The Incredible Rising Lorelai
Author's Note: This takes place after Lorelai sinks into Luke, crying in The Incredible Sinking Lorelai's
A/N 2: Lorelai's POV. Lorelai and Jason are not together in this
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters. They belong to ASP and the WB.
Chapter 1: Failing
'There he is, Luke Danes. God, why did he have to look so good tonight?' I'm thinking as I walk up to him, having a little trouble walking. These shoes aren't helping any, either. 'God, leave it to me to choose the absolute worst shoes for walking'.
"Hey Luke" I manage to get out. Look at him. He's gorgeous. I feel slightly better at seeing him wearing the outfit I bought him. God, that was so long ago. It must have been when he was still with Rachel. Yeah, I remember her walking in on me dressing him up. God, by the look on her face, you would have thought I was like making out with him or something. 'What is going on here?' I think to myself. 'I'm like thinking of kissing Luke! What is wrong with you, Lorelai?"
"Lorelai, are you okay?" Luke is looking at me kind of funnily. Oh God, I've been so wrapped up in thinking about Luke that I haven't even being paying attention to him! I nod. For the first time, I find myself at a loss of words. I can't even say that I'm okay! Wow, I'm pathetic.
"Do you want to sit down?" I finally look Luke in the eye. His deep blue eyes are full of concern, for me. No, that can't be it. I mean, he's married. He can't like me. I look away and shakily walk towards the bench. Oh good, now I can sit down. Now he can't see how hard a time I had trying to stay standing.
"Lorelai, can you talk?" I nod, though that is exactly the opposite of what I can do. "Luke, I—" I look into his eyes again, BIG mistake. "I—" What is wrong with me? Why can't I just form a simple sentence? "There aren't many times when I find myself thinking 'I wish I was married'—" Okay, that didn't go exactly as I planned. Maybe I'll get better…or maybe not. God, why did he have to look so good tonight?
"But sometimes I just wish I had someone there to, you know, pick up the slack." Okay I'm just babbling now. I am so, so pathetic.
Luke is just looking at me. His eyes, once I look at them again, are full of understanding. How can he bear to hear my incessant babbling? I mean I just won't shut up!
Luke is putting his arm around me – oh, there it goes. It's resting on my shoulder. I'm having an internal battle. Should I let him keep it there or should I take it off? It's so nice and warm. Oh my god. I'm crying. I can't believe it. I'm actually crying in front of Luke. Not only that, but I am crying into Luke. My head is on his shoulder.
"I was going to ask you for 30,000 dollars…" Oh my god, did I just say that? Great, now I am not only crying but now I am begging him for money! Real smooth, Lorelai