Hey all! Geniemaster is officially back in action (for now, at least). This fic is different from anything else I've written, because there's really going to be very little, if any, humor in it, and it's very serious and all that. I've had the concept in my mind for awhile about doing a fic about Boss' past because I thought hey, all the other Ham-Hams are domestic so you know, it's not like they have any mystery surrounding them but hey, I wonder what Boss' life was like before he met any of them? Actually I had already started this fic a long time ago, written about 50 pages or so and somehow I accidentally deleted it or something. But I started it over, so anyway…here it is. I thrive on reviews. Flames welcome as well.

By the way, the title of this fic is based on the song "The Nagging Dark" by John Hiatt, who I unfortunately do not own. It was partially what gave me the inspiration for this fic, and the lyrics are interspersed throughout this chapter.


How fast you gonna run away from this one?

Anywhere but here, you wanna disappear

To the next daylight where everything's right

It's always somewhere else you're gonna fix yourself

Once shame and guilt have made their mark…

You can't run away from the nagging dark

You carry it everywhere in your heart

It finishes everything that you start

You can't run away from the nagging dark


"Boss, please! Make them stop! Boss!"

He heard her call to him, her voice pleading, desperate, but he could not see her, nor make out anything else around him. Only a blur of colors, dark, terrible colors, blacks and reds, the colors of death.

"Do something! Boss, please! Please!"

She was crying now, sobbing. He tried to move, to do something, as she asked, but it seemed he was rooted to the spot. His head started to throb as the colors continued to swirl around him.

"Boss! They're going to kill him! Please!"

He tried to call out her name, but his voice stuck in his throat. He was a helpless bystander to the terror he was witnesssing.

"They're killing him! Boss! PLEASE!"

The sound of her cries, the swirl of colors, the pain, it was all overwhelming him. It was all mixed together, everything became nothing, and he saw it begin to fade. For one split second he could swear he saw her face, he could see the empty, horrible look in her eyes as she came to realize he could not help her...


How much it gonna cost when everything's lost?

What a price you'd pay just to feel some way

Cuz your heart is stone ground down to the bone

All your flesh and blood is just ashes and mud

Feels like your soul's been blown apart…

You can't run away from the nagging dark

You carry it everywhere in your heart

It finishes everything that you start

You can't run away from the nagging dark


Boss sat bolt upright in his bed in a cold sweat. His breath was coming in quick gasps, and he felt dizzy and lightheaded. Tonight marked the third night in a row that he had been experiencing these nightmares. But he couldn't understand why. It had been two years since that fateful afternoon; two years had passed without incident since he had last seen her face, since he had held her against himself and felt her warmth and whispered his goodbye. The memories had faded since then, but now they were returning, full force, to his dreams. He could think about nothing else. He was losing sleep, and appetite.

He lifted his paws to his face and allowed his breathing to slow. Then he wiped some of the sweat away and swung himself out of bed. What he needed more than anything right now was a walk through the soft night air to help clear his mind, although he knew it wouldn't.

"The night holds many secrets," Snoozer mumbled as Boss made his way from his bedroom to the door. Boss merely grunted in reply.

"Be careful," Snoozer warned, then continued snoring.

"Thanks," Boss sighed, then shook his head and left.


How far can you see? Will you ever be free?

Through the blackest night you still hold on tight

Hope is your finest work

It's your finest work

Hope is your finest work of art…

You can't run away from the nagging dark

You carry it everywhere in your heart

It finishes everything that you start

You can't run away from the nagging dark


Once he was outside, Boss took a deep breath, letting the cool air soothe him. Then he wandered. He didn't care where he was going; he could always find his way back, so he simply let his mind go free and let his feet take him wherever they would. The cold was his friend, the night was his friend, and these woods were his friend.

However, he hadn't gone far when he heard footsteps behind him.

He froze in place.

"Who's there?" he asked the darkness, without turning around. The only reply he got was a cackle, a burst of demonic laughter that sent chills down his spine.

"What do you want?" Boss tried again. He turned around, but no one was there. Now he heard rustling in the bushes around him, and he kept turning, trying to keep up with the noise.

Suddenly, everything around him started to blur. His throbbing headache returned with a vengeance. He stopped moving and put a paw to his forehead, his pulse quickening with every breath he took.

Then he looked up and shouted, "SHOW YOURSELF!"

Another rustle, a few hurried footsteps, and then -

Boss breathed in sharply as he felt the blade of a knife at his throat, just barely touching his fur.

"Long time, no see, Boss," a gruff voice mused behind him, and suddenly the woods around him were full of crazed laughter.

Boss gulped.

"Scuzz," he murmured. His nightmares were taking shape around him as he once again stood helpless.


You can't run away from the nagging dark

You carry it everywhere in your heart

It finishes everything that you start

You can't run away from the nagging dark


Short first chapter, I know, but what do you think? Review review review!

Also, I would like to know who is still interested in and / or wants to be a character in "The Untold Hamtaro." I will continue writing it as long as I know people will still read in.

Additionally, I am in the process of writing another fic with Howdy and Dexter as the main characters, as requested by Ringa Ham. Should be up soon.

Remember….review!