Warnings: Angst, portrayal of a characters dark side
Summary: What lies behind the jokes?
I hate myself. I'm pathetic; I hide behind jokes, and I don't care what I have to do to get attention.
As long as people are looking at me I'm happy. I don't care about respect anymore, I just want some one to notice me.
Rae's mocking, Cy's encouragement, I'll take it all. It doesn't matter. I don't really deserve anything; I'm just a green freak. I'll take whatever they're willing to give me.
And none of them will ever know how much the words mean to me.