A/N: The reason my half-brain still exists is because of one Tyson Foxflame! (points) That's right! Her over there! She totally saved me while I was working on this and I love her to death! If she wasn't around, I would be completely braindead and probably never continue anything.
Headfirst for Halos
"Give me the keys."
"I said, give me the keys."
"And I said no."
Tai pinned me against my locker and attacked me with tickles, making me burst into laughter. I managed to keep the keys out of his reach, though, and he ceased his attack to stare me determinedly in the eyes.
"Give me the keys, Yama."
"No." A smile tugged at my lips.
"Yamaaaa..." Tai drew my name out.
"Taiiiii," I mocked.
Tai made a sudden movement and tried to grab the keys, but I quickly snatched my hand away. He playfully narrowed his eyes at me.
"Don't make me do it, Tai," I said, giggling and moving my hand towards the waist of my pants. "You know I will!"
Tai raised an eyebrow. "You think I won't go down there? Oh, I will, Yama." He gave me a wicked grin and lowered his voice. "And I know you'd enjoy that."
My face turned red and I opened my fist, dropping the keys into Tai's hand.
I don't know why I stole his car keys in the first place- I think I wanted him to let me drive, although the last time I'd driven was to actually get my driver's license. Keeping them away from him had been a challenge, though, and I don't back down from challenges- especially with Tai.
"That's not fair, you know," I muttered as we walked to his car. "That was a cheap shot."
Tai laughed. "Whatever. You're just mad 'cause you lost." He stuck his tongue out at me.
About a week had passed, and Tai was using my crush on him (or whatever you wanted to call it) to his advantage. He also wasn't passing up any opportunity to bring it up or tease me about it. By this time, all of our "group" knew about it- which included Raian. He and I hadn't really talked to each other about it at all, but it was some sort of unspoken understanding that it wasn't a competition. Besides, I figured Raian wasn't a threat because, after all, I was Tai's best friend. I assumed he'd pick me over Raian- which sounded kind of bad but, really, why would he choose Raian over me?
That particular Monday, after Tai dropped me home (he said was going to play soccer with Raian and Dai or something), Hiro called me up and informed me that we had a gig set for that weekend. Therefore, the guys wanted to have band practice. I agreed and met up with the guys at Eri's house.
"So how's it going with Tai?" Shin asked after we'd played for a bit and were just sitting around. "Made any progress?"
I rolled my eyes. "I'm not trying to make any 'progress', Shin. What happens, happens. I knew what I was getting into when this whole thing started. Tai's straight, I know that. I'm not gonna try to change him."
"This, from you?" Shin mock-gasped. "What happened to the Yamato who got whatever guy he wanted?"
"This is my best friend. It's a bit different."
"How's he been taking it?" Hiro asked.
"Very well," I said dryly.
The guys and I hung out for a couple of hours after band practice, and I got home late in the evening. There were a few missed calls. I went in the shower first, then once I'd dried off and gotten dressed I went to check the calls. At that same time, though, the phone rang.
"Hello?" I picked up on the first ring.
I frowned. The person's voice was familiar, but it sounded funny.
"Wait... Raian, is that you?"
"Oh, hey." I laid down on my bed, getting comfortable. "Guess what?"
"Um... what?" Raian sounded distracted.
"My band got a gig!"
"Oh, cool... when is it?"
"Saturday. Can you come?"
"What's up?" I asked him. "You sound kinda weird."
He hesitated, then spoke. "Yeah, um... listen, there's something I have to tell you."
This didn't sound good. I frowned and sat up. "What is it? Is something wrong?"
"No, it's just..." he sighed. "Listen, I just thought you should know... Tai kissed me."
I was silent for a good, long minute. My mind was frozen, yet at the same time it was filled with conflicting thoughts. Tai couldn't have kissed Raian. Why would he? Tai didn't like Raian- he couldn't. He would've told me... wouldn't he?
"Matt?" Raian sounded concerned. "Are you there?"
I didn't answer for a moment. Tai was straight, he'd said it himself. So what the hell was he doing kissing Raian?
...and not me?
"Matt?" Raian asked again.
"Sorry." I finally spoke, trying to keep my voice normal. I inhaled deeply and let it out. "So... what happened?"
"Well, we were at the skating rink-"
"What?" I interrupted.
"For our date," Raian explained. "I know skating seems a bit ridiculous in June but-"
"Wait, what?" I tried to keep calm. "What do you mean, your date?"
There was a pause. "Um... you mean Tai didn't... tell you?"
"Tai told me he was going to play soccer with you and Dai."
"Oh." I could tell Raian was uncomfortable. "Well, um... Tai asked me on a date."
I pressed the backs of my palms into my eyes, taking another deep breath. Keep breathing, I told myself. At least get the whole story.
"So what were you saying?" I asked Raian after a moment. "What happened?"
"Right, so... we were skating and we were having fun and everything, but he didn't make any moves on me or anything. So I figured we were just gonna be friends, right? So we finished skating and he drove me home and then, well... he kissed me."
"He just... kissed you? Just like that?"
"Yeah. I said bye to him and was about to get out of his car and then he kissed me."
"...what did you do?"
"Nothing. I was surprised. So I just got out of the car and went into my house."
There was silence. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't be mad at Raian; it wasn't his fault.
"Thanks," I finally said. "For telling me, I mean."
"No problem. Are you okay?"
"Yeah..." I stopped and then let out a bitter laugh. "Actually, no, I'm not," I said honestly, "but I don't really want to talk about it. I'll see you tomorrow, I guess."
I hung up and just sat there on my bed. I still couldn't believe it. First of all, Tai had lied to me. Second, he'd chosen Raian over me. Third, Raian had told me before Tai! How could Tai let me find out like that? Was he even planning on telling me at all?
I considered going over to Tai's and confronting him right away. But, instead, I decided to just wait until the next morning when he came over. Maybe by then, I could piece together my jumbles of thoughts. After all, I wasn't thinking straight and, even though I was mad, I didn't want to do something I'd regret.
To try and gather my thoughts, I made a list of things I wanted to ask Tai about or discuss. A lot of points on my list were closely related or basically the same thing in different words. Eventually I put the list down and just went to sleep. Tai had better have a good explanation.
I mean, not that he couldn't kiss anyone he wanted. But, well... why the fuck would he kiss Raian if he supposedly didn't like him and was straight?
The morning couldn't come quick enough.
The morning did come quick enough, and my mood had changed completely; I didn't want to face Tai.
I knew Tai would be coming to my door to drive me to school, so I left my place early and walked the long way to school so that he would 1) be forced to leave without me because I wasn't going to be there and 2) he wouldn't see me walking on the main streets and pick me up off the side of the road.
Avoiding Tai would be tricky during first and last period, since we had those classes together. For first period, I lied to the teacher and said that I'd lost my contacts(he didn't need to know that I didn't wear any) and that I needed to sit at the front to see the board. Luckily Tai was late for class and didn't get the chance to ask me why I was sitting in a different seat. I could feel him staring at me for long periods during class, but looked straight ahead or at my desk and ignored him.
I hurried to my next class when the period end, relieved that I wouldn't have to worry about really avoiding him until last period. I already knew my plan for lunch; I would run to my locker, throw my things in, then leave the school and go for a walk or something.
I did this successfully, and then last period came. By changing quickly, I managed to escape Tai, but for how long? I stood in the gym nervously, watching each boy enter slowly.
Then Tai came out, and in a moment of desperation, I quickly went over to the teacher.
"Sir, I'm not feeling well," I lied. "Can I go to the nurse's office?"
He frowned and looked me over. My gym teacher is usually the last person who will ever let you go the nurse's office, because he thinks you're trying to skip out on gym. Which people usually are. But I guess he believed me, because he nodded his approval.
"Thank you, sir." I practically dashed out of the gym, making my way down the hall to the nurse's office and breathing a sigh of relief.
My teacher came to check to make sure I really was in the nurse's office, and seemed satisfied when he saw me there. I knew he wouldn't be checking again, so I left the nurse's office a few minutes before the bell rang so that I could get to my locker and leave before Tai got the chance to find me.
I opened my locker and threw in the things I didn't need, then retrieved the few things I actually would need and put them in my bag. I closed my locker and turned around, then let out a surprised squeak when I saw Tai standing in front of me.
"Coach let me out early." Tai leaned forward, pinning me to my locker and raising an eyebrow at me. "I think we need to talk."
"Why you've been avoiding me."
I didn't answer. The bell rang, but Tai barely seemed to notice the noise.
"Yama." Tai gave me a look. "Don't be stupid."
I narrowed my eyes.
"I'm being stupid? You're the one who claimed you were straight and then asked Raian out, you asshole!"
Tai's eyes widened in surprise. "Yama-"
I slapped him. Tai stepped back and I took that opportunity to grab my bag and begin almost running down the hall.
"Yama!" I heard Tai call after me, but I just increased my speed.
Instead of going home, I crossed the school field and took the path that led to a park nearby. The park was surrounded on two sides by a forest area and was always relatively abandoned. Once I was there I threw my bag down on the ground and sat down on one of the swings, taking a deep breath.
"Yama, we need to talk!"
I groaned aloud when I heard Tai's voice. I turned to see him approaching me and glared in his direction.
"I don't want to fucking talk to you, you asshole!"
Tai reached me and stood in front of the swing, shaking his head.
"I'm guessing Raian told you."
I got up from the swing and went to slap Tai again, but he grabbed my hand to stop me.
"Violence isn't solving anything."
"No, but it makes me feel a hell of a lot better," I snapped, then slapped him with my other hand.
Tai pulled me towards him roughly and at first I thought he was going to hit me, but then he kissed me instead. I froze for a moment before pulling away and, yet again, slapping him.
"What the fuck are you doing?" I exclaimed, voice rising in pitch.
"I don't know," Tai groaned, rubbing his cheek. "I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry... please, Yama, just... can we talk about this?"
"What is there to talk about?" I snapped. "You asked Raian out behind my back and kissed him!"
"I didn't tell you about it because I didn't want you to be upset."
"So you thought it'd be better to sneak around with him behind my back until you felt like telling me?"
"No! I was gonna tell you!"
"I... I don't know, soon!" Tai shook his head. "Listen, the point is-"
"The point is," I interrupted, "that you fucking chose Raian over me."
"No I didn't!" Tai exclaimed.
"You kissed him!"
"I kissed him because I'm confused!"
I let out a growl of frustration and shook my head, starting to walk away. However, Tai grabbed my arm and dragged me over to one of the park benches, pushing me down onto it firmly.
"Yama, if you want answers, you're gonna have to let me talk."
I sat and just glared into his eyes at first, but I knew he was right. I reluctantly nodded. "Then talk."
"Okay. First of all, I know what you're thinking and you're wrong. I don't like Raian."
"Then why the fuck did you kiss him?"
"I'm getting to that. Listen, I asked Raian out for a few reasons. I figured it wouldn't hurt to try and, even though I knew there was nothing between us, Raian didn't. So I thought I should help him realize that."
"That still doesn't explain why you kissed him."
Tai shook his head. "You're fucking impossible. Look, Yama, I kissed him because I'm not sure about things right now. The thought of kissing another guy doesn't put me off, but kissing Raian did nothing for me. I didn't feel anything, and I'm pretty sure he didn't either. So that didn't really solve anything for me, but it was worth a try."
"You lied to me."
"I didn't lie to you."
"Yes you did! You told me you were going to play soccer with him and Dai!"
"Well, I didn't want you to freak out like you are now!"
I frowned, but it was sort of a valid point so I didn't say anything.
"So what now?" Tai asked me.
"Why did you kiss me?"
Tai looked caught off-guard. "What?"
"You kissed me. Don't fucking kiss me if you don't mean anything by it."
Tai sighed. "I do mean something by it, I just... I don't know exactly what."
There was silence between us for a few moments, then Tai spoke again.
"So... am I forgiven?"
My first instinct was to say no, but instead I said "I don't know" and got up. I picked up my bag and started down the path again. Tai didn't come after me this time.
I had trouble sleeping that night, and decided that I wasn't going to school when I woke up on Wednesday. Luckily Tai had enough sense not to show up at my door that morning, and I managed to get some rest.
My anger had mostly dissolved by then, and I was more frustrated by the fact that Tai had kissed me for seemingly no reason. Did he think it was okay to just go around kissing people and explaining later?
I was sitting in the kitchen, having just finished a cup of coffee, when the doorbell rang. Looking at the clock, I saw that school had already let out. Which meant...
"Yama!" Tai called through the door. "Please, let me in? I wanna talk to you about something!"
I sighed. Knowing Tai wasn't going to stop until I let him it, I got up and made my way to the door, opening it and letting Tai inside.
"Where were you today?" Tai asked me.
"Where do you fucking think?" I replied dryly as I headed back into the kitchen.
Tai followed me after a moment, entering the kitchen and then speaking.
"I thought about what you said."
"I said a lot of things," I replied.
"Yeah, well... about kissing you. Why I did it, I mean."
I stopped trying to make myself look busy and stood in front of Tai, crossing my arms over my chest.
"Oh yeah? Why'd you do it?"
"Well... to... to show you..." Tai stopped and started again. "To help me figure out if I'm gay... or bi... or something."
I snorted. "What kind of lame excuse is that? Tai, why did you kiss me? Really."
Tai sighed. "I..." He shook his head. "I don't know." He moved forward, meeting my lips with his.
Instead of pushing him away, I responded. Tai's arm wrapped around my waist and he pulled me up against him, deepening the kiss and sliding his tongue into my mouth. I gripped his shoulder with one hand, the other arm draping itself around his neck. Tai's hand moved up under my shirt, stroking my back, and I shivered slightly, leaning more into him. The kiss was growing more heated; it was almost as if we were trying to fuse together.
Tai had my shirt bunched up above my navel and his hand caressed the skin just above the place on my hips where my pants rested. I bit his lower lip lightly, pressing my body closer to his as blood began to rush down to my groin.
Suddenly Tai broke the kiss and pushed me away gently but firmly. He licked his lips, breathing heavily, and held my gaze. I bit my own lip, watching him expectantly. My heart was pounding in my ears.
He looked away, shaking his head. "I... fuck, I'm sorry, Yama."
Anger built up in me again.
"Saying you're sorry doesn't solve everything! I told you not to fucking kiss me unless you knew what you were doing!" I let out a cry of frustration and stomped over to the other end of the kitchen before whirling around again. "God, Tai, I'm fucking sick of your shit!"
"Shut up!" I grabbed the nearest object, which happened to be a cookbook, and hurled it at his head. Tai ducked, narrowly avoiding it, and winced.
"Yama, come on, calm down-"
"If you want me to calm down, stop being a fucking idiot!" I felt a bit better and less angry after throwing the cookbook at him, and I waited for him to reply.
"Listen, I know I fucked up. I'm sorry. If I led you on, I didn't mean to. I don't know what I'm doing, Yama, you're right. All I know is that kissing you is... well, I like it. A lot. But I... I don't know."
"Well, figure it out! If you don't like me, fine. But make up your mind about it! And don't fucking kiss me like that, it's not helping!"
"I know," Tai groaned. "I'm sorry. I really am."
"Well, you should be," I muttered. I took a deep breath and let it out, then shook my head. "Are you done being an idiot?"
"I think so. Are you done throwing things at me?"
I couldn't help but smile a bit. "I think so."
Tai picked the book up off of the ground and placed it on the counter. There was a moment of silence.
Tai broke it. "Soo... should I go?"
Tai accepted my answer and nodded. "Okay."
I escorted Tai to the door and he paused just before he left.
"See you tomorrow morning?"
I nodded. "Yeah."
Tai smiled and stepped out into the hall. "Okay. Bye."
I shut the door and locked it, then returned to the kitchen. Opening the fridge, I began to take out some food when the cookbook on the counter caught my eye. A smile tugged at my lips and I shook my head.
Next time he did something like that, I'd make sure I didn't miss.
Thursday morning, Tai showed up earlier than usual at my door. I let him in and led him into my room, where I picked up my brush and resumed the task of styling my hair.
"Any cookbooks lying around?" Tai teased with a grin, sitting down on my bed.
I stuck my tongue out at him. "Hey, you deserved it. You were being a jackass."
"No argument there." Tai was silent for about a minute, then spoke again. "I told you I'm sorry, right?"
"Good. 'Cause I'm sorry."
"I know." I looked in the mirror and found that my hair was satisfactory, then turned to Tai. "Come here."
Tai looked confused, but got up and walked over to me. I wrapped my arms around him in a hug and he put his own arms around my waist to hug back.
"What's this for?" he asked.
"Official make-up hug," I answered.
In English that day, Raian pulled me aside to let me know that he didn't like Tai anymore- supposedly he didn't think there was enough chemistry between them. I thanked him for telling me and he asked if I'd worked things out with Tai. I told him that I had and he said he was glad.
The day passed by like any other normal day, which was relieving. I'd almost been prepared for another fight between Tai and I, but luckily everything ran smoothly and regularly between us.
On Friday after school, Tai and I went to the mall; I hadn't picked out an outfit for the show yet, and I wanted to see if anything jumped out at me. Despite his complaining, I actually found something to wear and we were on our way out of the mall when, out of the corner of my eye, a flash of green caught my eye.
I turned around and, upon confirming what I'd seen, called out, "Kiseki!"
Kiseki stopped and turned, then grinned when he saw me. "Yamato! Hi!"
I walked over to him, shaking my head. "Wow, what a coincidence. How are you?"
"I'm good, you?"
"Good... oh, you remember Tai, right?"
"Of course." Kiseki looked at Tai. "The eyebrow looks pretty healed."
"Hey, my band has a show tomorrow," I told Kiseki. "There's an afterparty, and some of the guys are bringing dates... you should come."
"I should," Kiseki agreed. "What time does it start?"
"I'll give you my number, you can call me. Do you have a pen?"
Kiseki nodded and produced a pen from his pocket. I took the pen, then took his hand and wrote my number neatly on it. He grinned at me and took back the pen (and his hand).
"I'll talk to you later, then."
Kiseki said goodbye to me, gave Tai a little wave, and then continued on his path through the mall. I turned to Tai, who didn't look very pleased.
"What the fuck was that?"
I blinked. "Um... an invite to the afterparty?"
"You asked him out!" Tai exclaimed.
I shrugged. "Kind of. So?"
"What, I'm not allowed to give a guy my number? You're not my keeper, Tai."
I waited for Tai to form a coherent sentence, which didn't happen, then shrugged and began walking out of the mall. He followed, though I could feel his angry glare on me as we made our way to his car.
"Don't be such a jackass," I said, rolling my eyes as Tai pulled out of the parking lot wordlessly. "Other guys are allowed to talk to me, you know."
"Yeah, but you're not supposed to ask them out!"
Tai didn't respond, scowling.
I wasn't sure if Kiseki was really going to call or not, but he did and I was glad. We made plans to meet after the show and managed to get a bit of flirting in before we hung up. I have to admit, I was partially-okay, mostly-going through with the date to spite Tai. But, also, Kiseki was a nice guy and I wouldn't mind going out with him.
Saturday seemed to come way too quickly. I'm always really nervous before a show and that one was no exception. After going over the song lineup several times and playing all of our songs in my head repeatedly, I began wandering around the place before we had to go on, jittery and anxious and not wanting to stay in one spot.
"Whoa, where're you going?"
Tai caught my elbow as I nearly walked right past him and gently maneuvered me towards him. He raised an eyebrow at me.
"Kinda." I ran a hand through my hair worriedly. "Do I look okay?"
Tai ran his eyes over me. I was wearing tight black pants with lots of zippers and chains on them and a black-and-grey long-sleeved shirt. Shin had declared that I looked "smoking", but he always has an opinion like that.
After a moment's observation, Tai nodded. "Yeah. Screw 'okay', you look hot."
I couldn't help but smile. "Thanks."
"I only speak the truth. And are you wearing eyeliner?" Tai raised en eyebrow.
"Mmhm. Got a problem with that?"
"Surprisingly, no. I never thought I'd say this, but... it looks hot." He shook his head. "Anyway, you're gonna do great so don't worry, okay?"
I nodded and he pulled me into a hug, pressing a quick kiss to my forehead. I responded by kissing him on the cheek and then waved at him before I disappeared into the crowd again.
As with all of the shows we've done, my nerves began dissolving once we started playing. You step out on stage and it's like a whole new place. I love it.
It was one of our best shows yet. We played amazingly, if I do say so myself, and everyone had a great time. I know this because everyone kept telling us so at the afterparty.
"You guys were fucking awesome!" someone said to me as they passed. I said thanks, but was more interested in the person I saw walking through the door at that moment.
Kiseki caught my eye and waved, grinning, and I quickly made my way over to him.
"Hi!" I greeted him. "Thanks for coming."
"I'm glad I did. You were great."
"Hey, who's this?" Shin materialized out of nowhere and raised an eyebrow.
I resisted the urge to roll my eyes, and instead introduced them.
"Shin, this is my date, Kiseki. Kiseki, this is Shin."
They shook hands and Shin gave me a sly grin. I ignored it.
"Did you see the show?" Shin asked Kiseki.
Kiseki nodded. "You were the drummer, right?"
"Damn right!" Shin said proudly.
"Hey, great show!" someone said to Shin, and he turned around to talk to them. I took that opportunity to steer Kiseki in another direction.
Kiseki and I grabbed some drinks-people had already broken out the alcohol-and sat down in a quieter part of the room. He smiled at me and was about to say something when a voice called my name.
I looked up and saw Mimi making her way over. She had a huge grin on her face, and I refrained from rolling my eyes yet again.
"Hi, I'm Mimi!" she said brightly, smiling at Kiseki.
"Hi," Kiseki said, returning the smile. "I'm Kiseki, Matt's date."
"Hey," Sora said, popping up from behind Mimi. "Great show, Matt!" She turned to Kiseki. "Hi, I'm Sora."
"He's my date," I added, which made both the girls grin.
"We'll leave you two alone now," Mimi said. "Nice meeting you, Kiseki!"
He responded in a similar fashion and then they headed across the room, no doubt discussing what they thought of Kiseki.
"Sorry about that," I said with a smile.
"No problem. Being a date means being introduced to people."
Raian walked by me and flashed a smile, then noticed Kiseki and backtracked. First he commented that it had been a great show, then looked pointedly at Kiseki.
"This is my date," I said, "Kiseki."
"Hi," Raian said, and Kiseki said hello back. Raian discreetly shot me a look that gave me the feeling he was trying to say "Tai's not gonna like this". I shrugged in response, letting him know I didn't care.
"So," Kiseki began once Raian had left. "Tai... is he your best friend?"
I nodded. "Yup."
"Have you two ever dated?"
I was surprised by the question. "What? No, why?"
"Oh, it's just that he gives off a sort of possessive vibe. The sort of possessive that an ex-boyfriend is." Kiseki suddenly shook his head. "Listen to me, trying to analyze your best friend. Ignore me, I'm sorry." He offered me a smile. "Let's talk about you instead."
Kiseki and I chatted easily, and time flew by. Usually I'd be getting drunk and partying like crazy from the start, but Kiseki was interesting and I liked talking to him.
I'd noticed Kiseki glancing at the dance floor every so often and I was about to ask him to dance, but he beat me to it. Standing up, he smiled and offered me his hand.
"Care to dance?"
I laughed and got up from where I sat, smiling. "I'd love to."
We made our way to where everyone was dancing and Kiseki tugged me close to him as a new song began. I moved towards him and started to dance to the music in a not-so-innocent way.
I believe that if you're gonna dance, you might as well go all out. Tai usually refuses to dance with me because he says it's too much like humping in public- which is, I believe, an exaggeration. I just like to have fun.
Luckily, Kiseki felt the same way. His hands were resting on my hips at first but they quickly slid down, giving my ass a not-so-subtle squeeze and pulling me against his body. I grinned as our bodies rubbed together and ground my hips against his, making him raise an eyebrow and smirk. Our dancing grew more intense and I was aware of a few people watching us (i.e. my friends, who were no doubt going to swarm me as soon as he left). This just fueled me even more.
Our bodies moved together in a heated dance of their own and I wondered briefly if I'd had more to drink than I thought. Dismissing this thought, a new one entered (Oh, what the hell.) and I grabbed Kiseki's face, pressing my lips to his.
Kiseki responded immediately, licking my lips with his tongue to gain entrance. I allowed him and his tongue slid into my mouth to meet mine, moving in a way that made me murmur with pleasure. Wrapping an arm around his waist, I pressed us impossibly closer, increasing the level of intimacy to the point where it had long ago ceased to be appropriate.
All of this came to an abrupt end when Kiseki broke the kiss and loosened his hold on me to turn and look at someone who had tapped his shoulder. The next thing I knew, Kiseki was on the floor.
Everyone went dead silent. The music was still playing, but it suddenly seemed distant. I gaped at Kiseki, laying on the ground and holding his face, for a long moment, then my head snapped up to see who had punched him.
Narrowed, angry chocolate-coloured eyes bore into mine. I was too shocked to say anything and just stood there, staring. I couldn't believe it.
Tai ignored the huge crowd of people staring at us and grabbed my wrist, dragging me along with him to an unknown location. It took a few moments for me to snap out of my daze, but I did and yanked my wrist out of Tai's hand. He turned to face me and I slapped him. Everyone was still watching and I heard someone mutter "Ouch".
"What the fuck are you doing?" My voice was dangerously low.
"What the fuck are you doing?" Tai retorted, voice loud and angry. His eyes flashed. "I come to find you to talk and you're grinding up against some guy with his tongue down your throat?"
"Who do you think you are, Tai?" My voice was rising now, too. "I can dance with whoever the fuck I want, and however the fuck I like!"
"That wasn't dancing," Tai replied furiously. "A few minutes more and you two would've been fucking right there and then."
I shook my head in disbelief. "Are you calling me a slut?"
Tai didn't respond. There was so much tension in the air that I could swear everyone was holding their breath.
"Listen," I said angrily, "You had no right to do that. Kiseki didn't do anything. It's not his fault you have control issues and can't leave me alone for one fucking second!"
I think the attention we were receiving began to make Tai uncomfortable because his eyes flickered around the room and then he took my wrist, gentler this time.
"Can we talk about this somewhere else?" he asked in a low tone.
Wanting to get it over with, I nodded. We'd created quite a scene, and people moved out of our way as Tai led me through the crowd and out of the place. I wanted to stay and see if Kiseki was alright, but I knew Tai and I needed to have a serious talk immediately.
Tai led me out one of the side doors and we ended up on a deserted sidestreet. He let go of my wrist and we stood facing each other. I spoke first.
"What's your problem?" I said, breaking the silence. I was going to go on, but instead waited for Tai to reply first.
He'd cooled down a bit, but he still looked pissed off. "My problem is that you decided it would be okay to..." He searched for a word. "...to whore yourself like that, in the middle of-"
"What the fuck did you just say?"
"I don't mean that you're a whore-"
"Tai, shut up."
"Now, listen to me," I said. "I was having fun and dancing how I always dance, with someone I found to be a lot of fun. You had no right to punch him just because you're pissed off that he's my date!"
"He was touching you," Tai muttered.
"So? I wanted him to touch me! You act like you have this fucking claim over me, Tai! News flash: you don't! You can't walk around getting pissed off at people for 'stealing me away' when you never had me in the first place! You can't run my fucking life for me, or monitor who I get acquainted with! That's not how it works. You can't do these things if you don't even know what you fucking want."
Tai looked miserable now, and he ran a hand over his face. "Yama... I..." he trailed off and looked away, letting out a heavy sigh.
Neither of us spoke for about a minute. I eventually decided to say something, having calmed down somewhat.
"Being jealous isn't an excuse for punching him. The way you're acting is just... ridiculous. You know I would dance like that with you in a heartbeat, so it's not like I was giving him anything I would've deprived you of. The difference is that he asked, Tai. He wasn't afraid to tell me what he wanted."
The silence that rang out after my words seemed to emphasize them. Tai looked up, and he looked torn between a large range of emotions. Shaking his head, he breathed a sigh and then finally spoke.
Well, that was a start.
"You're right. I shouldn't have done that. I just... I got really mad when I saw him dancing like that with you. In my head, it's like... it's like you're mine, and no one's allowed to touch you but me. And... well, that's the way I want it to be. I don't want other people touching you. I want to have you to myself." Tai's eyes locked with mine, and his voice lowered a bit. "I want you, Yama."
Despite how angry I was with him at the moment, my heart did a little flip. The two of us stood there for a long moment, just looking at each other, until Tai reached out and took my hand.
"Come with me to my car...?"
I hesitated, then nodded. "Just let me say bye to Kiseki first."
When Tai and I re-entered the place, everyone was eyeing us, no doubt trying to guess what had happened. I wondered at first if Kiseki had already left, then saw him by the door.
"Kiseki!" I called out.
He turned, and gave a little smile when he saw me. Sora, Mimi, Raian, and Hiro were standing with him; all of their gazes fixed on Tai, who was following close behind me.
Reaching Kiseki, I took a look at his face, which was already swollen and starting to bruise. I nudged Tai in the side and he muttered an apology obediently. Kiseki accepted it, then I also apologized for Tai's behaviour.
"I'm sorry," I said, shaking my head. "Are you okay?"
"I'll be fine. It was worth it," Kiseki added with a little grin. "You're a great dancer."
I laughed. The two of us said goodbye and hugged, then he and Raian departed (Raian had volunteered to drive him home).
As soon as they left, Mimi turned to Tai and I knew she was about to lecture him, but I shook my head at her. She frowned, but closed her mouth and didn't say anything.
"We're gonna go," I told them. "See you guys later."
They said goodbye, giving me looks that clearly showed they were expecting to hear from me later on.
Tai and I walked in silence to where he had parked his car. We had just gotten in and settled into the seats when Tai leaned over and kissed me.
The kiss was filled with intensity and passion, and I responded without a second thought. Tai managed to maneuver himself from the driver's seat to the passenger seat, which placed him half on-top of me as we kissed, heat growing rapidly between us.
I pushed Tai away after a minute, and he gave me a confused look. Staring straight into his eyes, I spoke.
"Why did you kiss me?"
He barely hesitated this time.
"Because I like you a fucking hell of a lot and you drive me crazy."
Tai and I moved to the back seat, which sounds terribly cliché, but whatever; it provided more room and comfort for the task at hand. Tai leaned back against the car door and pulled me onto his lap. We kissed intensely, his hand sliding up the back of my shirt as my own hands latched themselves in his hair, using the leverage to deepen the kiss even more. His tongue explored my mouth, meeting my own tongue in the process and battling with it briefly.
Tai began to tug my shirt up and I co-operated, allowing him to pull my shirt over my head. He tossed it somewhere behind me and I helped him rid of his own shirt, then leaned back against him, our lips meeting eagerly.
The friction of our bare skin rubbing together increased the heat between us greatly. I ran my hands over Tai's chest, marveling at the difference between our bodies. Tai's was much more muscular, whereas mine was just plain thin and lightly toned. And, of course, there was the difference in our skin tones- Tai's skin tanned and mine more pale. The differences just seemed to make us fit together even more perfectly. I snapped out of these thoughts to focus on Tai's hands, which were traveling up and down my back, dipping lower with each stroke. He finally reached my ass, groping and squeezing as I correspondingly pushed my hips into his. Tai moaned lightly, shifting so that I could feel his growing erection press against my thigh.
We parted lips, panting, and I bent down to kiss Tai's neck. As I sucked gently at the soft skin, Tai moved his hand between us, rubbing my thigh sensually and then cupping my arousal. He squeezed it lightly and I let my teeth graze against his skin, a shiver of pleasure creeping up my spine.
Tai's hands moved to unfasten my pants, working fast at the task. He got my pants open quickly and had just begun to pull them down when a knock on the window made both of us jump.
My face began to turn red very rapidly when I realized that the windows in Tai's car were very clear, and I looked up to see Daisuke grinning in at us. With a groan, I moved myself off of Tai, doing up my pants and then pulling my shirt back on.
Tai grabbed me and pulled me in for one last short kiss, then gave me a quick caress and murmured, "We'll finish this later."
I nodded and Tai put his own shirt back on, then we climbed out of the car.
Daisuke was shaking his head, grinning widely.
"Damn!" he exclaimed. "Teach me how to do that!"
Tai chuckled and ruffled Dai's hair. "You'll learn."
"I'm sure you two are well on your way," I added, smirking at TK, who blushed.
"Well, unlike some people, we have other places to do it than the back seat of a car," he retorted.
"Shut up," I muttered, my face growing hot.
"Yama and I are going back to my place," Tai said. "You guys want a drive home?"
They did, so we dropped them both off at their respective houses and then went to Tai's apartment.
"You know," I said teasingly as Tai and I walked down the hall to his door, "I don't remember saying I was coming to your place. You shouldn't make assumptions."
"Alright, then," Tai responded in the same playful voice. He opened the door and let us in. "I guess I shouldn't assume that you want to engage in hot, steamy sex, then."
"Not with you." I stuck my tongue out playfully.
Tai chuckled, then laced his fingers through mine and gently tugged me in the direction of the hallway. "C'mon."
We retreated to Tai's bedroom, where I only had enough time to sit on the bed before Tai shut the door and then pounced on me, pushing me into a laying position before crawling on top of me and pressing our lips together. I responded for a short while, then pushed him away a bit when his hand began to creep down to the front of my pants.
"Wait, Tai," I protested. "I don't wanna do this so soon."
"Do what?" Tai kissed my collarbone, stroking my side with his fingers.
There was a moment of silence and stillness, then Tai chuckled and shook his head at me with a little grin of amusement.
"I wasn't even gonna try, Yama. I know you're not easy."
My face heated up, mostly due to embarrassment from assuming Tai was trying to fuck me. He grinned down at me and then brought me into a kiss, sucking on my lower lip lightly before pulling away. One of his hands began stroking my thigh.
"What do you wanna do?" Tai asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Um... I dunno."
"Let me rephrase that. What will you let me do?" Tai grinned.
To tell the truth, I wanted to wait until the next day to go any further; our minds were both still clouded with alcohol, however small an amount, and I still wanted to talk to Tai about some things before we got involved.
Tai's mouth sucking on my neck and his palm rubbing against my groin snapped me out of my thoughts. He kissed his way up to my lips and then spoke again, his voice low.
"What about this?" Tai's hand moved pointedly in my lower area, making me let out a little moan. "Is this okay?"
"Tai..." It was becoming harder to resist, but I shook my head. "Wait until tomorrow, okay?"
Tai let out an exaggerated sigh, but removed his hand. "Fine." He pressed a brief kiss to my lips, then got off of me.
As we laid in bed that night, Tai's arms wrapped securely around my waist, I thought back to what had happened at the afterparty. I felt guilty about what had happened to Kiseki, and I made a mental note to call him and apologize again. I couldn't help feeling partially responsible for Tai's actions; I do admit, my dancing had been more extreme than usual.
But at least Tai had finally made up his mind. I had the feeling I probably should've been harder on him, but I think I was just too relieved that I finally knew if he liked me or not.
I snuggled into Tai's warmth and sighed. In the morning, we'd set things straight once and for all.
A/N: And, of course, credit for the character Kiseki goes to Tyson. I merely borrowed him from her fic, Black Rose... which you should go read now since the last chapter & epilogue are up!