"So this is what you do on your dates!"
Robin cringed. Did he hear her growl?
Rebecca stood and stared intensely at Starfire. "I wouldn't yell so much, honey, cause I could have my daddy kick you and your weird friends out of town in a heartbeat!"
At this point Robin scrambled to his feet while Starfire assumed fighting stance with a fierce scowl.
"Both of you, stop this!" he yelled, holding up his hands between them. "Rebecca, that wasn't nice. They are my friends too, and they're not weird once you get to know them."
"Tell your rabid girlfriend to back off, please," Rebecca requested huffily.
Starfire appeared to get even more angry. Robin rushed up to her and tried to grab her hand, but she brushed him off. "I do not wish for you to touch me. I am tired of waiting for you to come home from doing the hanging out her, and I am tired of you cheating on me." Starfire relaxed her position. "If this is the girl you wish to have, then take her. I am leaving now," she said, her tone becoming less forceful. Starfire flew up and headed back towards the tower.
"Starfire, wait!" Robin called.
"Well, that was awkward," Rebecca said, crossing her arms around her waist.
Robin turned to glare at her. "Listen Rebecca, I've been meaning to tell you for awhile now that this just isn't working. I've been dating Starfire for a year, and I'm not about to let some stupid fling jeopardize what we have. You and I are over."
Rebecca stared coldly for a second, then said, "Fine." She reached into her pocket and pulled out a slim top of the line cell phone. "Randal? Yes. I'm done now and I'd like you to come pick me up. I'm tired and the plans for the movie are cancelled... good. See you in five." Rebecca snapped the phone shut. "My chauffer is coming in five minutes. I hope you have some other arrangement for getting yourself home." With that she wheeled around and walked up the beach towards the parking lot.
Robin watched her go, and then flopped back onto the sand, burying his face in his hands.
Robin had a good long time to think as he walked towards the pier where his jet ski was still bobbing calmly in the dark water. He had to admit his actions the past few weeks were nothing to be proud of, but he also tried to convince himself that what he did was for the good of the team. Still, he knew there really was no excuse for his behavior. Robin was shy with his feelings, and while he would never know how to tell her, he really would do anything at all for Starfire. Anything apparently than say no to going out with another girl. Robin felt terrible, but at the same time his stubborn pride was reluctant to let him admit he'd been wrong. He'd done it for the good of his team... for their home... for Starfire. Right?
Robin knocked on her door.
"Go away now please," she requested weakly, her words muffled through the thick walls.
Robin sighed and lowered his head.
"Please Star, I need to talk to you."
"I do not wish to speak with you."
"Come on, please. I know you're mad at me, but we need to talk things out. We can't stay like this and work on a team."
"Team! Team! Is that all you care about!" Starfire came to the door as it slid open. "I had wished to be the one special person in your life. Your girlfriend. But it seems that recently I am second to this girl and the team! Where do I fit, Robin?"
Robin pressed his lips together. "I... don't know Star."
Starfire released a large sigh herself and looked away, blinking the tears out of her eyes. "That is not the answer I was wishing to hear."
"I'm sorry... you really do mean more to me than anyone..."
Starfire narrowed her eyes. "But it seems that you do not mind sharing a kiss with anyone."
"You came at the wrong time-"
"Oh it seems that I came just in time."
"No, no Star you don't understand. She kissed me. There's a difference."
"I see no difference. Your lips touched hers. That is all I need to see to know that the cheating is going on."
"No, there is a difference! It was her, not me, and it meant nothing at all to me!"
"Do you expect me to believe that! I do not. That ritual is obviously significant, and I do not think you would have let her if you truly cared about me."
"I told you Star, she did it to me! What could I do? If I make her angry, then the mayor might not let us stay here anymore!"
Starfire sniffed and stuck up her nose. "There are other cities. And besides, the mayor knows how valuable we are. Who would protect his city from the monsters that tend to invade it daily?"
"Starfire, there are issues that you don't understand..." Robin said, beginning to get angry and annoyed that she just wasn't hearing him out.
"Yes, I know. 'It is all political, Star.' Well, I have seen enough of your kind of politics!" Starfire roared, eyes glowing and standing firm across from Robin.
Robin stood firm back, breathing heavily with rage.
He leaned forward slightly and pointed a finger. "I stand by what I said. You are just being an overly jealous... bitch."
Starfire sucked in a deep breath and glared furiously. "You are a zarbnarf who is flouncing around with a manipulative glempork, and you can both go to halvgaff!"
"That probably would've been a lot more insulting if I knew what you said," Robin taunted.
Starfire's chest heaved with fury. Then she seemed to regain control over herself, and spoke as calmly as she could.
"Robin...you were the best friend I had ever had. It distresses me greatly to see this side of you. I had expected better from you."
"Starfire, I didn't want to date you so early because I knew things like this would happen. I would have to take out some girl, and if I already had a girlfriend there'd be problems. I should've listened to my instincts. But I thought you understood," he said, attempting to speak calmly as well.
"I did understand. I understood until I saw you... doing that... with that girl!" she said, raising her voice at the end.
"I already told you, it wasn't me! She did it to me!"
"I have always observed that it takes two to engage in a ritual of that kind," Starfire sniffed.
"Whatever. You're just jealous."
Starfire went rigid. "Why you... You are a royal glormsnark! I always followed your guidance! I looked up to you, and this is how you act in spite of me? I do not wish to speak with you any longer. You have betrayed me beyond belief. Leave my room at once."
"Don't blame this on me! It's not what you think, I-"
"I believe what I saw."
He narrowed his eyes at her calm response.
"You are wrong," he said, low and threatening.
"Yes, that is correct. I am always wrong, and you are always right. Always, Robin."
He seethed with anger. "There is no point arguing with you anymore. If you can't even trust me that I'm telling the truth, then maybe we shouldn't be together. I'm leaving."
"I had already asked you to go."
Starfire lay crying on her bed for two hours, while Robin went to the training room to destroy several punching bags. Never had he and Starfire had such a serious and intense fight in the two and a half years he had known her.
"So... what's going on? I know there's something wrong, and it has nothing to do with Tamaran." Raven sat on her bed and Starfire perched on the edge.
Starfire sighed and wrapped her arms around herself, and Raven raised an eyebrow. Starfire generally could always blurt out what she needed to say. Raven had never seen her so troubled.
"What I am about to say is very difficult for me," she began. "I want you to know that all of you," Starfire choked and tears began to brim her eyes, "have been like a family to me... and I have come to love you all even more than my real family."
"You're never coming back, are you," Raven stated.
"Oh Raven!" Starfire hurled herself at the girl and cried on her shoulder. Raven felt rather uncomfortable at the moment and gingerly patted Starfire on the shoulder.
"But why, Starfire? You can work things out with Robin. No one wants you to just... go and never come back, not even him."
Starfire sniffed and pulled away. "It is not that simple, friend Raven. We have tried the talking out of things for the past two weeks, and all we manage to do is get into more arguments. I cannot take this, and neither can he. I hate what this is doing to us, and I believe it is in our best interests if I should just leave."
"Starfire, every couple has their problems, and you two will work them out. You can't just run away."
"No Raven," Starfire shook her head sadly. "This is what I must do."
"Hmm..." Raven stared at the alien beauty's face which was now streaked with tears. She wasn't quite sure what else she could say to get Starfire to think rationally. It actually somewhat scared her that Starfire was so desperate that she was thinking of leaving and never coming back. Raven didn't want to admit it, but she didn't want to think about the Teen Titans minus Starfire. Even if she could be annoying, she was part of the team, and part of the makeshift family they had put together. Losing Starfire in a weird way would be like losing her sister.
"I had mentioned to you before there was something I would like you to do for me," Starfire said, regaining control over her emotions.
"What is it?" Raven asked, curious.
"I... do not want to leave for Tamaran burdened by memories of... a certain person."
Raven narrowed her eyes. "Who is it?"
Starfire sighed. "I think you already know."
"Starfire, no. You can't just erase him from your mind. That's just... crazy."
"It will make things easier for the both of us."
"No Starfire, it won't. Maybe for you, but not for him."
"He does not care for me, so why should he care about what I do?"
Raven paused for a second. "He loves you, Starfire."
The girl appeared to start, and then closed her eyes and shook her head. "No Raven, he does not. If he did, he would have told me."
"Robin isn't exactly open with his feelings. Just because he never tells you doesn't mean he doesn't feel that way."
Starfire remained silent and stared at the floor.
"Still, I do not think we can ever repair things. I must leave now, and I wish for you to perform the spell which will erase his memories from my mind. I would still like to retain the memories of you and the other Titans, however. Just erase... him."
Raven pressed her lips together and considered her options for a moment. There was nothing she could do to convince Starfire to stay.
"Well... the spell isn't exactly short, and it could take several hours."
"It does not matter, as long as it is finished by tomorrow morning. My things are already packed, and-"
A familiar voice sounded from the hallway and a few pounds landed on Raven's door.
"She's in here," Raven called. The door slid open and Robin tumbled into the room.
"Why's all your stuff in your room all packed up? You're leaving, and you didn't even tell me?"
"Do not be so angry with me, Robin. I should not think it would be a surprise."
"That's not fair."
"I do not care anymore, Robin. I am leaving the Titans tomorrow, and I am never coming back. You can be happy and free now," Starfire said, floating up from the bed.
"You'll come back," he said matter of factly.
Starfire landed and said softly, "No Robin, I will not be coming back. I... will not remember you."
He looked confused. "What do you mean?"
"I have asked friend Raven to... delete you from my memories."
"What?" Robin asked, surprise and a little hurt in his voice.
"It will be easier for all of us," Starfire said.
Robin thought for a moment. "If you're getting me erased, then I want you to be erased from my mind too."
"Wait a minute, wait a minute," Raven cut in. "What if I refuse to do this?"
"As your Titan leader, I command you to," Robin said. Raven rolled her eyes.
"Whatever. But you both have to be absolutely sure this is what you want. The effects of the spell are permanent and neither of you will ever remember the other, even if you meet up again someday. Your memories of each other will be entirely erased. Is this what you want?"
Starfire and Robin were quiet for a moment, and stared into each other's eyes one last time. Their faces were expressionless as they both considered their options. After a few moments, both turned to Raven and answered.
"Soooo... wait, what? Robin and Starfire are erasing each other, and Starfire's leaving for good?" Beast Boy asked.
"But why? I know they were having a huge fight, but it's Robin and Starfire. The two were crazy about each other. She can't just... leave," Cyborg commented.
"Starfire is convinced that there is no way to repair their relationship and is looking for the easy way out. Robin wants Starfire erased from his mind as well, which is understandable. Why should he suffer with her memories if she won't be suffering with his?"
"It makes sense that way, I guess," Cyborg said. "Where are they now?"
"Both are in their respective rooms, preparing for the spell."
"Is Starfire erasing all of us? How will she remember the Titans?" Beast Boy asked.
"She will only be erasing Robin, and will still remember the rest of us, you and all your hair-brained jokes included."
"So... this is it, then? The Teen Titans will be reduced to four?" Cyborg said glumly.
"So it seems," Raven said flatly. "Anyway, I have to get to the medic lab. We have to start now, because it will take all night. I need both of you to stay out of the room. You could interfere with the procedure and mess up the spell."
"We'll keep out," Cyborg said.
"Promise," Beast Boy said, holding up three fingers.
"Starfire, I need you to lay on this bed here, and Robin I want you to lay on this bed right here."
They silently complied and lay on the beds. Raven then floated up into her lotus position between them. Robin lay to her right and Starfire lay to her left.
"The process is simple for the most part. But it requires that I tap into your minds and seek out every memory that you have of each other. Then I will perform a spell and delete each memory. You can't be shy and withhold something from me, or it will not be erased and you will still have a memory of the other person. This is why I had you sit in your bedrooms for awhile and think about each other, and also had you collect every item that reminds you of that person and bring it here, so we can dispose of them later. The process is long, but simple once I assume the trance."
"Will this 'process' hurt?" Starfire asked.
"Are you sure you can do it?" Robin asked, still slightly worried that something would go wrong.
"The process is simple."
"Okay, we're ready to begin," Raven said, closing her eyes and asking the others to do the same. "I'm going to chant for a second, and then soon you will both fall into a trance with me, and we will be able to hear each other, and view all the memories that you both have of each other. It should be easy to get rid of most of them, because you both have many shared memories. I will view them all, and then go through and delete each one. Are we clear on what's going to happen?"
"Yes," they both responded.
"When you both wake up, you won't know each other, but you will still remember me."
"Here it goes... Azerath metrion zinthos. Azerath metrion zinthooos..." Raven's eyes went white and began to glow, and a black bird like shape floated up and then split and dove into Robin and Starfire.
"Robin? Robin? Robin..."
From the suffocating blackness that seemed to stifle his senses, a high pitched and melodious voice, which sounded muffled and far away, kept repeating his name... insistently, urgently... she was calling for him.
"Robin... where are you?"
"Right here! I'm right here!" he tried to answer, but no sound escaped his lips.
"Robin? Oh, why does he not answer?"
"The process is simple for the most part. But it requires that I tap into your minds..."
"Will this 'process' hurt?"
"Are you sure you can do it?"
"The process is simple."
The process is simple...
I can't stop her from falling... she just went right over the cliff, she didn't fly, she didn't even try... she just kept falling...
"You and Slade are alike... he did not trust you, and you did not trust us..."
"Slade ran right by you! Why did you let him get away?"
"You are hurting me..."
"You're getting married!"
"My name is Koriand'r..."
"This has to be the most gorgeous girl I have ever seen..."
"He is most handsome..."
"Who is to know? Perhaps there shall be a groom for me on earth."
"You are going out again? With that girl?"
"Starfire... it's all politics..."
"I have seen enough of your kind of politics!"
"Maybe we shouldn't be together. I'm leaving."
"I had already asked you to go."
'I can't... I can't see anything... it's just black... but I can hear voices all over the place... what's happening to me?'
"Calm down, Robin, the spell is just starting to work. Soon your full memories will start popping up."
Raven's disembodied voice placidly sounded from the darkness. Robin tried to slow his quick breathing, but was finding it difficult. He wasn't scared necessarily, but… nervous. He didn't like the way he had heard Starfire calling for him. She had sounded so worried and upset… why couldn't he respond to her?
And then before he could think another thought, he felt himself reeling, and abruptly a scene popped up before him. He was astonished when he looked down to see he had a body, and beside him stood Raven and Starfire.
"Robin! You are o-" Starfire exclaimed, then cut herself off. She schooled her features back to expressionless and stepped back. "Okay," she finished flatly.
"Glad to see you're okay too," he retorted with a hint of sarcasm.
"Knock it off, both of you," Raven cut in. "Do you recognize this place?"
Robin and Starfire looked around. They were in Jump City in a dreary back alley; garbage dumpsters were overflowing with trash, there was litter on the ground, and the back had no fence, but was solid brick.
"Why, this is-"
"The place where we first met," Robin finished.
"Look!" Starfire exclaimed.
A much younger looking girl flying through the air zipped into the alley way, with fear plainly etched into her features. She flew to the back and discovered the brick wall. Looking up, she found there was roof connecting the two buildings. Before she could decide whether or not it was proper to destroy property on this new planet, she turned to find the horrible space bugs (which looked rather like giant mutant crickets) that had been chasing her had her only escape thoroughly blocked.
Koriand'r leaned against the back wall with dread. There were just too many for her to fight alone. With all hope now gone, she did the only thing she could. She screamed.
All of a sudden, Zornians went flying all over the place. They bounced off the walls and were tossed back out into the street. They looked as though they had been hit, or were being thrown. Koriand'r looked on curiously. Then a boy with a long staff appeared and jumped up onto a Zornian's head and hopped off it, avoiding the blasts from its laser gun and managing to knock a few down with his staff. Koriand'r's eyes widened. He seemed to be very skilled. And um… handsome too.
He looked up at her and seemed to stare slightly for a minute, then extended his hand and yelled "Come on!"
'This has to be the most gorgeous girl I have ever seen…'
Koriand'r looked at him questioningly for a moment, then pushed away from the wall and summoned up her courage again. Her energy was running a little lower, as Earth had been suffocatingly cloudy the past few days, but she still had some spark left in her reserves.
Her hands began to glow a bright green, and Robin looked at her with surprise. He hoped she wouldn't turn around and attack him…
But instead she began to fire green energy blasts at the Zornians. They tried to block her attacks and attempted to shoot laser blasts at her, but she gracefully dodged them and kept firing back her own powers. Robin began his attacks again, and soon the bugs were driven back and retreated fully.
Robin heaved a huge sigh and then turned back to the girl who had drifted to the ground and wrapped her arms around herself.
"Hi," Robin said, coming forward and extending a hand. Koriand'r looked at him curiously and then grabbed his hand with hers, looking at his palm, and then turning it over to look at the back of his hand. Robin raised his eyebrows. He took a good look at her exotic features, and realized this girl had to be from some other planet. For starters, her eyes had no whites, only a deep beautiful green iris on a lighter green. Her hair was not of this world-- it was a deep fiery red, and still seemed to shine even in the dreary alley. Her skin was also a peculiar color, a tan-ish orange, and seemed to set off the rest of her unusual features. Her clothes as well were of no earth fashions, and she was taller than he was; her legs seemed to go on forever.
"What is your name?" Robin asked.
Koriand'r looked very confused, and then spoke in a language Robin couldn't even hope to understand.
"Well, this is frustrating," he commented, turning and putting a hand on his chin. How could he ever hope to understand her, or she him?
"I'd like to know why those alien bugs were chasing you, or why you're here on this planet…" Robin looked lost, and Koriand'r looked at him blankly. Then she came up very close to Robin and looked him in the eyes. Robin was startled, and tried to back away. Koriand'r was too quick however and grabbed his hands. Then she closed her eyes and concentrated for a second. Robin was rather bewildered.
Koriand'r let go after a few moments and opened her eyes to stare intensely at Robin. Robin was rather nervous by now. This girl was rather strange, and he didn't know if he would want to fight her if she turned hostile. He was beginning to think he was better off with the evil space bugs.
Robin raised his eyebrows. Did she just say hello?
"Um… hi there. What the…?"
"I have absorbed the basics of your language. It is a skill my people possess."
"How?" Robin asked.
"By touch contact," she replied.
"Do you have a name?" Robin asked.
"I do. I am Koriand'r."
"Kor… i… an… der?"
"Close. You have pronounced the syllables correctly, but not the tones."
"Well, I'll get it. Anyway, my name's Robin," he said, extending his hand once again.
Koriand'r cocked her head to the side and looked at his hand. "Ro-bin. Why do you hold out your hand?"
"Oh. It's how our people say hello. You are supposed to shake my hand to return the gesture."
"I see." Koriand'r grabbed his hand with both of hers and vigorously shook it up and down.
Robin laughed. "No, like this." He grabbed her hand, and smiled at her. Koriand'r smiled back, and there seemed to be stars in her eyes. 'He is most handsome.'
'She's got the most beautiful smile I've ever seen…'
Robin, Raven, and Starfire stood behind the two in the memory, watching closely. Starfire let herself smile fondly as she watched, and Robin attempted to remain impassive. Both had forgotten just exactly how they felt when they had first met.
"Are you ready to move to the next memory?" Raven asked.
"I've seen enough," Robin said. Starfire glared at him.
"Okay," Raven said. Then Robin and Starfire gasped when the scene around them began to flip extremely fast, almost like they were fast forwarding through their life. They saw the events that happened later that day flash by, and then several days after also flew past. About as abruptly as the first scene had popped up, the next one jolted them to a stop.
"Um… well… do you have a name for your attack? You know, the green stuff you shoot from your hands."
Robin and Koriand'r were sitting on a grassy hill in one of Jump City's out skirting parks. The sun was shining brightly and the threat of mutant alien bugs was no longer.
"I really do not. I was thinking of calling them 'star bolts' however. I like the stars."
"Hm… star bolts. I think it fits."
"Thank you, Robin." She smiled.
"Hey… Kori… I was thinking…"
"Yes?" she asked.
"No offense, but your name is pretty hard to pronounce. Maybe we could give you another name? That way everyone won't have to trip over your real one."
"But Robin, how can one trip over something that is not physically real?"
"No, it's figurative speech. It's just an expression, I don't mean it literally. What I mean is that people have trouble saying your name, and if we give you a nickname that people can say it will be a lot easier."
"I understand. Well, what shall I call myself then?"
"Well, you said you like the stars, right? How about Star… something."
"Star something? That shall be my name?"
"No, no! The first part of your name could be star, but we could add an ending to it…" He glanced around the park, and then gazed at her bright red hair, which reminded him of...
Her eyes lit up and she grinned. "Starfire. I like that."
"I like it too. We'll call you Starfire."
"Oooh, I had forgotten that it was you who created my name," Starfire said wistfully.
Robin remained silent.
"Ready to go to the next one?" Raven asked again.
"Please," he requested. Starfire lapsed into silent frustration again.
Author's Notes: Okay, I'm going to say right off the bat that with these next few chapters, some parts will most definitely be modified scenes from the episodes. I want to stay within the Titan universe, and these are simply Robin and Starfire's memories. Not all are from the episodes, no. I have made some of my own memories, and I also would like to say that I took some liberties with these first two memories. I do want to credit my good friend Rurouni Tyriel for the memory of how Robin and Starfire met. I took that scene from one of his stories and modified it to my own tastes… and I think the roles of who was stuck in the alley were reversed… Robin was the one who was stuck and Starfire came to help. I didn't actually go back and read his, I just took the alley thing and the Zornians idea. So thanks, Rurouni.
If you have a problem that I have used parts of episodes in which I thought were important to the development of Robin and Starfire's characters, and to their blooming relationship, then it's simple: don't read the story. I do not claim the mini-plots of them to be my originals, I fully recognize that they are from the series and not mine. I just want to put up this little disclaimer because one of my other stories featured part of an episode, and even though I recognized that fact, I still got slammed by someone for it. Just making sure it doesn't happen again.
Okay… chapter stuff. This is a long one, and we're now into Robin and Starfire's memories. Hope you guys are interested to see their relationship progress… I had fun recalling up all the events that I thought had shaped Robin and Starfire, and eventually led to their relationship. A lot more fluffier moments from now on, which is nice, because I know I had a lot of drama and fighting in these first ones. Hope you all enjoy!
Moonfire - Nope, she didn't hear the conversation… as you've read I'm sure. Does this end happily? Keep reading and you'll find out!
SuperrachiE - Well I'm glad you review. I like getting reviews, especially positive ones! Glad to see you back again.
Solodancer - It's meant to be very confusing, actually. If you're confused, then it means I did it right! Things will be straightened out from here though. Thanks for dropping a line!
Bree-2006 - Well then, let me feed your appetite! Hope you liked this chapter too!
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Robin's Fair Lady - Yep, Robin most definitely is in trouble… chapter one and two were meant to be confusing, so it looks like I got it right! Thanks for putting me on your author alert list.
thesrazrbladekisses - Oh yeah. Starfire is rather pissed. Hope you liked this chapter too.
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Clueless90 - Sorry I took so long… college and work keep me very very busy. I generally don't get home until 10:30 or later, and if I do get home at 10:30, that's considered super early. I try to update when I can, honest!
Rurouni Tyriel - It is such a shame that we're all so busy, and like I said in the email, it's too bad that you can't find time to write anymore. You're so good at it. But with the class load you've taken on I can understand completely that you just don't have time. I barely do either.
Update on the cat: she's still alive, but very lethargic and she can't really get up anymore. At some point during the next few days I'm going to have to say good bye forever. And I just found out my grandma's cat, which used to be our cat, and he's about a good 15-17 years old, had to be put to sleep this morning. All my cats are dying! I just can't take it anymore.
Disclaimer: I in no way own the Teen Titans or characters from the original show. I do however take credit for the plot, and for Rebecca, my original character.