Notes: This is a little short story from Heero's POV. Mentions YAOI for those who don't know Japanese that means boy-boy lovin'. If you don't like it that's your prerogative. Don't bother flaming me about it as I warned you, you just didn't heed my warning.

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing or any of the characters contained therein. This story is completely mine as I never use any copyrighted names.


By: Kitty Maxwell-Yuy

It is hard to be around him everyday, because I have warm fuzzy, tingly feelings for him that I should not. You may ask why is it so hard? Why do you have warm fuzzy, tingly feelings for him? I will answer your questions. It is hard because it hurts to love someone who does not love you back. You may interrupt and ask how do you know they do not love you back? I know because he is not like me, he always has many mates, many different mates. Again you may interrupt maybe he is just trying to find the one for him, how do you know it is not you? I just know! Just accept it. Now to answer your other question. Why should I not have warm fuzzy, tingly feelings for him? I should not because I am not supposed to feel. Not remorse, not regret and certainly not something as trivial as love. You look at me and ask why not? Why? Because I was conditioned that way. Created and conditioned to be efficient and effective, not to feel. Perhaps, it is just a glitch in my so-called programming, a bug in my conditioning. No I am not an actual mechanical creation. I am a person, though programmed, lobotomized even. I am not supposed to feel, but I do. Now what am I supposed to do?