Behind Brown Eyes 15a
Disclaimers in part 1
Again you are probably wondering what else happened that night with Faith and I. I will get to that a little later on. The waiter Alejandro brought out our food, and we begin to dig into the Italian feast we ordered.
"I'm glad Dawn is doing well in school. I always knew she was a smart one, just a little misunderstood." My date replied.
I smiled and took a bite out of my dish. I am very proud of my little sister. She has come a long way from Sunnydale and has become a lot stronger for it.
"Yeah, I had my hands full, but I raised her right and that's what really matters. So what's up with you? Why did you come back to California?" I asked.
It was a little surprising for me considering how we left things the last time she was here. It seemed so long ago but it was only 2 years or more. It's not that I am not happy to see her, its just surprising she would show up now. I continue eating and wait for her response.
"I am actually here to stay, things changed between Noel and I. Her job brought her back to the west coast. I had no choice but to follow, so here I am." She took a sip of wine.
I looked at her in amazement. She had changed from the last time I'd seen her. I'm surprised she and that home wrecking whore are still together. Honestly I thought they would crash and burn... you know karma and all.
"That's good to hear, I'm glad you two are doing so well." I tell her genuinely.
It still hurts a little how things ended between us, but it was for the best. I'm a lot happier now than I was then. Don't get me wrong, I was happy but it wasn't to the extent I am now. I wanted to put her behind me, but I needed to officially close that chapter of my life.
"So how are you and Dominique? Things between you two good?" She asks
I put my fork down and looked at her. I didn't expect that we would be talking about her. There was no love lost between the two of them. When they met it was a battle of wills, and they insisted on playing the "who appreciates Buffy more" game.
"Things are good between us." I give her a small smile. "We are crazy about each other. She is very attentive and ever so faithful." I put an emphasis on the word faithful.
"Well, I'm glad things are working out for you two. Does she make you happy?" She asked.
Of course she made me happy; we wouldn't have made it this far if she didn't make me happy. For the first time I found someone who loves me for being Buffy and nothing more. Angel loved me for my innocence and my slayer powers, but he left for my own good. We won't even get into Riley. Faith and I were happy once upon a time until everything was rained on by Noel. Once again I digress; life for me is as it should be.
"We are happy, in fact I am the happiest I have been in a long time now. Things with her are different you know, like there is a completeness if that makes sense." I answer her.
I look at her soulfully and take another sip of my wine. She looks at me and I smile back at her, prompting a small smirk to play across her lips. Alejandro came back and asked if we wanted anything else? I told him no and he gave us the check. I was about to reach for it but Faith beat me to it and our hands touched briefly. I drew my hand back trying to ignore the electricity between us.
"Let me get it, after all it was me that asked you out." She smirked.
"That is ok, I can get it. It's not a problem." I rebutted.
I looked into those haunting brown eyes and saw a little something there. Something I haven't seen in a long time. She looked away before I could figure it out. I gave in and decided to let her pay.
"Fine, go ahead and pay." I smiled.
"I knew you would give into me." She smirked.
She has a point there. When we were together, I gave into her every time she wanted something what can I say she was charming and had a smile to die for, not to mention that hot body. How could you not give into that? She was my kryptonite. She turned out to be someone else's weakness too, and that is why we are not together now.
"Not really, I just wanted to refrain from starting slayer wars." I chuckled and took another sip of my wine.
"Keep telling yourself that B. You know you can't resist this." She smirked.
I give her a small smile, "That's what you think F." I challenged.
I don't know what possessed me to say that, but... I couldn't resist. The two years have been very good to her.
Alejandro came and picked up the check, hurrying off quickly. We sat in silence each of us lost in our own thoughts. My thoughts were going over the evening so far. Dinner wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. We were actually civil to each other considering our ending was world war III in the making.
"So what are your plans for the evening? Is Noel expecting you back at a certain time?" I asked casually.
"Noel is visiting with Alexis this week-end. What about Dominique? Did she give you a set time to come back home?" She asked sipping her wine.
"Dominique is out of town on business, so it's just me for the night. How is Alexis anyways?" I asked trying to change the subject.
Alexis was the sweetest girl I have ever met. I loved her like she was my own little sister. When things ended between Faith and I, Alexis somehow got lost in the shuffle. She was never far from my mind though. She and Dawn were awfully close despite their age difference. The two of them were inseparable.
"Alexis is good, she is at UC Berkeley, majoring in Psychology. We had our hands full with her, but it has gotten better over the years." She beamed.
Alejandro brought back our receipt before I could reply to that. We got up and I left the tip, it was the least I could do since she paid for dinner. She looked at me and I couldn't help but blush under her smoldering gaze.
"You wanna come back to mine for a little while? We can talk and catch up. I said shyly.
The silence hung in the air; I should have thought before asking the question. I mean sure there would probably be uncomfortable-ness. You know since we ended things on a not so good note. I rose above that and we are both adults so there shouldn't be anything wrong. At least I don't think there is, I mean after all she is happy with Noel and I am happy with Dominique so it works out...in theory.
"Are you trying to get me to your place, so you can have your way with me?" She joked.
Having my way with her was the furthest thing from my mind. I was trying to be innocent, but leave it to Faith to give it sexual overtones. Some things never really change.
"No, I just want to talk that's it. We're both in relationships and the last thing we want is to hurt the ones we love." I countered her.
Faith looked taken aback by my comment. I wasn't trying to hurt her, it just came out. I need to choose my words more wisely next time.
"Look Buffy, I know the way things happened between us wasn't the best. I never intended for that to happen. Like I said you were gone and we grew closer, us being together like that was not supposed to happen." She explained.
We walked out of the restaurant I didn't want an attentive audience listening in on our conversation. I feel some things should be discussed privately and this is one of them. Faith walked me over to my car and I opened my door to get in.
"Faith listen we can discuss this later back at the house if you want to come with me. A conversation like this should not be talked about in public. Now are you coming back to my place or not?" I looked at her.
"I'll come back to yours and we can continue this cause you need to hear me out. Oh and by the way, you kill in that dress." She smirked and walked away.
I got in the car and watched as she walked to her car. What she had on wasn't so bad either. But Faith in a pants suit, I never thought I would see that. I got in the car and started it. I backed out of the parking lot and waited for Faith to do the same thing. She followed me the three miles to my house. I pulled into the driveway and she pulled in behind me. Dominique and I shared a nice house together, one that I have always wanted. I got out the car and Faith got out of hers, I waited for her to follow me to the glass double doors.
"Wow B, you and Dominique must be rolling in the money." She commented.
I took the keys to unlock the door and motioned her to follow me in. She entered and I closed the door and locked it behind her. I placed my keys on the table and removed my shoes.
"What can you say? She is a successful arts dealer and I have my own martial arts center. So we're good, take off your shoes and I will give you the tour." I motioned for her to remove her shoes.
I watched as she did and she placed her shoes beside mine.
"I'm ready for the tour madam." She mock bowed.
I gestured as we walked through the entryway showing it off. It is black and white marble tile with intricate art pieces and pictures that adorn the wall. In the corner there was a Ming Vase, a house warming gift from Angel. I took her wrist and led her to the living room, which has plush carpeting, a fire place, vaulted ceilings, two ceiling fans, and various pictures of me and Dominique, Dawn, Willow and the others. The chairs were made from Italian leather, not my choice of course.
"Ok B, now who decorated the living room?" She asked.
I smiled, "We both did, but the living room and bedrooms were all my doing." I smiled.
"Why don't I find that hard to believe?" She questioned.
I took her wrist again and walked her through the rest of the house. We have four bedrooms; a huge kitchen that looked like it came from Kitchen Stadium, a dining room, a family room off of the living room, a computer room and a study. My backyard complete with swimming pool and Jacuzzi, impressed her...I could tell. All in all it was a pretty modest house compared to others in our area. We made our way back to the living room and sat down on the couch.
"I am going to go change out of this dress. You know where the kitchen is; help yourself to something to drink. I'll be back in a few minutes." I got up before she could reply.
I felt her eyes follow me as I made my way up the stairs. The feelings that I still felt for her began to stir inside me. I had to block them off, knowing the only thing it could possibly lead to would be badness. I entered my room and begin changing out of my dress; I put on my butterfly pajama bottoms and a camisole top.
I walk down the stairs noticing that Faith had put out some fruit, cheese and a bottle of wine. She must have been busy because I wasn't gone that long. I made my way over to the couch and sat next to her.
"Wow, I wasn't expecting all of this. How did you find everything?" I asked.
"B, we lived together for how long? I still know you better than anyone else.
I reached for the bottle and poured us each a glass of wine. I took a sip of mine as she did hers. I placed my glass on the table and reached for a strawberry. I could feel her gaze as I did.
"Damn, you still make eating look so sexual." She smirked.
I blushed and finished eating the strawberry. She could always make me blush like no one else ever has.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that." She gave me an apology.
"It's alright Faith, its part of who you are. It's nice to know that you are still
you" I reassure her.
"No, you are with Dominique now. I have no right to make comments like that. So how is Willow and Kennedy?" She changed the subject.
I actually talked to Willow just before I left to meet with Faith. She was telling me to be cool and not bring up the past. So far I've been successful I think.
"Willow and Kennedy are doing well; they got married 6 months ago. They live in San Francisco. Willow is President of WilKen Computer Enterprises. Kennedy is a self-defense teacher. They still deal with the super natural, but not so much anymore. They are planning on adopting a baby girl." I tell her.
They have really come a long way; I always knew they would be together. I thought her relationship with Kennedy was a rebound from Tara, but again I was wrong. Faith reached for a grape and popped it in her mouth. I couldn't help but look; her mouth was a thing of miracles. She looked at me and winked.
"You see something you like Buffy?" She asks.
I shake my head, "No, I was just thinking." I told her.
She took a sip of wine, "What about X-man? How is he doing?"
"Xander is Xander, he has a new girlfriend. Before you ask, she is not a demon she is a natural girl. They've been dating for a year and he is happy. He is not completely over Anya's death, but he is getting there. Oh and he has a job supervising a construction company." I added.
I ate a piece of cheese and took another sip of wine. It's good to know everyone is doing well for themselves.
"I talked to Robin the other day." I told her.
She didn't show any emotion or anything, I knew she really wasn't into him like that. It was just a casual thing I guess.
"How is he?" She asked.
"He is good, his wife is pregnant." I told her.
"Wait, he got married?" She asked clearly surprised.
"Yeah, didn't you get the invitation? I made sure that you got one." I explained to her.
She took another drink of wine, this time downing the whole glass. I don't know why she didn't get it. Robin was kind of disappointed when she didn't show, but he understood.
"Nope I never got it. Is he happy? I mean does she treat him right?" She asks.
"Oh yeah, Brandy treats him wonderfully and he does the same for her." I told her.
A bottle of wine and an empty platter later we caught up on everything in each other's lives. Faith was telling me about her club, and the computer company that Noel works for. We talked about Giles and how he retired from the Watcher's Council and settled down with Olivia. We talked about how Angel and Spike were doing since they took down Wolfram and Hart. That was a battle for the year, talk about an apocalypse diverted. We talked about everything; the only subject we didn't touch was us.
"B-Buffy, I never wanted to hurt you. That was the last thing I wanted to do." Faith told me.
I wasn't expecting this, but she insisted on talking about it. I listened to her, even though I was unsure of how to respond.
"Then why Faith?" I ask.
"Buffy, things between you and me were good. I enjoyed every moment we had together, but Noel and I got close. She and I had a lot in common and it went from there. We never meant for it to happen that way but it did. I'm sorry for what I did to you, it was wrong and I realize that." She moved closer to me, taking my hand in hers.
"Faith, you hurt me more than anyone else has. I loved you with everything I was. You were everything to me. It hurt to catch you in bed with her, and then you acted like you didn't care. How was I supposed to perceive that Faith? Can you answer me that?" I asked her, my hand still in hers.
"I regret that until this day, you didn't deserve it. It hurt like hell when you walked out of my life. I moved on with Noel, but that still didn't stop the feelings I have for you. I ask myself what if all the time, I try to forget you but I can't." She squeezed my hand a little more.
I could feel the extent of her emotions through our shared connection. It was a little unnerving and weird, but kind of comforting too.
"You know what Faith? The times for what ifs are over, we have both moved on and that is the end of it. I had feelings for you, but those feelings aren't there anymore. I loved you Faith and you took my love and just threw it away. Now you come back into my life 2 years later. Really Faith, tell me why did you come back?" I ask her.
I know I said I was over it, but some part of it still hurt. She comes back and expects me to forget everything that happened between us. That is one thing about me, I forgive but I never forget. I still love Faith don't get me wrong, that is never gonna change. But we have grown and changed. We're not the same people anymore.
"I came back because Noel's job transferred her here. I wanted to talk to you Buffy, really talk to you. So you can understand and forgive me then maybe I can forgive myself for what I have done to you. That is why I came back; I couldn't have you hating me." She countered.
Now I wasn't expecting all of that, but we had to start somewhere. I don't hate her I may have hated her, but that was then. Again things are different. I've put that behind me; so I can have my life with Dominique without anything tainting it. Do I still love Faith? Yeah I do and that will never change.
"I don't hate you Faith, I may have but I don't anymore. You made your bed and you have to lie in it. No matter how hard I try to deny it I still love you, that's never gonna change. I don't know if you fully loved me or how you were feeling, but if you did, you wouldn't have slept with Noel." I told her and tried to remove my hand, but she wouldn't let it go.
I don't know what happened next but her lips were on mine and I tried to push her off. My efforts didn't work very well because, instead of fighting; I kissed her back. The kiss seemed to last forever. It was wrong but it seemed so right.
TBC in Chapter 15b... it isn't over yet kiddies.