'm looking over this fic again and man do I hate the title of it. So crappy! What the heck was I thinking? Haha~ Okay, bye for real now.