Hate turning into Love

Dark Lady Devinity

Love and hate. The two most passionate, controlling and confusing emotions in the human heart. It is so easy to love someone, even when they hurt you, and so hard to make yourself hate them when hate would protect you. However... the opposite is true too. It is just so hard to start loving someone when you have hated them for so long. Be it romantic love, family love, friendship or the sheer love of life. For once you start hating someone, it takes over you mind, your sense, your vision. You cannot see any good in someone you hate. You make assumptions about them, make them out to be cruel, evil... black hearted. And yet, to finally get the chance to see past your hatred, to no longer have it control you and your passions, then you can start loving them. It doesn't matter what kind of love either.

And yet, it seems that the greatest obstacle in a world of love and hate is the other person. It's so hard to start loving someone you used to hate. However, what happened when they don't love you in return?

Kyo Sohma sighed as he read those two paragraphs on learning to love someone you hate. It felt as if someone had reached into his mind, found his thoughts and put them on paper. For a long time, maybe even all his life, Kyo had hated Yuki Sohma because Yuki was the rat and he was the cat from the Chinese Zodiac legend.

The cat had been tricked by the rat, and then to farther punish the cat and the humans who were possessed by the cat's spirit, the rat would always best the cat in everything. There was nothing that Yuki couldn't do better than Kyo. Kyo hated his cousin for this and he hated that he would always be shunned by his family because of the rat. Hell, Kyo thought, his mother had killed herself because he was the cat.

With all that hatred and pain in his heart, Kyo made it his destiny to one day beat Yuki, or die trying. And there were any times when that was nearly possible. Yuki had thrown Kyo into many trees, through doors, and once through the roof. However, Kyo was hot headed and determined to keep trying and someday beat that bastard.

But everything began to change.

Kyo was forced to live under the same roof and go to the same school as Yuki. Along with that, Tohru Honda had come into his life. Tohru showed him kindness and love for the first time. He grew to love her, at first romantically and then as a sister. It was hard to make the switch, but he knew that it would be Yuki to claim her heart. Although that hadn't happened yet.

However, one of the major changes of having Tohru in his life was that she taught him to be more loving and understanding of people. And slowly he had begun to see he was wrong about Yuki. About a lot of things. The rat wasn't perfect, he didn't have an easy life and he had a hard time making friends, even though everyone loved him. It was strange to see that Yuki wasn't all that different than himself. Yet the biggest change happened when Kyo found Yuki having a nightmare about Akito.

And for once, the cat's heart softened. He didn't have physical fights with Yuki as often, he tried to keep his temper in check, though it wasn't always easy. And, in among all this trying and change, Kyo found himself loving bits and pieces of his rival. He started to see Yuki as another human being and as family. Yet he couldn't let Yuki know, not even when these feelings evolved into a greater kind of love.

Besides, Yuki would be happier with Tohru anyways.

It really wasn't easy letting go of all that hatred. It was harder learning to love, even when things started sneaking past him. And yet, it had happened.

And yet, it seems that the greatest obstacle in a world of love and hate is the other person. It's so hard to start loving someone you used to hate. However, what happened when they don't love you in return?

Kyo had to wonder. What would it be like, living his life now that he had fallen in love with Yuki and would never be loved back.