Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any Inuyasha characters.

Just so you know this is a Kagome/Kouga pairing in the beginning and I might throw in a Kagome/Inuyasha later on. This chapter has been re-edited thanks to my new beta reader Pyrinsomniac

This Fic is rated R for Inuyasha's potty mouth, lemons in the first chapter and so on….

Chapter One The Secret

The walls around Kagome began to shake, and she looked up at the ceiling from her seat on the well. 'I told him I would be back by now, he's probably worrying.' She knew any minute now Inuyasha would appear in the bottom of the well to drag her back to their seemingly endless quest for Shikon shards. 'Why am I sitting here? I've made my choice and now I have to deal with it.'

It had happened two weeks ago...


"Kagome, if you think this is wrong, we could stop." The voice was as calm and understanding as always.

"Kouga-kun, I trust you. It's just..." Kagome wasn't able to finish before she felt Kouga's lips on hers.

'How did things come to this?' she thought as he tightened his hold on her waist. 'One minute I can't get Inuyasha out of my head, next minute I'm here with Kouga.' Everything just felt too right for Kagome to stop herself. She could feel his hands gently caress her back, sending shivers up her spine.

"Are you sure this is what you want? What I mean is, what about Inuyasha?" Kouga wasn't sure if things should continue; he wanted more than anything for her to want to be with him, but somewhere down inside he knew she had feelings for the hanyou.

"Yes, I'm sure, but just promise me something?" Kagome queried, and Kouga noticed nervousness in her voice.

"Anything, Kagome. Just ask." Kouga wanted her to feel completely comfortable with him.

"Promise me this isn't only about sex. I don't know what sex means to Youkai, but I don't want this to be meaningless. I want to give in and feel like you really love me."

Kouga was taken aback. 'I'm supposed to be the one worrying about her not loving me.' "Kagome, sex is very important to Youkai. There's more to mating than simply pleasure, and if we do this it will be because I love you and want you to be my mate. Do you think you could ever love me as much as I love you?" He closed his eyes and waited for the answer, afraid she would push him away.

"I… I… think I already do love you, Kouga-kun." Kagome spoke in a hushed voice almost too low for even Kouga to hear.

He didn't know what to say. He opened his eyes to meet her blue ones. Kagome allowed herself to give in to the happiness and love she found in his gaze.

"Do you really mean that, Kagome?" Kouga waited for her answer but knew what it would be.

"Yes, Kouga-kun." she whispered, and that was all he needed to allow himself to fall into her.

"Kagome, can you do me a favor? Can you- tell me again that you love me?"

"I love you, Kouga." she smiled up at him.

"Kagome does this mean you will stay with me and be my mate?" he asked, unsure of what she would say.

"I will be your mate, but you know I cannot stay with you until I finish getting all the shards with Inuyasha. After all, it's my fault that the jewel was broken and I have to finish what I started." She knew he wouldn't like hearing it. 'What if he doesn't want to me to look for the shards with Inuyasha anymore? I know he doesn't like him.' Kouga looked slightly hurt, but he still loved her and couldn't give up the chance to finally have her.

"Kagome, if that is what you have to do, then I will accept it. You have said that you will be my mate; that's enough for me." she smiled and moved to kiss her again

After what felt like hours Kagome could see the sun start to come up in the distance and knew Inuyasha would come to look for her. After all, she'd said she was just taking a bath and had instead been gone all night. She looked down at the sleeping wolf Youkai next to her and smiled when she thought of what they had shared. " Kouga," she said softly.

He opened his eyes and looked up at her with a smile. "Yes, my love? Is something the matter?" he inquired huskily.

"I have to take a bath and get back to camp or Inuyasha will come for me." she told him, sitting up and gathering her torn uniform. She walked towards the spring. Kouga simply nodded and kissed her one last time before leaving.

"I shall return to check on my family, but I know you cannot stay with me until Naraku is destroyed and the Shikon no Tama is restored. Until then, my love." With that he left in a whirlwind as quickly as he had come. Kagome stood there naked before running to the spring to wash up. After she was finished, she walked back to camp and wriggled into her sleeping bag. Luckily, a battle the day before had exhausted Inuyasha, and the hanyou was so soundly asleep he didn't notice her return. Although Inuyasha was deep in slumber, Sango wasn't and noted her friend's surreptitious actions. 'I'll have to ask Kagome later where she went. It's not like her to disappear like that for so long.' She snuggled back down and went back to sleep.

End Flashback

Kagome continued to sit on the side of the well and think for a minute before abruptly letting her legs go and jumping down to the other side.

When she came out, Inuyasha was not waiting for her. Kagome simply shrugged it off and made her way towards the village. 'I wonder what he'll think when he finds out I'm pregnant, with Kouga's child. I should have known when Kouga said he'd be back to check on his family.' When Kagome looked up, Sango was standing in front of her, a living punctuation to her thoughts.

"Kagome-chan, we have to talk. I know that night you were gone until morning. Are you going to tell me where you really were?" Sango looked determined to get answers.

Kagome didn't know what to do, but she couldn't stand lying to her friend. "Sango-chan, I'll tell you, but not here. Let's go back to the village before Inuyasha thinks I haven't come back. I'll tell you later." Sango nodded, and they walked back together.

A/N: This chapter has been cut up and modified from its original version to remove the lemon. If I missed some of the lemon, I apologize.