A little short on Atton's thoughts before the events of Message in a Datapad
There's also a picture to go along with it: h t t p / w w w . t e r i o n . n e t / a t t o n . j p g
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Hard to Leave, Harder to Stay
I promised her that I'd wait, that I'd help the kid and the Zabrak rebuild her precious Order. She knew I could care less – knew that she was the only Jedi I liked.
And she still asked.
But there was no rule that said I had to accept. Still, I did. 'Cause she asked me to.
How could I resist the woman who waltzed into the cellblock on Peragus in her underwear and told me to keep my eyes up?
I could always follow orders for a little while without complaint.
But I'm a deserter.
And here I am, sitting in a cantina on Coruscant contemplating deserting her. She expected me to be here when she returned – if she even did.
But I knew I couldn't stay.
There was still too much of my old self in me. And Jaq At'ton scared me. After meeting her, I didn't want to chance turning back into him – back into the Sith that killed and tortured Jedi.
I didn't like them but I liked him even less. Even if he was me.
And I knew, I knew how easy it would be to slide backwards and be him again. I couldn't chance that happening with her. I wouldn't.
So I left.
Force help her forgive me.