Title: Transforming Thoughts
Author Name: DarkForest214
Spoilers: none really…
Summery: Another full moon, a difficult decision, a surprise answer. It's the Marauders at their best!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters or Hogwarts School. I did not write this to try and make money. I am not stealing from JKR and the publishing companies and whatnot… I own nothing!
Author's Note: I started this as a short One-shot...several pages later and I decided I'll turn this bad boy into a chaptered fic.
"You pompous, arrogant, son of a—"
"Lily!" Remus cautioned. But his cautious tone backfired when the feisty red head rounded on him.
"And you let them get away with it! You didn't even try to stop them," she accused, her voice rather loud.
"You know perfectly well that's not true," said Remus, keeping his voice calm and level.
"Yeah, Lils he tried to talk us out of it," James said seriously.
"Before he gave us a brilliant idea to—"
"I don't want to hear it!" snapped Lily, interrupting Sirius. Remus gave his friends a warning glance which they ignored as they continued to irritate Lily.
"It's not like we caused permanent damage to him," said Sirius while trying to look innocent.
"You're not going to sweet talk your way out of this one, Sirius Black. What you did could have been extremely harmful," said Lily, glaring at anyone that dared look her way.
"But it wasn't," James said simply.
"You've got to admit it was pretty funny," said Sirius, his smile growing wider every second.
"Did you see his face?" James asked, forgetting to play innocent around his 'true love' Lily Evans.
"Lils, you need to calm down," Remus said quietly as he gently placed a hand on her arm.
"No!" she said, throwing his hand off her. "These two have crossed the line one too many times already. They need to learn that there are consequences to their actions. I'm seeing the Headmaster about this."
As a fifth year and a prefect, Lily took the rules very seriously, unlike Remus who usually gave up while trying to instill some discipline amongst his friends. Remus let out a sigh as Lily stormed out of the common room. When the portrait door was firmly closed behind her he turned on his friends.
"James, what were you thinking?" You know Lily hates it when you—"
"I don't care if she doesn't like it, as long as we can get a few laughs—"
"Is that all you care about?" said Remus, glaring at him. "Is 'getting a few laughs' really worth it? I thought you liked Lily." The only reason he was so upset was because just moments before James and Sirius's little prank Remus had been telling Lily how great of a friend James was.
"I do. That's why I always do and say stupid things around her. I can't help it…she makes me lose my mind," said James.
"Sorry mate, you lost your mind a long time ago," laughed Sirius. "Might I suggest you look for one next time we go to Hogsmeade?"
"Bugger off, Padfoot," James snapped. "I don't care if Lils takes this to Dumbledore. We've talked our way out of these kinds of situations dozens of times," he said with a shrug.
"I don't know, you need to start being more careful," said Remus. "It's one thing for everyone to know you've done something, but there isn't any evidence towards you. It's another to be caught in the act." He looked around the room to make sure it was empty and safe for him to continue. "What if somebody stumbled across you two when you were mid-change? Just because you can finally successfully transform doesn't mean you have to go around abusing that ability."
"We don't," said James.
"We always check the map first," said Sirius.
"But you don't always think before doing whatever it is you two loons decide to do," snapped Remus.
"Moony what's wrong?" asked James, eying his friend warily.
"Are you feeling all right?" asked Sirius. "I can go get Madame Pomfrey if you want—"
"No!" growled Remus. "I'm fine. I'm just sick of you guys risking you necks for a little bit of fun!" He regretted it the moment he said it when he saw the hurt look on James' face
"Fine. You want us to stop risking our necks? Then you can suffer through the next full moon alone," James snapped before he stormed off to the boys' dormitory.
"Fine by me, at least I won't have to worry about biting you!"
Sirius watched James storm off then looked to Remus. "He does have a point, you know," said Sirius quietly. Remus didn't say anything, he just looked down at his hands. "You didn't have to yell at him like that either…" he added.
"Don't you think that I already regret saying it?" said Remus stiffly.
Seeing that his friend had sunk into one of his odd moods that usually happened the week before the full moon, he recognized that he needed to talk. "Remus, what's wrong?" Sirius asked as he moved to sit in the chair across from his friend.
"Nothing, just…just go shove a dung bomb down Snape's trousers or something," said Remus, all the while avoiding eye contact.
"No, Remus, you have my attention and I suggest you use it."
Remus looked up and saw the uncharacteristic, serious look on his friend's normally smirking and mischievous face. "I don't know, it's just…hard…"
"Try, Moony. Just try," said Sirius.
"Okay, but you have to promise not to laugh…" said Remus.
"I promise," said Sirius with out blinking or breaking eye contact.
Remus hesitated then spoke, "I'm worried…I'm scared…I-I'm confused," Remus said haltingly. Sirius didn't say anything but nodded, and urged him to continue. "I'm worried that one of these days I might bite one of you, or someone might stumble in on me mid-transformation and I might lose control. It's hard enough each month…I hate losing control of my own body…"
"Who's going to stumble in on you? Nobody but James, Peter and I know about you, well... except for the teachers of course," said Sirius supportively. "Even if you did bite one of us, we wouldn't care. We're your friends, remember?"
"That means a lot, thanks," Remus said sheepishly. "But it doesn't mean I won't dread the next full moon and the pain it brings…or the full moon after that, or the full—"
"I know what you mean," said Sirius, cutting him off. "We may never experience the same physical pain or mental torture as you do, but it kills us to see you suffer like that."
Remus managed to smile, "You sound so sensible and caring…What have you done to Sirius?" he joked.
Sirius laughed, "Yeah, I knew that would sound weird coming from me…" he sobered up, "but I do mean it. Why else would we risk our necks if we didn't care about you?"
"For shits and giggles?" Remus asked skeptically while trying not to laugh.
Sirius laughed "That too…"
The two sat there in a comfortable silence until Peter came down from the boy's dormitories looking for them.
"You two going to sit here all night, or are you coming up to bed?" he asked.
Remus looked to Sirius who nodded. It was understood that neither of them would ever mention this conversation again.
A/N: That's it for the first chapter, more coming when I get some reviews...As always; If you review me, chances are I'll R&R your stuff as well!