Blue Study

A little Bryan song-fic I thought up. Before, after and during his battle with Ray. Probably rather OOC. Rated T for naughty words... Bad Corey! Song-fic to Blue Study by Stone Sour.

Blue Study

Somewhere between my tongue and cheek

Boris grabbed my head between his hands. I can't fight him, I would only lose.

I can feel the hands on me

They make me scared. I don't like fear.

Pulls me in so we are face to face

He's so close now, I can feel him breathing on me. Face to face, down on one knee.

I don't wanna see it...I don't wanna see

He's gone now. I lean against the wall. Compose my face and thoughts.

Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes

I must win this battle. I can't lose sight of the trophy. Or the price.

Spots and rats on me, I don't wanna see

The price I will pay. If I don't win.

Claw the ground up, get me out of this

My mind is there now, screaming to let me out.

Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

What horrors wait for me if I don't suceed?

And you left me and I left you

Left to face the music.

And you left me / and I left you, too

Concentrate Bryan. CONCENTRATE.

Chair is stained and I can't stay awake

Oh god. Help me. He's staring at me. Can he see right through me?

Bring forth evidence to keep me sane

Why am I doing this? Yet, even as I order Falborg into another attack, I know why.

I can't keep this riddle locked inside

I can't keep it locked inside. But I am. So hurting someone else... It's the only thing I can do.

Seven ways to keep my secrets tied

Torture. Brutality. And other things I won't - can't - mention.

Can't believe this, I belong in chains

What did I do? WHAT DID I DO?

Separated, it was me and something else

That wasn't just me out there. It was me and Biovolt.

Now I'm numbing, get me out of this

Who am I kidding? That was me. I am a monster.

Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

Do I even have a choice? Am I that bad?

And you left me and I left you

No team to stand by me.

And you left me oh, but then I left you and:

What can I expect? I didn't stand by them.

And you left me and I left you

Tala is in the cell next to me. I could reach out. See if he was ok.

And you left me and I left you, too

But I know I can't. I don't have the strength.

Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain

Jagged breaths remind me I'm human.

Spotlight looking down, I'm ashamed

Everybody hates me. Can I really be surprised? After what I did?

Kneeling with my forehead to the ground

No one will look us in the eye. Not even Kai.

I can't help but flinch before I'm found

Yet we flinch from touch and curious glares as though they were poison.

I DON'T NEED YOU! Can't you see behind?

But we'll be fine on our own.

Doesn't matter now - DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE!

Nothing matters anymore.

Maybe made me, get me out of this

Yet, in my dreams, I scream for help.

Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!

I scream as I watch them staring at me.

And you left me and I left you

More arguments. Everyday, there's more yelling.

And you left me and motherfucker, then I left you and...

On and on and on and on... It's enough to make a sane guy scream.

And you left me and I left you

But we're not sane. I'm not sane.

And you left me and I left you, too

Day after day, people argue over our souls.

SAFE! I JUST WANT TO BE SAFE!

Yet they never ask us.

SAFE! I JUST - WANT TO - BE SAFE!

We just want to get it through their thick skulls.

SAFE! DON'T YOU WANT TO BE SAFE?

Things could change. Yeah, sure, sparky.

SAFE! WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE - SAFE?

That's how I live and that's how I die. Alone.

Good god! That was a load of rubbish! But hey, I had to get it out of my system!