Chapter 3: Deeper Thoughts

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Summary: Part of him doesn't want to go, but another part of him really wants to. He wants to see her perform on stage and besides, she had personally invited him.


He's avoiding me again, Lacus thought to herself. She was leaning her back against the wall and watched Athrun in silence.

Athrun was quietly sitting on the long sofa motionless, only the right side of his face was facing her. He didn't speak to her at dinner…most of the time he'll only talk to her when she asked him something or when she needed something from him. And he's been acting like that since….

Lacus looked down and bit her lower lip. Is he still mad? Is he blaming me for the accident? Is that why he won't even talk to me? she thought to herself. She had already explained what had happened to him a few days ago. About the accident. His reaction? Nothing. No response, no answer, and not even a question. Just a look of emotionless face.

"Athrun…" Lacus whispered, but it was loud enough for him to hear.

He slowly turned and looked up at her. The very first thing she noticed was that his beautiful emerald eyes and Lacus was mesmerized as his eyes held hers. Athrun slightly smiled at her but then turned his gaze away again. Lacus slowly walked and sat beside him as close as she could on the couch. But Athrun act as if she wasn't there, like she didn't even exist.

Are you really that mad at me, Athrun? Lacus suddenly let out a soft sob and tried to hide it. Unfortunately, Athrun noticed it turned to her immediately.

"Lacus, is there something wrong?" Athrun kindly asked. He tilted his head to the side a bit to get a better view of her face. But she turned away from him and quickly blinked away her tears.

"I don't know…I hope not. Athrun…please be honest with me." she said as she looks back at him.

"Are you still blaming me for what had happened?" she snuggled closer to him and was feeling very glad that he didn't move away from her or even tried to back away.


"I'm sorry, Athrun. I really am. But if you're still mad at me, I want you to know that I'm truly very sorry because I know I can only apologize so many times. I -- "

"Lacus, I'm not mad at you. I was just…lost in confusion." Athrun cut off her sentence, as he tries to recall her explanation to him regarding the accident several days ago. Seeing her puzzled expression, Athrun continued, "I lost my memory…I can't remember my past…I don't even know who I am. And I don't know what I'm supposed to do."

"Is this why you're crying?" Athrun gently wipe away a tear from Lacus's cheek gently with his thumb. He doesn't know why but, it just hurts him to see Lacus cry.

"Then why didn't you at least talk to me?"

Athrun's eyes widened in surprise at her. "I'm sorry if I've been awfully quiet. I guess I'm just too lost in my own thoughts. I should at least have… " his words trailed off when Lacus stared at him intently. Their eyes looking at each other, as if they've known each other for a long time.

"Yes, Athrun?" Lacus asked him. Her lips are slightly open.

Athrun's eyes slowly went down to her pink lips, as he leaned closer to Lacus till she could feel his breath on her cheeks. Then he slowly whispered, "I should have at least…"

They both begin to lean closer till their lips are merely a few centimeters away. But Athrun immediately leaned back before they kissed each other, "-say thank you for the dinner. It was very delicious."

Lacus looks disappointed but sweetly smiled, concealing her disappointment. "You're welcome, Athrun."

Awkward silence filled the air…but deep down inside their hearts, only they realize what's happening. But neither of them are willing to admit it yet, that both of them are falling into each other regardless about the fact that they haven't knew each other long enough.


I really hope this isn't true. She's not that kind of person. How could she do that without telling me about it? She better have a good explanation for this!

Yzak Joule step harder on the accelerator pedal. His fancy red sport car sped through several cars, which results in most of the drivers to honk at him for being inconsiderate on the road. Usually he would honk back louder and longer, and sometimes even show them the finger if he was having a bad day, but today was not that day. Today he got to meet up with his most precious and beloved client, who was none other than Lacus Clyne herselft.

As soon as he reaches his destination, he quickly got out of his car and invited himself into the mansion by walking through the main doors. Albert, who was the mansion's one and only butler, greeted him and asked what is his intention to come to Clyne's mansion.

"I want to see Ms. Clyne. It's very urgent." Yzak immediately answered and Albert quietly nodded and walked away. So Yzak decided to wait for her in the living room. He was pacing back and forth, disturbed about the rumour he had just been told this morning. At first he thought it was another gossip or tabloid that the paparazzi made up to sell their papers. But when he was shown a copy of a famous tabloid magazine, complete with a photo taken, he was shocked.

He crossed both his arms in front of his chest and took a deep breath. Relax, Yzak. The photo must have been a fake. You didn't see any blue-haired guy around here, right?

"Yzak! So nice of you to drop by!" a familiar voice call out to him.

Yzak turned towards the voice and immediately smiled and hugged Lacus tightly. She hugged him back in return and Yzak let her go.

"I just happened to be in the neighborhood. So Lacus, how are you?" he asked.

"Great as always. How about you?"

"Fine, as always." Yzak smiled again at her and then cleared his throat a bit. "Lacus, there's something I need to talk to you about."

"Okay, but first I want to introduce you to a friend of mine. He's been staying here with me for awhile."

Yzak's eyes widen immediately and Lacus smiled sheepishly at him. "I know, I know. I should've told you about it sooner but it wasn't the right time. But now that you're here, looks like I can introduce you guys to each other after all."

"Yzak, I would like you to meet Athrun Zala. Athrun, I would like you to meet my remarkable agent and also manager, Yzak Joule." Lacus slightly stepped aside and Yzak looked up and saw him right away.

As they both shook hands, Yzak said to himself, looks like the rumour was true after all.


Athrun have been staying in his room for most of the day since Lacus's manager came by. Athrun breathe in and sighed…a few minutes ago she had already left with Yzak to get ready for her concert….at the White….something.

Yzak Joule. Lacus part time agent and full time manager. There's something about the guy that makes him feel curious and uneasy. Especially the way the guy treated and talk to Lacus. The way he looks at her…the way he acts around Lacus. At some point, Athrun began wondered about the way Lacus acted around him. Are they….an item?

He quickly shook his head. What was he thinking? I don't care if they're an item or not. I just want my memory back. His eyes looked at the alarm clock on the table beside the bed. It was showing 6.00.m. In exactly about 2 hours, the concert will start. Her concert. Should I go?

In his hands was the concert ticket. A V.I.P ticket which the words are in gold. I'm no one, why did she give me this V.I.P ticket?

His memory flashes back to today's earlier incident. They were both enjoying each other's company at the house's beautiful garden. Then suddenly she had given him a white envelope. Athrun was about to ask what's in it when she spoke.

"Athrun, there's something I want to tell you. Tonight, I'll be having a concert and…I…I would like for you to come to my concert tonight. Um, here, the ticket is in this envelope. I look forward to see you there." Lacus looks at him smiling as usual. But there's something in her eyes, it looks as if her eyes are pleading him to go.

He didn't know what to say. He doesn't like the idea of going to a place where he doesn't recognize anyone. Those VIPs might ask him questions which he don't have the answer for it. Even he got a million of questions which about himself that no one could answer for him.

"O-okay. I'll be there then, Lacus." Athrun tried to smile back but he really felt like smacking his own head right now. He didn't want to be rude…but what was he supposed to say? Part of him doesn't want to go, but another part of him really wants to. He wants to see her perform on stage and besides, she had personally invited him.

As his thoughts return to the present, he knew he had already made his decision the moment he saw Lacus and Yzak left to the concert. What the heck, I'm already wearing this tux so I might as well just go. Athrun stood up from his bed, took the ticket, kept it in his tux, went downstairs and meet the man that was going to send him to the concert.

"I'm ready. Let's go." Athrun said to the man, who was smiling at him.

"Good. I was beginning to think that you're not going." Andrew said as they exit the mansion through the main door.


A/N: Yeah! I was finally able to post this chappie. Hahahaha. Hope you guys like it. If there's any error, tell me and I'll fix it. :D