Song-Fic #3: Just So You Know

Song: 'Just So You Know' by Jesse McCartney

Genre: Romance/Sadness

Rating: K+

I shouldn't love you, but I want to

I just can't turn away

Ryou couldn't help but feel slightly annoyed. It was wrong, that he knew. But his heart was speaking for itself; he liked her more than he should. More than an employee, more than a friend…He loved her and the thing was that she was unreachable…she was already taken.

I shouldn't see you, but I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

He watched her talking to her friends as she cleaned the cafe's tables. She glowed with happiness, from a resent date she had had with her boyfriend, the oh-so-perfect Masaya. He saw her showing off the necklace Masaya had given her. It was ugly against her beauty. Zakuro patted Ichigo's head, Lettuce blushed, Pudding jumped up and down and Mint smirked. He wish he could at least be her friend, someone close to her. Someone she could relay on…so he could stand besides her.

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around; I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

His feelings were speaking for themselves. Feelings he had never experienced. Happiness, jealousy, lust…And he knew it was wrong, she was taken…and she was in pure bliss. He watched from the table he sat, as Masaya walked in kissing Ichigo's soft cheek, taking her hand in his and dragging her away to another date. Ryou hated himself for letting her go.

It's getting hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide my feelings

And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not

Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

It was hard to go to places. Everywhere he would go, he would find himself encountering Ichigo and Masaya. And she always threw him a knowing glance. Did she know? Did she felt the same? That he doubted…and it hurt to think like that. He loved looking at her. He wished he could be the one to have a chance to hold her and kiss her senseless. He wondered what she would say if she found out what he was thinking. He wondered if she would feel disgusted. He wondered if he could have the courage to confront her. He didn't know how to act around her anymore. Awkwardness would fill the silence. He didn't fight with her anymore. He wanted to act nice, but didn't know how. Often she would ask what was wrong with him and he didn't know what to respond under her knowing glance. He wondered if he could eliminate those feelings and turn things the way they were before.

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around; I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

At work, he always had a train of thoughts in his mind. He would always propose to himself that he would fight for her love, which he wouldn't let Masaya win. He didn't want to sit around and watch. But he knew he couldn't win and he tried countless of time to forget her. A vain less attempt. A fruitless effort. Her hold on him had become too strong to let go. Her pink short hair made him sigh. Her brown luscious eyes made his heart flutter. Her soft rosy lips made him want to kiss her and her laugh, her red blush, drove him nuts. God, he sounded like a sick-love puppy.

This emptiness is killing me

And I'm wondering why I've waited so long

His blue eyes would absently watch the cherry blossom petals, the wind playing with his golden hair, as he would sit in the park thinking, like he had taken accustomed to. He wished Ichigo could be besides him, that he could whisper his endless love in her ear, making her giggle, making her flush…Always, when his daydreams ended, a pain would course through his heart. As hard to believe, he ended up heartbroken over and over again. And on rare days like this, a lonely, unspoken-of tear would fall down his cheek. Nobody knew, he still preserved his dignity.

Looking back I realize

It was always there just never spoken

I'm waiting here…been waiting here

Keiichiro always had told him he had had his chance, that he didn't take it. And he knew Keiichiro was right. Ryou should have noticed the breathtaking blush she always had on the first days they had met. He should have realized then, taken his chance. Maybe now she would be his, and Masaya would be long forgotten.

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around; I can't let him win now

Ryou wished he be like other guys. A perfect Romeo for a breathtaking Juliet. He would always give her bouquets of roses. Chocolate covered strawberries. He would recite her poems, compose songs for her. And she wpould sigh. Watching as the day went by and Icigho never returned from her date, made his blood boil. He deeply hated Masaya for it.

He would have her someday. He would unpack his courage for her. He will devote his love for her. He would make her forget Masaya…and she will love him.

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

Ryou smiled slightly as he drank his coffee. He will be willing to make come true all his promises. He just prayed God for all to turn right…Ichigo stepped into the café in a daze and Ryou took a deep breath as he set his coffee down and walked towards her…he was tired of waiting…

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Authors Note: Well, here's a new song fic. Got inspired at about 1 in the morning. Hope you like it. I know, it ends like that, but I just want you to imagine what would happen next. Wicked, aren't I? I don't have any other idea for another song, so it would help, if you guys told me some song title and I can come up with something. COMMENT PLEASEE!!!