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Through the Well
Forty-seven: To say our final goodbyes.
Kagome eventually drifted off into a peaceful sleep there in the hanyou's arms; he had noticed once her breathing had become slow and even. Wanting to just stay there for the rest of the night, he felt Kagome shiver; it would get colder and he didn't want for her to get sick. Reluctantly, he loosened his hold on her and carefully got to his feet with a sleeping girl securely in his arms. Taking a glance at the now pitch black sky that was illuminated by the millions of tiny stars, he smiled to himself before he began to walk quickly back to Kaede's hut; going slow enough not to wake her up, but fast enough to where they would reach the village in a short period of time.
His ears twitched as he listened carefully, cautiously to his surroundings; the hanyou did not wish to be attacked by any youkai with a sleeping maiden in his grasp. Inuyasha held Kagome closer to his body, his red haori around her like a make shift blanket. Looking around about ten minutes or so later, he spied a cherry blossom tree still in bloom. He inhaled deeply catching the wondrous scent as well as Kagome's. It somewhat tickled his nose, his hair blowing slightly as a semi-warm breeze blew by. A familiar scent hit his nose, it was of his comrades, Miroku and Sango; but they were mixed with something that his nose could only decipher as sex.
Snorting, he shook his head, he didn't want to know anything they had done; he didn't even want to think about it.. Sighing heavily as he saw the entrance to the village and he began to walk a little faster, he did wish to get some sleep before morning and maybe he would just sleep in the tree outside Kaede's hut so he could think about how to confront Kagome soon. Upon entering the hut, Inuyasha saw the form of the elderly priestess Kaede by the fire, a cup of tea in her hands and her good eye raised curiously at him.
"Welcome back Inuyasha," she said taking a sip from her cup.
"Feh," he replied quietly "If you don't be quiet you'll wake her up."
Kaede nodded and he went to the back room, laying Kagome gently down on the futon, covering her up. He decided to let her use his haori since he didn't really need it at the moment. Brushing away the stray strands of hair from her face, he leaned down and placed a feather of a kiss on her forehead before he stood up and dusted himself off.
"Sleep tight Kagome," he whispered as he left the room. He went and sat down across from the elderly priestess, who served him a cup of tea.
Taking a sip of the hot liquid, he could feel the warmth spreading throughout his body, he calmed down and glanced up at Kaede who seemed to be silently observing him.
"Where's Sango and Miroku?" Inuyasha asked as he glanced over at a sleeping Kirara by the fire.
"They have yet to return from wherever they had gone," Kaede laughed knowing something had transpired between the monk and demon slayer.
"Those stupid hentais!" He scoffed.
"Inuyasha?" Kaede asked becoming serious. "Where did ye take Lady Kagome to?"
"Up to a cliff so I could show her the way the sunsets before the new moon. Why do you ask?" He answered curiously.
"Because my child," she told him. "Ever since she had came, I have found ye to be more gentle. Ye seem to always lighten up when the mood is happy and Lady Kagome's by yer side... Is it just an old woman's cynical sense or do ye love that young lass?"
"Well it seems to be both you old hag." He snorted.
She nodded before slowly getting to her feet and brushing herself off. Inuyasha didn't need to be told that Kaede was going to go to sleep; he could sense her fatigue. He nodded himself and watched her leave before he took only last glance into the dark room where Kagome lay sleeping. He then got to his feet and strolled outside and over to the tree closest to the hut and jumped into the lowest branch. Settling down, his back leaning up against the trunk of the tree, his messy braid hanging over his shoulder.
As his mind began to drift, his eyes drooped and closed; he soon fell asleep dreaming about a future that he felt he would be able to have, hopefully with Kagome as his wife, but that day couldn't come soon enough.
Kagome rolled over onto her side, the warm blanket that surrounded her form fell off from her body and she shivered. Opening her eyes, she waited for her sleep-filled eyes to adjust to the darkness around her, she was back in Kaede's hut. Slowly getting to her feet, she walked out to where the fire once burned brightly and she glanced over at Sango who was smiling as she lay asleep wrapped tightly in Miroku's protective arms.
'How cute.' She thought to herself as she sighed heavily. Kagome wanted to be like her friends, she envied them for obtaining happiness because she was certain that she would never be happy like that, well except for with Inuyasha; but she still thought that they could never be like how Sango and Miroku looked. Heading quietly back to the room with a lit candle, Kagome looked cautiously around the room, Inuyasha wasn't there and she was relieved. Going over to her backpack, she pulled out a tiny pad of paper and a pen. Who only knows why she had packed it in the first place, but now she was glad that she did.
Laying flat on the ground, she put the tip of the pen into her mouth, she didn't know what she was going to say to Inuyasha, but she knew that she couldn't leave without at least giving him an explanation of some sort. After a few moments, she touched pen to paper and poured her heart out, hoping that one day he would understand and forgive her for her actions.
Dear Inuyasha, I know that this is not one
of the best or honorable ways to say good bye, but it's the best that
I can give you. I'm sorry for everything I have done, all the pain
I've caused you, but there's something that I feel that you should
know Inuyasha. I want you to know that I truly love you. It may be
cowardly not to tell you to your face, and yet I cannot bring myself
to do so. I have done so much that I don't know what to do, I don't
know what to say. I believe that you deserve to be happy and though I
wish that I could be by your side always, my mind cannot accept
everything that has happened. I've betrayed you, and no matter how
many times that I apologize and no matter how many times you forgive
me, my consciousness will forever be filled with guilt. For I tried
to slay you!
I know that this is not one of the best or honorable ways to say good bye, but it's the best that I can give you. I'm sorry for everything I have done, all the pain I've caused you, but there's something that I feel that you should know Inuyasha. I want you to know that I truly love you. It may be cowardly not to tell you to your face, and yet I cannot bring myself to do so. I have done so much that I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say. I believe that you deserve to be happy and though I wish that I could be by your side always, my mind cannot accept everything that has happened. I've betrayed you, and no matter how many times that I apologize and no matter how many times you forgive me, my consciousness will forever be filled with guilt. For I tried to slay you!
Please don't come after me Inuyasha, for
I do not wish to hurt you even more; I don't belong in this era! I
know that I promised you that I would never leave you and I've
realized that I would never be able to keep it. Inuyasha. Live. Be
free. Don't worry about me I'll be fine. I plan to start school again
and I'm turning seventeen in a few months. Don't cry for me, I wish
for you not to shed tears for me, I don't deserve your love, and
maybe I did once, but not anymore. You should know that I've
always loved you. Since the first day that I laid eyes on you asleep
and pinned to that tree. I do believe in love at first sight, and
you've always had my heart in your hands and you always will. I
will miss you so much and will think of you everyday that passes.
Please forget about me and find a girl that will cherish you and love
you like I couldn't. Maybe if we had met under different
circumstances, or maybe if this Naraku person hadn't manipulated me
we could have been together. I have never regretted any of the good
times that we spent together, me in your arms or your tender kisses.
Those were the best experiences in my life and nobody could ever
replace you. Thank you for everything Inuyasha. Tell Sango, Kaede,
and Miroku that I will miss them; for I have had the feeling that
something had happened to Shippo and I wish not to know. Love,
You should know that I've always loved you. Since the first day that I laid eyes on you asleep and pinned to that tree. I do believe in love at first sight, and you've always had my heart in your hands and you always will.
I will miss you so much and will think of you everyday that passes. Please forget about me and find a girl that will cherish you and love you like I couldn't. Maybe if we had met under different circumstances, or maybe if this Naraku person hadn't manipulated me we could have been together. I have never regretted any of the good times that we spent together, me in your arms or your tender kisses. Those were the best experiences in my life and nobody could ever replace you. Thank you for everything Inuyasha. Tell Sango, Kaede, and Miroku that I will miss them; for I have had the feeling that something had happened to Shippo and I wish not to know.
Wiping a stray tear from her eyes, she tore out the letter carefully and folded it; placing Inuyasha's name on it. Putting her things away, Kagome slipped on her shoes and clasped her chain around her neck before she hoisted her backpack carefully onto her shoulders. Walking slowly out of the hut, she looked around and spotted the sleeping hanyou in a near by tree. She went over to him and pulled out a dagger from her pocket, trying to be as quiet as possible so not to wake him, she attached the letter to the bark next to his leg. The dagger securely it so it wouldn't get lost and that he could easily find it when he woke.
"Good-bye Inuyasha," she whispered silently as she turned to leave.
"…I love you Kagome..." He murmured in his sleep.
stopped momentarily as her throat became dry. Kagome thought that she
would just die right then and there. 'He loves me? Should I leave
him like this? Can I bear to break his heart? I HAVE TO!' She
fought against her conscience, 'I must leave! I explained it in my
letter! I cannot get cold feet now--I won't!'
Blinking back her unshed tears, Kagome quickly started to jog out of the village, it soon would be morning and Inuyasha would be getting up. She had to get through the well once more before he could get to her, Kagome couldn't let him see her like this. The sun rose as Kagome slowed down to a power walk, keeping her guard up for any signs of trouble or the Inu-hanyou and she made her way towards the bone eater's well.
Kaede emerged from her hut, the sun rose rather quickly and she would have to make the daily runs in a while. Walking slowly towards the hut that the young group of travelers stayed in, she spied the young Inu-hanyou, Inuyasha in a near by tree a small dagger lay stuck in the bark of the tree by his foot. Going over to it, her old eye caught sight of a piece of paper with Inuyasha's name on it. Curiously she took down the note and read it over carefully; gasping when she finished it, which in return caused Inuyasha to yawn and stretch out his limbs. He had slept well for the few hours that passed, he felt refreshed. Rubbing the sleep from his tired eyes, he glanced around seeing Kaede by the branch where he was; a letter in her wrinkled hands, her good eye wide in surprise.
"Hey Kaede. What's got your goat?" He yawned jumping down onto the ground.
"My poor child." She murmured glancing sadly up at the hanyou.
He asked curiously looking at the back of the letter noticing his name, "Is that for me? Kaede? Who wrote it? What does it say?"
Before she could answer the rosary beads around Inuyasha's neck lit up and he plummeted face first into the ground. He cried out in shock before he jumped up angrily after the spell wore off.
"What the fuck!" He growled storming off to the hut to see why Kagome had "sat" him.
"Inuyasha," Kaede said sullenly. "Don't bother to go yell--She's not there..."
He stopped dead in his tracks and glanced worriedly back at the elderly priestess, "What do you mean, 'she's not there'?"
Holding out the letter, she cast her eye to the ground. Cautiously Inuyasha took the piece of paper and frowned slightly as he slowly and carefully began to read what had been written for him. His heart was torn to pieces as he collapsed to his knees; all of his energy had drained out of his body.
'How could she leave me after she tells me that she loves me? She promised that she'd never leave me!' He asked himself, the letter falling from his claws and fluttering to the ground. Nothing made sense, how was he supposed to move on? He loved Kagome and it had taken him too long to realize it, and now it was already too late to tell Kagome how he felt.
The elderly priestess said seriously as she watched the heart broken hanyou, "If ye feel the same way as Lady Kagome go after the young lass. Don't let yer love get away, because ye will never forgive yerself if ye just let her leave without her knowing if the feelings of her heart are being returned or not."
Wiping the sweat from her face, she glanced around uneasily, Kagome was almost to the bone eater's well and she began to feel paranoid as if she was being watched. Nothing was in her range of view. Sighing heavily she sped up her pace, she heard a rustling of leaves and thought that it was Inuyasha coming after her.
"Inuyasha sit!" She called out just as a deer jumped out from its hiding place, scaring the crap out of the young girl.
Mentally cursing herself, Kagome broke out into a frantic run. Now because of her being paranoid, Inuyasha was most likely to be awake and at this moment chasing after her. Her hair fluttered behind her as the heavy backpack lunged up and down, almost knocking the already unsteady girl to her knees a few times. A couple of minutes later, she arrived at the well and quickly climbed up on it, her backpack right next to the well so she could get onto it. Crouching down, she pulled on the straps of her immensely heavy backpack and hoisted it over her shoulders, big mistake. The weight of the thing knocked Kagome off balance and she fell. The backpack detached itself from Kagome and disappeared down into the darkness of the well as a flash of silver and red came from out of nowhere. She closed her eyes tightly as she prepared for horrific pain, but it never came.
Instead Kagome felt a pair of muscular arms wrap tightly around her waist, someone's chiseled, well toned chest pressed firmly against her forearms; her hands clutching the person's clothing in her fists.
"Kagome," he asked softly, "Are you okay?"
Her eyes immediately shot open, and she stared into the hurt and concerned amber eyes of Inuyasha. She gasped trying to swallow the large lump in her throat, but at the moment she was speechless.
"Lady Kaede!" Miroku and Sango called out in unison as they quickly scrambled from the hut, "Kagome's missing and all of her things ar--" Miroku's voice failed him as he saw the Inu-hanyou on his knees, a tiny piece of paper laying lifelessly on the ground.
"She left." Inuyasha said holding back a sob.
Sango went over to Inuyasha and thumped him upside the head with her first. An earnest expression on her face as she glared at him. "Don't just sit here you fool!" She cried angrily, "go after her Inuyasha! She's making the biggest mistake of her life! Go stop her! Because if you don't then you're not worthy of her love!"
That came clear to Inuyasha and in the blink of an eye he was gone, the only thing that proved that he was there was a bit of dirt that covered the air. He was going to go after her, Sango was right, he had to go after her. For some reason he was energized, his legs pumped as he ran for the well, following her scent. It would only be a matter of merely minutes before he would be at the bone eater's well and he prayed to God that Kagome hadn't passed through yet, not until he could get there.
As the well came into view, so did Kagome. She looked tired as she tried to get her gigantic pack onto her shoulders. The next minute, she was falling and he lunged for her, grabbing her waist and landing on the ground, holding her closely. He sniffed her hair as he tried to find anything wrong with her.
"Kagome," he asked softly. "Are you okay?"
He stared into her eyes as they shot open, she looked so surprised to see him but it didn't matter, he wasn't going to let her go, nope not this time. The tears began to swell up in her eyes and she hide her face in his chest.
"I told you not to come after me Inuyasha!" She cried her grip tightening on his shirt.
"I could never to that Kagome, I-" He whispered nuzzling his head into Kagome's shoulder, "I love you, and I'll be damned before I let you try and leave me again!"
"Please don't make this harder than it has to be," she told him.
The hanyou said sternly, his voice quivering slightly as he spoke, "When I read the letter my heart broke. I can't lose you! I don't know what I would do without you! You promised that you'd never leave me again! Did you mean it? I can't move on, can't you see it Kagome? When I see myself, I see you by my side as my mate. I don't want to live without you. I couldn't bear it for long."
"Stop Inuyasha!" Kagome demanded pushing him away, "I do not wish for you to proclaim your love for me! I don't deserve it! You have to move on Inuyasha! Forget about me! Let the memories die! They will not be a reality! It can't end happy for us, I could never give you happiness. So please don't stop me..." She turned and began to walk away from him.
He growled grabbing her wrist and flinging her body up against his, instantly capturing her lips in a demanding kiss.
Kagome gasped as the hanyou's tongue slid gently across her lips, then slowly slipped into her mouth; his hands snaked around her waist intensifying their lip lock. She didn't want to kiss him, but yet she couldn't pull away; she needed his touch.
"I don't want to move on Kagome and my memories of you shall never die. I wish for them to always stay in my mind. The only thing that will make me happy is if you were to stay and let me love you because your smiling face makes me happy. The sweet and innocent moments that we spend together, rather it be from afar or you in my arms; that's what makes me happy. I cannot choose whom I am destined to love, Kagome because my heart had chosen you along time ago... So please don't leave me-I need you…"
"Try to understand Inuyasha," Kagome pleaded looking up into his amber eyes. "You and I, we don't belong with each other. I live in a completely different time than you do. Two completely different worlds. Our love wouldn't last and then where would we be?"
"I won't ever stop loving you!" Inuyasha argued.
"Let me finish!" She insisted calmly blinking back more tears, "I must go back. I have a life, my brother needs me. I can't just not go and leave him there to suffer!"
"But I need you too." He whined childishly, "And if you won't stay, I'll come with you!"
"You can't come with me Inuyasha.." Kagome explained, "You belong here with Sango, Miroku and Lady Kaede. They need you more than I ever will."
"Kagome don't you love me?" He asked seriously, "Do you not want to be with me?"
"I do want to be with you! I love you, I do yes! But the fact of the matter is that we can't be together!" Kagome choked out as she sighed heavily before adding, "My mother always told me that if you love somebody you have to let them go and if it was truly meant to be they would always come back... You have to let me go Inuyasha... I understand that partings are never easy, but you have to! If not for you, do it for me. If you really love me Inuyasha you'd let me go."
"Will I ever see you again?"
"I don't know, I really don't know. Maybe someday, maybe not until our next lives when we are both reincarnated into butterflies."
Kagome reached up and cupped his cheek in her hand and he longingly leaned into her touch. No matter how much she tried to, she would never be able to forget the Inu-hanyou who showed her how to open up, how to love someone for who they really were and she'd never regret that fateful night in which she had met Inuyasha..
"I don't want to forget you Kagome." He told her realizing and understand that Kagome was indeed right, "No matter how much I want you to stay, I can't force you, but please don't ever forget me or how much I love you because I'm going to miss you so freaking much!"
Nodding her head, Kagome half heartedly smiled as she withdrew her hand from Inuyasha's warm cheek. She reached behind her neck and undid the clasp from her necklace, all the while her eyes never leaving his.
"Inuyasha I want you to have this," Kagome told him putting the necklace into the hanyou's masculine hands. "It was my mother's but I want you to have it. So you can remember me in your heart for always."
He stared down at the ring in his hand and frowned looking back at Kagome; the hanyou had had nothing to give to her in return. Out of the corner of his eyes he saw his hair, it was still up in the braid that Kagome had put it in. Using his claws, Inuyasha sliced off an inch above where the hair tie was and put the lock of hair into Kagome's hand.
"It may not be much, but it's all that I can give to you." He said sullenly.
Throwing herself into Inuyasha's strong embrace one last time, Kagome let the tears fall freely down her face as she brushed her lips lightly against his, giving the hanyou a chaste kiss good-bye. They stood there for a while until Inuyasha reluctantly pulled away and gently kissed her hand.
"I love you Kagome." He told her.
"I-I love you too Inuyasha," she replied softly holding onto the lock of his silver hair.
She turned and slowly made her way onto the well's surface taking one last good look at the hanyou, she jumped into the well and as the deep blue light surrounded her frail body, she could have sworn that she heard the mournful howl of her heart broken love, Inuyasha.
Inuyasha howled in distress as Kagome jumped down the well, he had gingerly grazed the ring in his hand and noticed writing on the inside. It was all it took to break down the last of his mental defenses and lose his sense of rational thinking, the sorrowful tears pouring down his tanned face.
"Over hill, Over dale. Let our love never fail..."
-To be Continued-
E/N: Hey there! The sequel will be posted soon, I just have to edit it! The title is "Back to you" and it starts where I left off in this story!
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