Ahh damn stupid computer! U ass I finally finish this damn story and you get a virus! Mofo ya go on and delete everything AHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH shit now I gatta rewrite everything!…ok I feel a little better…
Warning: Gene is about to get really emotional in next paragraph if u have a weak stomach and detest hugs and kisses (AKA-XOXOX) we highly recommend u skip this paragraph and move on to the story...where there will also be hugs and emotional scenes …wow ur just screwed huh?
Ello im back! I don't know if u pple like these long author notes but I do! So tough this once really long. Ha Im so happy today cuz of two things….its gunna sound weird but its not like that…my best friend told me she loved me and another friend gave me a sisterly kiss on the head. I know im being weird but I can help it im jus so happy. No one besides my parent has ever told me they loved me! N to hear it coming from someone that I really care about ahhh. Im really lucky to have friend like that …I mean the last bunch I hung out with beat me up and called me names and this one? They give me kisses n tell me im loved. Its just a huge change. And no don't get any sick ideas my friend doesn't love me like that but I feel like my heart expanded or summen. Ahh im being weird huh? Well I don't care cuz wut they think really matters to me. my friend kate she is more important to me then anything in the world. Plus shes so strange! N we met under the weirdest circumstances. Shes the only one who can make me laugh so hard that my jaw gets sore afterward. Like one time she was telling me her family bought a bull but she lost it n now they cant find it. A FUCKEN BULL! She lost a bull in her backyard! Yep defiantly one of the weirdest craziest oddest girl ive ever met. But she also one of the important pple in my life. She was the first friend I really trusted n she may not know it but she influences me to be a better person. She doesn't realize a lot thou. Like she the reason I even bother coming to school. N she is the reason I smile so much hell she the one that's kept me alive…she's pretty much the reason for all my actions. so ya I love that girl a lot (shut up there are different kinds of love ok!)
So last chapter got a lot of reactions especially the suicide part. Like I said don't do summen dim-witted as try to kill to ur self. Its stupid and u have no idea how many pple u end up hurting in the end. Everyone seems to get the message thou bout suicide and fighting but… Geeze my mom doesn't even know the stuff im writing about. I dunno im scared of their reaction. Don't think she'll be happy about me fighting in elementary middle and high school. Of course I know why ive been able to be open with 4598 pple (woo-hoo! Only 2 chapters im cool!) because no offence what can u really do to me? Sure u could review me n say bad things to me but besides that? Talking like this I can write parts of me in the story. Real words ive spoken n things ive almost done...ha that's weird but its true and it makes me glad when pple review and ask about me plus my story seems to affect pple in a good way.
Ok so at first I was going to give in and use "behind blue eyes" for the quote-y thing and I almost gave in….but its so over used even if it follows the story really well so ya these lyrics are better in my mind at least. ME AGAINST THE WORLD! Lets see wut else?
Hmm well my inspiration for this chapter came from kate. Cuz shes proof for me that no one is as lost as they think all u really need in life is one good friend cuz that's what will save u in the end. Despite what people say everyone need one person who really care about them. They don't necessary have to understand you but just knowing that you're not compeatly alone helps the pain. And that person maybe someone you would never expect. For me it was the quite bookworm who stays in the back of classroom by herself, had never gotten been in fight her entire life and doesn't care what pple think of her. Im so lucky I found someone like her.
Angels Refuse to Die
Chapter 3-Gunna prove them wrong
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I'm gonna prove them wrong
It's me against the world
"Get up." Sasuke voice hissed
Naruto barely stirred. He had taken his headband off at one point and was now clutching it in one hand, the symbol of the village pressing into his skin. He allowed the dark boy stomped over to him and lifted him up by his jacket collar. Shacking him a bit to get his attention.
"Did you not hear me. I said get up."
Sasuke felt a chill run threw him as Naruto stared at him with lifeless eyes. Little details became more apparent up close. Without the jacket Sasuke could see scars that looked like trails on Naruto's arms. The wounds were fresh maybe a day old and had not been properly bandaged. On closer inspection he could see ten tiny bruises lined Naruto's neck. Kunai; Sasuke conclude had caused the scars, large ones not the kind Naruto owned and fingertips had bruised his neck. Sasuke felt a hint of relief as he realized the wounds had not been self-inflicted but felt his heart clench as reality hit him. Someone had harmed the blond with the intention to hurt and kill.
When Naruto spoke his voice was at the normal tone yet his eyes never betrayed any emotion in the words.
"Wow your sharingan looks really cool up close."
Sasuke blinked and released Naruto collar. When had his sharingan been activated? He took a step back and watched a smile creep into Naruto's face that was a cold contrast to his detached eyes.
"So are you going to kill me?"
By now the rain was coming down in sheets soaking both boys clothing. Naruto black shirt clung to his frame and his once gravity deifying hair was now plastered on his face. The dry blood on his arms became watery and began to drip from their wounds past the curve of muscle and rested on his knuckles. Naruto still held tight to his headband. When Sasuke didn't speak Naruto took a step closer.
"Are you going to kill me?" This was no longer Naruto voice. It was much deeper and coarse.
Naruto's smile had become twisted and demonic. The sight made Sasuke swallow a large gulp. Where was the hyperactive idiot? Where was the damn sunshine? Could Naruto really be a demon? Naruto seemed to read his thoughts and spoke again. His voice came out harsh and full of anger.
"I am the monster of this village." Before Sasuke could blink Naruto threw himself at the dark boy launching a fist towards his face. Sasuke quickly dodged it and moved to block the rapid punches. Naruto's eyes narrowed in fury as his fist missed the target, he growled in frustration.
"Do you think you can kill a demon?"
Naruto's fist finally came in contact with the boy's face making him loose balance and fall on his ass. Sasuke hit the ground hard knocking the air from his lungs his head followed scrapping a little making a small amount of blood to leek into his dark hair. Naruto took the opportunity to jump on his rival and pin him to the ground trapping Sasuke arms and legs. Sasuke felt cold metal bite into his wrist and realized Naruto still held on to his headband. Sasuke tried not to flinch as Naruto toward over him with his wicked fox-smile. In the background the sky had grown darker and a sudden strike of lightning illuminated Naruto face.
"Are you afraid of me? Do you hate me?"
Sasuke panicked and was able to move his knees enough to toss Naruto off of him and stand back up.
He moved to a defense stands but realized that during their fight Naruto had gotten to close to the edge of the mountain. He sat with one knee pressed into his chest and the other curled under him. His left arm was thrown backward catching the edge of the cliff and the rock beneath his fingertips crumpled and disappeared over the edge. Sasuke waited for the blond to get up but felt chills run down his back as the boy stared behind him into the dark valley.
Sasuke mind felt numb as he watched his comrade lean farther over the edge. 'Naruto he going to!"
Air rushed back into Sasuke lungs as Naruto turned back towards him.
Naruto looked down at his right hand and stared at the headband before slowly released it from his clasp. It tumbled from his fingers and landed on his curled knee.
Naruto stared at his palm. The Hidden Leaf spiral symbol was indented on his skin from holding onto it too tightly.
The blond boy looked up and stared at Sasuke with a different emotion. It wasn't anger or hate that clouded the blue eyes it was something much more corrupt.
"But I'm not ready to die yet Sasuke." Desperation clung to his tongue like a snake coated deeply in fear. Naruto traced his fingers along the symbol. He closed his eyes and clenched his fist tightly. The blond boy's words came out in a quick rush, so quiet Sasuke had to lean forward to hear it.
"I still need to become Hokage before I die. I need them to respect and acknowledge me not fear. I still need to prove that I'm willing to protect the ones I love even if they don't love me." Naruto curled his other knee up to his chest unconsciously and wrapped his arms around his them. He reopened his eyes and stared at the markings on his skin.
"It may have been hell when I was ignored but now they're getting scared. As I grow stronger their fear grows too. Because in their eyes it not Uzumaki Naruto who getting stronger it's the Nine Tail." Sasuke moved closer and sat in front of Naruto but the blond didn't look up from his palm, still tracing the pattern.
"So I'm going to prove them wrong. If I don't fight back they going to have to see. I want to protect this village because it is my home. I know if I can hold out a little longer and just take the hits they won't be afraid of me." Sasuke's eyes widened at this statement and crept even closer. Naruto's voice was getting softer and softer with each word.
Sasuke found his own voice feeling the anger rise in his throat "You let them hit you? Why do you do it? Why don't you just defend yourself?"
Naruto looked up as though he had just realized who was sitting in front of him. He gave Sasuke a happy smile. It consumed his entire face, hiding any trace of pain or sorrow that was visible before. Sasuke felt his stomach churn from the smile.
"They'll see that I have control and I don't want to hurt anyone."
Naruto looked back down at his palm and let his smile drop a bit. Although still present it was sad and dreary.
"You know. It's impossible for everyone to hate me. There are millions of people in this world. Not everyone can hate me. Not everyone can reject what I am. There has to be one person out there that won't hate a monster. I know if I hold out a bit longer I'll find that person."
Before Naruto could continue he felt himself being tugged away from the edge. He was half kneeling in the mud while Sasuke used his body to protect him from the rain pulling him into a loose embrace. Too shocked to even struggle he stared at the straight-ahead and felt arms lock around him. He could feel the warmth from the other boy seep into his skin and began to realize just how cold he was.
"What make you think you don't already have that?" Sasuke pulled back from the hug a little to look at the blond's eyes swarm with confusion and other emotions.
Suddenly Naruto slammed his forehead into Sasuke.
Shock ran threw his spine as he reeled back in pain and let go of Naruto's arms.
"What the fuck that hurt!" He yelled while wiping the spot of blood that began to run down between his eyes and down the narrow passage of his left eye.
Naruto had backed up and was staring at Sasuke with fear etched in his eyes. He panted almost choking on the metallic taste of his own blood.
"Don…Don't fuck with me! Don't you fucking mess with my head!"
Sasuke could only stare as he watched the other boy curl into himself for protection. Beads of water gathered on his bangs and dripped onto his orange pants. Naruto let out a howl not caring who heard him and tugged at his blond hair twisting it into knots. He could feel his panic and anxiety rise into his throat choking him like a noose. His blood felt cold and sluggish as he raised a hand and clenching his black shirt right above his heart.
Sasuke mind raced as he tried to find a name that would satisfy the broken boy. It landed on their late teacher. Naruto respected him right? The man was probably the closest thing Naruto had to a father figure.
"Iruka-sensei he cares!"
Naruto stop shacking and Sasuke felt a moment of relief before he saw Naruto lips twitched in an angry smile and let out a low chuckle.
"The fox killed his parents when he was young, he been an orphan almost all his life. Because of that he can emphasize with me and forgive me but Iruka is not a saint. He can't forget who is the main source of his pain is."
Sasuke dissolved this information and struggled to remember another name.
"Kakashi. He wouldn't…"
The name was barely out of his mouth before Naruto leapt up and dug his nails into the raven boy's shoulders.
YOU'RE THE GOD DAMN FAVORITE YOU ASSHOLE!" Naruto growled deeply and dug his nails even deeper into pail flesh. Sasuke's stoic expression fueled his anger as he spoke quickly in a low dangerous voice.
"Everyone loves you Sasuke but you don't care do you? People would fucking sacrifice their lives for the Uchiha's prodigy. But me? They rather see me dead then their Hokage! Come on tell me who cares about me? Sakura? The Third? The man behind the ramen counter? Come on tell me bastard! Who really gives a fly fuck if I live or die? You think you can stand there and honestly say that anyone in this village wants me here? You've never seen their stares. You don't know what its like! You have no fucking clue what it's like to be alone!"
"YOU HAVE ME! YOU STUPID IDIOT!"
Naruto froze at the words and released his death grip on Sasuke's shoulders. He tried to scramble away but Sasuke was having none of that. He quickly drew Naruto back into a hug and held on to him tightly. Naruto fought tooth and nail to flee from Uchiha's grip he twisted to escape but Sasuke only held on to him tighter. Releasing one hand Sasuke pressed Naruto's face into his neck and pressed his own face into the blond boy's soft blond locks.
"No No No No No No No No No!" Naruto's scream was muffled by Sasuke neck. Sasuke used his free hand to gently stroke the narrow passage of Naruto spine, up and down in a continuous motion. Naruto could feel his body relax from the touch and cursed inside his head. Besides sparing and the occasional ruffle of his hair he had never been in human contact.
It felt wrong.
No one was suppose to comfort the demon. No one was suppose to make the demon feel wanted. Naruto could feel the guilt coil in his stomach like a snake. No it felt so wrong. Someone needed to reeducate the Uchiha boy.
Naruto tried to pull away again but Sasuke just tighten his one handed hug crushing the air out of the blond's lungs. After a moment he felt Naruto stop struggling only then did he speak in a low voice. Sasuke warm breath tickled Naruto's ear.
"I care. I worry. And I fear for you. You such a fake Uzumaki you act like your happy for the sake of others. You've fooled everyone for too long. You even managed to fool me. But I was wrong. No one who is alone can be as happy as you pretend to be. You hid this from me. You lied and you fucking hid from me. What I want to know is why? Did you not trust me? Did you really believe I would hate you?"
Naruto felt his heart clench from the words and he wanted to cry out. He greedily sucked in air in order to calm himself. Sasuke stopped stroking the blond's back and moved his hand into the messy wet locks tangling his fingers on the stray hairs on Naruto's nape.
"But you're wrong too. Don't make the mistake thinking you're the only one who is alone. You talk as if you and the demon are one. If that were true you wouldn't be feeling all these emotions. You wouldn't be afraid to be held like this."
Naruto went limb in Sasuke arms all the air he had been holding was released. Sasuke made an effort to ignore the tickling sensation of Naruto's breath. He was about to speak again when he felt warm lips move against his skin. The voice was broken and soft as Naruto forced what little air was left into the words.
"Why… why are you doing this? I don't understand you hate me."
Sasuke released his death grip on the boy giving him air. He looked at the mess of wet blond hair covering blue eyes. Sasuke reached up and moved the boy's bangs and saw Naruto's bright blue eyes were red around the rims.
"Idiot I don't hate you. I don't give a fuck about the demon or what ever it is. You're my important friend."
Naruto froze at his words he was barely breathing. Sasuke felt his fear stab his heart when the blond did not respond to him. Maybe Naruto didn't consider him a friend at all. Sasuke began to pull away but was surprised when he felt two shaky arms wrap around his waist and pull him closer.
"I'm your friend." the blond spoke uncertainly. Sasuke could not see the boy's eyes but could feel Naruto's warmth crawl into his limps making his cold blood grow warm and rush threw his veins. This, he decided, was why his face had suddenly turned a scarlet red crawling over the top of his noes and spreading over his cheeks. But still he smiled.
"Ya and future Hokage"
Naruto's eyes widen. He blinked several times before pulled away slightly to look at the raven boy's eyes. It had seem that the warmth of Sasuke body had also caused Naruto's blood to move quicker over his face. How peculiar.
"My dream" he whispered softly his cerulean eyes grew bright with delighted.
Sasuke nodded slightly and smiled at the blond. Naruto smiled along with him but then scrunched up his noes and eyes began to twitch. Sasuke stared at the boy in confusion. Naruto began to twist and pull away from him. Sasuke started to feel Naruto's warmth leave him but he quickly dragged the blond back to him. What was wrong?
Spit sprayed over Sasuke's face.
His eyes widened and blinked several times before narrowing in disgust. He could feel the salvia sticking to his skin and had a mental vision of tiny germs partying on his face.
"Naruto!" Sasuke growled angrily, his left eye twitched madly.
"Ahh! I'm sorry I'm sorry! I swear I didn't do it on purpose! It's just it's still raining and I'm getting cold and I don't have my jacket on and…" Naruto continued to ramble on using his wet sleeve to wipe of his spit, leaving a wet trail over Sasuke's face.
Sasuke let out a frustrated signed before pushing Naruto away to use his own sleeve. He reached over and picked up Naruto headband and slipped it into his pocket for safe keeping. Sasuke stood up and watched the blond on the ground fumble around still talking.
"…I swear I didn't do it on purpose you should have let go when I was trying to get away it's really not my fault."
Sasuke reached down and laced his fingers threw Naruto's pulling him from the muddy ground onto his feet. Naruto rose unsteadily and stumbled a bit before regaining his balance he looked up at Sasuke unsure and felt a bit queasy when the raven boy refused to meet his eye. Sasuke quickly began dragging the blond down the pathway towards the village.
Naruto regain he speech and tried to halt their trip by planting his feet into the ground. Which had no effect since the ground was completely saturated. "Bastard! What are you doing?"
Sasuke tugged him harder forcing the blond to stumble out of the mud and keep him from falling. "Getting you out of the rain." He stated.
"Oh." Naruto's anger simmered down as he glanced at their entangled fingers.
"And your holding my hand because…?"
Sasuke blushed (damn that blood rush!) and quickly retorted "Because an idiot like you would fall if I didn't."
"Oh." Was Naruto's reply still watching their hands. He reached under their arms and grabbled Sasuke left arm with his right lace them together as well.
"So I don't fall."
They continued to walk down the mountain in silence. Sasuke stole a glance at the blond and notice a small smile played over the boy's lips. He felt his own lips curl into a peaceful grin, his eyes widened as he looked at Naruto's face closer.
"Hey I just notice something." He said breaking the silence. Naruto turned around giving him a questioning look.
"Your black eye it's gone."
Naruto his eyes grew into slits and his grin cheesy. "Heh! Ya perks and benefits to being the host of a man-eating demon include fast healing abilities." He joked with his fox-smile still on. Sasuke turned away to hide his face before he spoke again.
"Black and blue aren't your colors," Naruto tilted his head in confusion, he felt Sasuke hand tighten on his own. The warmth of his hand sent tiny shivers down his back making his face heat up. Naruto was so preoccupied with the feeling of the boy's warmth, he barely caught the last of Sasuke sentence.
"You look better in orange."
Naruto's eyes widened for a moment before losing his fox-grin and replacing it with a true smile that stretched his scars across his face. He laughed a little and tightening his own hold on his friend before breaking out in a run down the slippery mountain. Sasuke let out a tiny chuckle and allowed his best friend to pull him home.
Lifecan be randomly wonderful like that.
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So wow I finished it! Heh this all started one drunken night stemming from a bad memory (I dare you to find that in my profile that was one interesting update). I never thought it would become so important to me so I'm sad to see it end. But it all worked out. I met some great people (some of them much harsher about my updates, grammar, spell check etc. lol). Hi Charlie!
Sad thing is turns out a lot of pple get bullied ha here I was thinking I was all alone. Its kinda sick. Remember how I said parts of my life were written here? Well when Sasuke is comforting Naruto was based on this stranger a year ago. I sorta had a panic attack at school cuz a student had committed suicide. I kinda freaked out and wasn't aware of anyone around me. I think I was talking or shouting but im not sure. So this random girl (I feel bad that I never got her name) pulled me over and gave me a hug and let me cry all over her nice red shirt. (She laced my finger threw her and walked with me just like Naruto and Sasuke did). Really wish I had asked her name. She graduated that year and I never got to thank her. Actually I can't even remember what her face looks like I was kinda freaked out at the moment. Man I wish I knew who she was… people can be randomly wonderful huh?
As long as ur reading this I may as well try and pass some wisdom huh? All this dumb shit about ignoring people and hurting them (physically or mentally) has to stop. I mean it. I'm not asking for a perfect world. I know that's not going to happen but still. Shit happens pple get hurt that's inevitable but that doesn't mean u have to stand back and watch. I said it once what I hated more then anything is how pple just stood back and my ass get kicked. I fought back in my own way cuz I refused to become one of those quiet kids who never get notice. I was loud and annoying I pulled pranks on the pple that hurt me and the pple who didn't help me when I need it. I did almost anything to get some attention (heh sound like anyone we know?) So ya now u know. Its not just the quite ones who need to look out for! Lol but things changed. I found kate and she changed me. When I'm around her I don't want to be a bad person. The shit I pulled before I meet her really hurt pple. It was funny and all. But it was revenge for the shit they put me threw but I wasn't happy. Cuz I was still alone. I can't imagine my life without her.
So lets wrap this up:
Lesson #1- don't treat pple like dirt. (or else they'll come back and write a fanfiction about it lol)
Lesson #2-don't give up! Lives not as difficult as everyone make it out to be. Everyone deserves to be happy even me. Just find what/who makes u smile and stick to it.
Lesson #3- People can surprise you in the most wonderful random ways. There truly are some great pple out there. Just gatta look for them
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