Description: Ichigo feels like there's some force drving him on, one that he can't explain. Companion to Karma Cycle.
A/N: After I did Karma Cycle, I was interested in putting the same concept to Ichigo. I think I like him a little more after writing this.
He really isn't doing this for love.
He knows that with every new person he meets and tells his story to, the first thing they think is "He's in love with her".
He knows that when Renji slumps down, defeated and tells him that he better damned well save Rukia, what he's really saying is "I give up, she's yours." The slope of the other man's shoulders isn't just from the shame of defeat, but from the pain of unrequited love. He wants to tell him something to make him feel better, to let him know that he's got it all wrong, but all of Soul Society is on his heels and he doesn't have time help Renji with his love life, or lack there of.
He knows that when Hanatarou promises to stand up against all of Soul Society and betray his division for the sake of a brief friendship that the little guy is a thousand times more noble and brave then he will ever be. For his sake on top of his own, Ichigo starts trying a little harder, knowing that he's being counted on to get through this in one piece so he can get Rukia out.
And while he can't completely deny that he may have some feelings for the tiny shinigami, it isn't love that's driving him past his limits and forcing him to put his life on the line on a daily basis.
Of course, Ichigo understands he isn't the kind of guy who will stay idle while someone is ready to die for his sake. But sometimes, when he's about to wet himself from fear because he just can't cut the monster shinigami Zaraki Kenpachi, or when he's staring into the eyes of Old Man Zangetsu and he's pretty sure half of the blood in his body is spattered all over the ground, he wonders if that's all there is to it.
In the back of his mind he thinks there's something more to this whole thing. A little too often when he says or does something he sees Ganjyu give him a look that he tries hard to hide, but he can still tell he's just weirded the other guy out. It's the same look that he used to catch Rukia giving him; like she was looking through him at someone else. That someone else seemed to light up their eyes in a way that made his skin crawl because he knew he could never do the same.
Okay, I didn't actually do a second chapter for Karma Cycle, but because I got a request, I did this companion. I love my reviews.
Nadare-chan: As far as I know, they just look alike. I think kubotite used it as a plot device only. Maybe though, it'd be cool if he really was, I dunno if he thought that far ahead.
seal-chan: TT thank you...
Outsane: Yay! I converted someone else to my way of thinking.
Chibi Dragon: Thanks! The last line is the one I had stuck in my head the whole time I was writing it.
aznpuffyhair: You've got a point there. I know that some sects of Buddhism says that you reincarnaate after 49 days, and I think another says 7 years. In Ryuhei Kitamura's Versus (wicked movie btw) the girl reincarnates after 500 years, so I think it's okay to take artistic liscence with it.
No, Ichigo's natural hair color isn't orange. I know in the anime they're like "Ichigo is a freak of nature dandelion head" but kubotite is more realistic, so it's dyed in the manga. And really, the manga is what counts.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry. It was a one shot, but I wrote this companion just for you, I hope you like it.
Ann: Woo, I gave you chills (is proud). Wow, I'm really the only one who's written about this? That makes me happy, I'm being original for once.
carzla: ehh, thank you. Kuukaku and Ganjyu love their big brother. I sure hope thet manga explores it.