A/N: I am so sorry everyone for not updating sooner. I've been really busy, and thank you all for the reviews which motivated me and kept me writing. So thank you everyone. And for those of you who haven't noticed I changed my username from Mrs.Zala to Shuffleness.


Chapter 5: Part 1

I trailed behind the rest of the gang as they shopped around looking for something to wear to Yzak's engagement party. I almost didn't come, but Millie dragged me along claiming that I have the best opinion when it comes to fashion and looking 'hot'. But I had too many things on my mind to pay attention to anyone. We stopped at another store but I decided to have a seat on a bench outside of the store. My feet hurt and I needed to clear my head.

"Lacus aren't you coming in?" the brunette asked frowning and placing her hands on her hips.

"Ok, how about this. You find a dress you like and I'll give you my opinion on it. How does that sound," I said with a half smile.

"Ok," she sighed, and walked back into the clothing store.

I sighed in relief glad that I could finally get sometime to myself. I really needed to think, especially about what happened last night. Although Athrun had already reassured me that he loved me and that he wants to be with me, I'm still having my doubts. Nothing has really been solved. What if he doesn't tell Cagalli? What if he just said all that stuff to me last night because he doesn't want to hurt my feelings? What if he finds out about me and Kira? I touched my lips absent-mindedly. 'No get a grip, it didn't mean anything. It was an accident,' I said to myself. I buried my face in my hands. I didn't want to think about Kira right now, even though it was just a kiss Athrun would be really upset about it, and that kiss could probably ruin my chances of getting Athrun back. But I don't understand why Athrun would care. A kiss is nothing compared to what he and Cagalli must have done when he was back in Orb. I shook my head not wanting to think about her especially, but hopefully with a bit of luck she will be out of our lives for good. I hope.

Just then Kira approached me, "Hey Lacus do you know if there is a washroom around here?" he asked scratching the back of his head.

"Well if you go straight down and turn-"

"Could you just show me I don't want to get lost", he said with a sheepish grin. I nodded my head, got up and led the way. We walked in silence, I saw him glance at me from the corner of my eye. But I ignored him.

"You're awfully quiet today", he said staring at me waiting for a reply. I heard him sigh and then he stopped walking.

"Were almost th-"

"What's wrong with you?" he asked me all of a sudden.

I turned around and saw him frowning at me,

"Nothing I'm just kind of tired, we've been-"

"Don't lie", he said raising his voice a little. "Seriously Lacus, is it about the kiss?" he said whispering the last part.

I looked away from him, and he sighed again. Suddenly he grabbed my arm and pulled me towards the exit of the mall. I tried to wiggly my arm out of his grasp but his grip became tighter. When we reached outside he pulled me around a corner. It was blazing hot outside and the scorching sun made it even worse. "What's wrong with you?" he asked again softly placing a hand on my cheek. I haven't even been outside for a minuet and I could feel myself sweating already.

"You have to ask," I replied dryly and swatted his hand away from my cheek. He ran a hand through his unruly hair.

"Look Lacus I'm not sorry I kissed, I know it was wrong because you're still with Athrun. But I don't regret any of it because I love-"

"Don't say it, don't say it," I said shakily. "I don't want to hear it." I could feel the tears swelling up in my eyes, things are already complicated and Kira is just making things worst. I looked down at my feet trying to avoid his eyes, but he tipped my chin up with his index finger so I could look at him. Two tears slipped from the corner of my eyes and my vision started to go blurry. I felt his strong arms around me and his hot breath tickling my ear.

"Lacus, you are the only one I love…. the only one for me. When you left I didn't want to believe it. So I waited, thinking that you would come back." He said holding me tighter. "And know matter what happens I will always love you." he said softly. I kept my head down too ashamed to look at him. i felt so guilty. After all this time he still had feelings for me, but at the same time he didn't chase after me because he respected the decision I had made. He gave me everything and more. He tried so hard to make me happy, but I left him with a silly note because I was too much of a coward to tell him the truth.

"Kira I'm sorry I hurt you, but I can't be with-" he placed a finger on my lips silencing m. His mouth found mine, as he took it in a searing kiss. I pushed him away roughly, and I looked around franticly hoping that someone in particular hadn't seen our little passionate scene. "We can't keep doing this," I said. My eyes once again fixed on the ground. I looked up to the once blue sky and saw rain clouds moving swiftly, covering the shining sun and casting a shadow in the little alley we were in. I took a step back and leaned against the brick wall, my eyes still fixed on the sky. I glanced down at Kira and saw him watching me, his amethyst eyes full of sorrow. I closed my eyes and sighed. 'He probably hates me for what I did to him.' I took a deep breath to keep the tears from falling, "I'm such a horrible person," I muttered to myself. I could feel my lips trembling. I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, and it all came flooding out. "I'm sorry Kira, I love him," I said taking another deep breath. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I wanted to tell you, but I was scared. I didn't know what to do and I'm sorry……I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I'm sorry for hurting you. I didn't mean to end things the way I did." I said as I let the tears flow freely from my eyes.

"You think he loves you," the brown haired man said walking closer to me. I snapped my head up to look at him, wondering what he was talking about. When he was just inches from my face he repeated his question, "Do you think Athrun Loves you?" he asked again. I nodded my head not trusting my voice. He wiped a lone tear that slid down my check with the back of his thumb. "Then answer me this," he said whispering, "Why is he still with my sister?" he said raising an eyebrow. "Why would you want to be with someone who is in love with someone else? And do you think that he would still want to be with you if he found out that we kissed, twice?" Suddenly I felt anger surge inside me, and I felt the urge to rake my nails across his face.

"Are you threatening me?" I snapped. My eyes narrowing "Listen, Kira. Threatening me isn't going to change anything and besides, my love life is none of your concern. So stay out of it," I replied hotly and turned to exit the alley. Suddenly he grabbed my arm and whipped me around violently, causing my back to slam against the hard brick wall.

"Why do you love him!" he said, practically yelling in my face. He gripped my shoulders painfully, trying to hold me in place as I squirmed and tried desperately to wiggle out of his grasp. his handsome face scowling at me. I sneered back at him and yelled just as loud as he did.

"Because I do! And there's nothing you can do about," I yelled. "It's not easy to give up on the one person you ever loved, I'm sure you know that very well," I suddenly regretted what I had said, when I saw the sadness and hurt in his eyes. I looked out of the corner of my eye and saw a group of people walking by staring at us.

We were silent for a while until the little group dispersed and continued to walk. Still holding each other's gazes I spoke again, "I thought you had respected the decision I made." I said softly

"I did," he answered immediately. "But why can't you see that your making a big mistake," he said sighing and his scowling face softening.

"Kira, those decisions and mistakes are mine to make, I'm not a baby. I can take care of myself." I said and his grip on my shoulders lightened.

"I know but I just don't want to see you get hurt," he said pulling me in his arms.

"Don't worry I'll be fine. Please try and respect my decision," I said my cerulean eyes pleading with his amethyst ones.

"Fine," he said sighing in defeat. "I won't interfere anymore," He replied.

I hugged him tightly and smiled, "Thank-you Kira, for understanding."

"So we ok now?" he asked. I nodded my head and smiled happily, glad that I got things cleared up with him. Finally feeling a little relieved.

"What's going on?" I heard a voice. My eyes widened and Kira quickly released me from his embrace knowing who it was.

I looked over to Athrun calmly, thinking of an excuse to tell him. "Nothing, we were just talking," I said trying to keep my voice light. He walked closer to me and held my face in his hands and inspected me closely.

"Then why were you crying?" he asked and frowned at Kira. We were quiet for a moment, as Athrun looked from me to Kira waiting for an answer.

"Would someone care to tell me what happened," he said raising his voice, causing me too flinch a little from the tone in his voice. He looked down at me and I looked away ignoring his gaze. "What happened here?" he asked. He held my arm and rolled the sleeve of my t-shirt up to reveal a ring of light bluish-greenish bruises around my upper arm. He lightly touched it with his index and frowned when I winced. He looked at me questioningly and his eyes widened when I didn't answer. I looked up at him and I saw him glaring at Kira. His emerald eyes full of anger. "He did this to you didn't he," he replied angrily.

"I-it was a misunder-"

That was all he needed to hear, as his hand slowly slid down my arm. I looked up at him and saw the blaze and fury in his eyes. He stared down at me and I could feel the panic flare inside me. I've never seen him look this upset and it frightened me. My eyes became wide and as I stared into his fiery green ones. I heard the thunder roar from the sky above and felt the rain coming down as it began to pour, my clothes almost fully drenched and clinging to my skin. I gently placed my cool trembling fingers on his heated skin and felt his whole body stiffen. "Athrun," I whispered

"He hit you," was all I heard before he dashed after Kira with his fist positioned and ready to kill.


A/N: Ok everyone that was just part 1 of chapter 5. I was going to write one whole big chapter but I decided to split it into 2 parts, So stay tuned for part 2 which I will try and get up ASAP. And for those of you who are Kira fans don't worry I will not kill him or badly injure him, because I'm a Kira fan too so don't worry . Plz R&R Thanks.