Title: Harry Potter and the Gate of Merlin
Pairing: Harry Potter/Rodney McKay
Fandom: Harry Potter/Stargate: Atlantis
Rating: pg-13 for now
Summary: Harry will do anything to find Sirius, anything at all.
"No!" Harry screamed out in his sleep, startling himself awake. His heart was beating rapidly and it took him a moment to realize that he'd been dreaming. "Damn it!"
He sighed and got out of bed to wash off the slick sweat that the nightmare had produced. He was almost to his to his en suite bathroom when he heard a light knock on his door.
"Come in Remus," Harry called out turning on the light in the bathroom and splashing his face with cool water, too impatient to get rid of the remnants of the dream to wait for the water flowing out of the hot tap to heat. He looked up into the mirror above the sink and turned when he saw Remus standing in the doorway of the bathroom clad only in a pair of stripy, cotton pajama bottoms.
"Are you okay, Harry? I heard screaming," Remus asked, his concern evident in his voice.
Harry gave him a small smile. "Yeah I'm okay, Moony, it was just the same old dream of Sirius falling through the Veil," Harry told him, walking into the sitting-room-cum-walk-in-closet of his suite of rooms and slumping down onto the sofa.
Remus sat next to him. "I know how you feel, Harry – I see the same scene replay in my mind every night." Remus paused. "I have faith that you're going to find a way to bring him home, Harry," Remus told him gently petting Harry's still damp hair. Harry sighed into the comforting touch and curled into Remus's side.
"I'm trying Remus, I've gotten my hands on everything I could on the Veil – there's only one book I've not been able to get hold of, and no one seems to know whether or not it still exists," Harry told him.
Remus sighed. "From what I've heard you've become the Wizarding world's leading expert on the Veil... Harry, I wish you would let me help you with this, it's too big a task for one person to handle, even you," he said softly.
"No Moony, this is something I have to do myself – you know that with the Ministry's new anti-werewolf laws that you could be executed for even touching some of the books I have on the Veil and you know we can't risk that. You mean too much to me, I can't lose you too," Harry told him. Remus smiled a sad smile; if it weren't for Harry then he'd take the risk of going against the Ministry's laws.
"I just feel so helpless; I can't even help you find my own mate! The wolf in me is still telling me I need to go and follow him through the Veil, even after eight years!" Remus told Harry. "I've not told you this before, but we were talking about starting a family - having children I should say, since you are part of our family - he said he thought I deserved to be a father." Remus snorted and shook his head. "Never took him too seriously on that though, I'd make a terrible parent - I wasn't even that good of a teacher!" He smiled a tight, sad smile. "I would have loved to have children with him though."
"Oh Remus, why didn't you ever tell me? I am going to find him. I'll devote the rest of my life to it if I have to," Harry said pulling Remus closer to him and hugging him tight.
"I know, Harry, I know you'll find something," Remus said with a sniffle then stood up looking down and Harry with a sad look on his face. "Harry I want so badly to be able to tell you to do anything and everything you can to find him, no matter the personal cost, but that's not right. You've been asked your whole life to do things for other people who've had no right to ask, so I will not ask this of you. If you find him, find him for you."
"But Remus, I'm not just doing this for you; I'm doing it for me and for him! I have to find him, Remus because if I don't I won't be able to live my life how I want it to be," Harry told him standing up also.
Remus smiled, placing a hand on the younger mans cheek. "Harry there is no one like you in this world, you are one in a million and I love you for it." Remus gave him a quick hug. "Now it's time for us to get back to bed – it's very late and we both have things that need doing in the morning."
"Night Remus and I love you too," Harry said following Remus to the door and shutting it softly behind him. After a few moments Harry crawled back into his bed and stared up at the ceiling for the rest of the night.