I know it's been a horrifically long time since I last updated and all I can do is apologise and offer this chapter as a peace offering if anyone is still reading. I have warned you before that I never usually write Brucas seeing as I'm a Leytoner but I've tried my best and hopefully this will satisfy you. Please leave a review!
Brooke leant against the wall and swallowed hard, blinking tears from her eyes as she willed herself not to cry. Everything was so messed up, she loved Luke, she loved him so much but she had screwed everything up. He was the only guy she could truly be herself around, he was the only guy who accepted her for who she really was and she didn't have to pretend with him, she didn't have to be the bitchy popular cheerleader, she could be Brooke Davis. She just needed him to understand how much she regretted that night, how everyday she wished she could take it back.
When she had seen him collapse she could have sworn her heart stopped, it was like her whole world was crashing down around her. She was just so scared that she would lose him, that she would never be able to tell him how much she loved him and that she hadn't meant for that night to happen how afterwards she cried for hours over him, wishing she could just be in his arms again. She just wanted him to forgive her, for him to love her like he used to and for them to be together again.
As the door to his room opened she straightened up wiping her eyes as Haley emerged, her face tear-stained and her eyes red. They met gazes and Haley shot her a weak smile and Brooke tried and failed to give one back. She could see the sympathy in Haley's eyes and she swallowed hard as Haley walked over, sniffing and struggling to hide the tell-tale signs that she had been crying.
"How is he?" Brooke asked softly, her voice trembling. Haley sighed and looked up at her best friend, she just wished that her and Luke would sort things out…she knew they were meant to be together and she knew how much Brooke loved Luke.
"He's sleeping…I spoke to him about you?" She said causing Brooke to look up quickly.
"I know he wants to make things right Brooke, he knows it too but…he just thinks it's going to be too hard. I know he loves you Brooke, so you have a chance." She said softly and Brooke felt a ghost of a smile tug at the corners of her lips…She had a chance, a chance was all she needed.
"Speaking of chances, I think I'm going to go and take one with Nathan and talk to him…" She said taking a deep breath. Brooke smiled and pulled her friend into a quick hug.
"It'll be okay tutorwife." Brooke said as they drew away and Haley smiled weakly.
"I hope so…good luck." She said knowing Brooke was about to see Lucas, even if he was asleep this would still be a step for her…she had mustered the courage to at least face him…Well sort of anyway.
Brooke watched as Haley walked across the room to where Nathan was sat and she sighed to herself, turning back to face the door. She walked slowly forward, looking around almost frightened that someone was going to forbid her from going in there because of what she had done.
She could feel her heart pounding faster and faster as she drew closer. What was she so scared of? He would be asleep, she'd have nothing to worry about. She could just go in there and just sit there for a while and then maybe just go again. She just had to see him, to see with her own two eyes that he was okay…Well she knew he wasn't okay, he had a heart condition, which he had kept from her. That was just as bad as Chris, it had been going on longer and he had lied to her face.
Shutup! She told herself as she stood outside the door, her heartbeat echoing noisily in her ears as she reached forward, feeling the cool metal of the doorhandle under her clammy hands. She pulled and the door opened, holding her breath she stepped in…
Nathan looked up from the spot on the floor he was staring at when he saw a familiar pair of feet in front of him. He sighed and looked up, meeting her big brown eyes.
"Hey." She said softly. He swallowed and simply nodded, not trusting his voice. She stood there in silence for a few seconds before sitting down in the empty seat next to him. They sat there for a few seconds more of uncomfortable silence when finally he broke it, keeping his gaze fixed straight ahead but still talking to her.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked and she immediately knew what he was talking about. She looked down at her hands and sighed softly.
"I couldn't, he made me promise me not to. He didn't even want to tell me. He made me promise." She said quietly not wanting everyone else to hear their conversation. Nathan looked down at the floor again.
"You weren't talking to me when he told me anyway." She mumbled causing Nathan to look up.
"Don't bring us into this Haley; this isn't about us it's about Lucas. He could have died!" He said angrily, Haley flinched slightly and swallowed hard.
"Don't you think I know that? He's my best friend Nathan, he made me swear and I couldn't break my promise to him. I know he was stupid not telling anyone and I know I was stupid but I couldn't go back on my word. Don't you think I tried to get him to tell someone?" She said her voice rising causing people to turn around, she felt hot tears pricking all of a sudden.
"And anyway you can't say you were looking after his best interests. Funny now how you're sticking up for him when earlier today you were intent on making his life a misery." She added her eyes shining with tears. Nathan looked up angrily, noting the tears in her eyes he felt a slight pang of guilt; he hated seeing her cry but he was too angry.
"Look I'm not having this conversation with you okay Haley? I'm here to see Luke so can we just leave us alone for now?" He said as she blinked quickly, trying and failing to erase the tears from her eyes.
"Oh don't worry you're leaving "us" alone enough for the both of us." She said softly before walking out and down the corridor, tears streaming down her cheeks
Brooke stared down at him and let out a breath she hadn't been aware she was holding. She swallowed hard, her hands trembling as she shut the door behind her. Tears glistened in her hazel eyes as she looked down at his sleeping form, watching the spidery green lines rise and fall with steady beeps on the monitor beside him, her gaze travelling over the various tubes and wires warily.
It felt like her heart was trapped in her throat as she walked slowly forward closer to the bed. She dropped unsteadily down into the chair at the bedside and blinked quickly as she looked into his sleeping face.
"Hey." She whispered her voice wavering slightly. She received no response and closed her eyes for a long time, forcing back the tears before opening them slowly again.
"I…I know you're like asleep or unconscious or whatever but…I just needed to talk to you, or to talk at you but…anyway you've got me rambling so I just need to say this and get this off my chest." She babbled, taking his hand gently in hers and rubbing it softly. The silence she received back in return was oddly comforting as she willed herself to go on, she needed to do this…for herself.
"Everything that happened…it was just this huge mistake. I know you wouldn't want to hear excuses because there are none for what I did. It was stupid. You'd think that the thing I regret the most is the fact it was Chris Keller but it's not, it's the fact that it wasn't you." She said softly tears welling in her eyes.
"I love you so much Luke and there hasn't been a day gone by since it happened that I wasn't wishing I could take it back, wishing that I just had the courage to just talk to you. I've been scared of getting hurt again but I just love you so much and I just wish that all of this would disappear so I could just be with you. I know you lied about your heart and I betrayed you…so much has happened but it doesn't mean I don't think we still don't have a chance."
"I love you Luke and I just need you to understand…I'm sorry." She whispered tears streaming down her cheeks rapidly as she began to sob. She just wanted him to hold her in his arms and tell her it was okay, she wanted to look into his eyes and feel that spark they shared, she wanted him, but she had screwed it all up.
"I'm sorry." She choked looking into his face before standing up rapidly, the chair scraping against the floor as she hurried out of the room, choking back sobs as she ran…
Lucas slowly opened his eyes and found the room empty, he felt his eyes burning with tears as he swallowed and looked up at the ceiling…he had heard every word and he needed her to know that he felt the same. That he loved her too…
A/N I know it was short but Brucas is hard to write, I'm used to Leyton but I wrote this as a Brucas for everyone who voted. Please leave a review and I hope you liked it…more drama to come