Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to any of the characters depicted in this story, Gainax does, God bless 'em – so don't sue me, k? Also, this story has a few hints of lemon, but nothing too descriptive… you've been warned.

Neon Genesis Evangelion
By Random1377

Part 1
(End of Episode 15)
Asuka: Beyond her heart

"So, Shinji, do you want to kiss me?" Shinji Ikari's mind started racing, -is she serious? Am I dreaming or something? Maybe I'm still in the entry plug somehow…- "Well do you or not? It's not that big of a deal, just a way to kill time." Shinji looked at Asuka Langley Souryu, who was now standing up and regarding him intently.

For the first time in months, Shinji was mad – very mad. "You think it's ok to play with my feelings like this? Like this is a game?!"

Asuka took a few steps back as Shinji quickly began closing the distance between them, "You S-Stay back!"

Shinji sneered at her, "What's the matter, Second Child? Scared you might like it too much? I thought you weren't scared of anything."

Asuka stopped retreating and glared at him, "I'm not! I'm not scared of you, so come on – if you're man enough! DO IT!"

Shinji's eyes narrowed and he grabbed Asuka's arms, pushing her up against the wall. "Hey! Be carf-" Shinji's lips pressed against hers silenced her protests.

In spite of her bold words, Asuka WAS scared. She had never seen Shinji so angry, and he was holding her tightly in place, -What if he won't stop?- She thought, her heart racing -he's stronger than I am- Then another thought occurred to her, -What if I don't LET him stop?-

This last thought hit her like a slap – did she LIKE him pinning her to the wall and kissing her like this? Suddenly she became aware of everything about the situation. The way he smelled, -Is that after-shave? Does he SHAVE?- The way his hand held her in place, -but he's not hurting me – and he could. He's… gentle- And the fact that he no longer looked mad, -He looks so… peaceful- For the first time since she was seven, Asuka surrendered to her feelings – she closed her eyes, and kissed him back.

After a few moments, Shinji's eyes flew open and he let go of her arms and stepped away, breaking the kiss. Asuka opened her eyes slowly and looked at him, rubbing her arms absently. "I'm, um, sorry Asuka, I-"

Shinji stopped abruptly as Asuka stepped closer to him, never taking her eyes off of his. He flinched and closed his eyes as she raised her right hand, anticipating a slap unlike any he had experienced before -I deserve it, too- he thought with disgust -how could I have done that?!-

He waited for what seemed like forever and then his breath caught in his throat as he felt her hand lightly caress his cheek.

"Shinji?" He opened his eyes to find her smiling at him, "I'm not going to hit you, stupid" Instead, she put her other hand on the other side of his face and pulled his lips gently to hers. After a few seconds, she pulled away and looked into his eyes again, "You've never been kissed." She smiled as her turned bright red, confirming her suspicion; "It's ok…. I haven't either" She suppressed a giggle at his surprised reaction, then became serious, "I'm sorry Shinji, for everything. And you are right – this is something to take seriously. Will you take it seriously with me?" With that, she leaned back against the wall, pulling his lips to hers before he could reply. She wrapped her arms around him and held him close, enjoying the feeling of his body pressed against hers.

Shinji's mind was in overdrive, -This must be a dream – it MUST!- Suddenly, he no longer cared if it was or not. The girl he whom he had thought so often about was in his arms, kissing him. He gently opened his mouth and ran his tongue slowly across her lips, eliciting first a surprised squeak and then a soft moan as her lips parted and let his tongue in.

They kissed with increasing passion for several minutes, until Asuka broke away, breathing hard, "Wow." Shinji laid his head on her shoulder, but could only nod. After a minute, Asuka gently pulled away and started walking towards her room.

Shinji, sure he had done something wrong, said, "Asuka, I'm sor-"

She spoke without stopping or turning around, "Shinji?" "What?" She was now in from of her door, where she stopped. After a moment of silence she said softly, "Shinji, I want to go to bed."

Shinji was confused, "Um, ok. It's still light out, but-"

She spoke again, softer, "I want you to come with me. Will you, Shinji?" She turned around, and he could see tears shining in her eyes.

He swallowed hard, "Asuka, don't you think we're a little too young to-"

"What did you do two weeks ago?" The tears were running down her cheeks, now, but her voice was calm, "Exactly two weeks ago today."

He thought for a moment, "I fought an angel"

She walked back over to him and took his hand, "Shinji, you almost died. So did I. So did Rei. So did everyone. What we do is dangerous, Shinji. Each time could be our last, doesn't that make us a little more grown up than the average fourteen year old?" She took his face in her hands and looked into his eyes, "I don't want to die, and I don't want you to die… but I know it is a possibility. I can't deny what I feel for you anymore. If one of us does die, I want to have been as close to you as possible. Do you understand Shinji? Do you understand that I love you?"

He nodded, and kissed her palm, "Yes, I understand… and I love you too." She smiled at him and wiped away her tears. Hand in hand, they went to her room.

To be continued.

Author's notes: I wrote this one because I began to wonder, "What if Asuka pushed too hard and Shinji had lost his temper, just at the right time?" And "What if Asuka let go of her pride, and acknowledged her love for Shinji – at the right time?" The result, you just read. Due to some positive feedback (and yes, there was some negative too), I have decided to continue this thread of an idea through End of Evangelion. I'm going to call it Deviance, as it deviates from the original story line. This serves as part 1. I don't know how fast I'll be able to get parts out, but I'm hoping for every couple weeks.

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