Chapter One

He looked at the magnificent scene of the city at night. The calm waters created a clear reflection, adding to the splendor. Normally, he'd be inside, either playing a video game with Cyborg, or reading a comic book, or just watching a movie or show on TV. Tonight, though, he was too depressed for such things.

'Life's not fair.' he thought. 'What the hell kind of world is this where a guy goes unloved?'

His vision blurred as tears filled his eyes. No longer caring, he also began to sob.

In the lounge, Raven had been reading one of her books. It was her favorite past time, one she missed while she and the Titans were off fighting the Brotherhood of Evil. She knew she had a lot to catch up on.

Her eyes now seemed to be getting tired; her vision would blur and her eyelids would start to feel heavy. She decided she had enough for tonight.

She snapped her book closed and stood up to stretch. Her fellow Titans were watching TV, occasionally discussing the program. Raven faintly smiled at them as she left for the roof to relax.

Once on the roof, though, she saw she wasn't alone. A lone figure was sitting on the edge, looking at the city.

"Beast Boy?" Raven said.

The figure cringed in surprise. He turned to face her, wiping the tears out of his eyes.

"What's up, Raven?" he said, his voice rife with sorrow.

Raven immediately knew something was wrong. "What's going on?" she asked the changeling.

"Nothing." Beast Boy replied, regaining his composure. "Just enjoying the night air like you."

"I don't buy that."

"Why not?"

"I can tell that something's up with you."

"What, you have ESP or something?"

"Something like that. Call it instinct."

"Well, your instinct stinks."

"You can't hide it from me, Beast Boy. I know there's something you're hiding. Please, tell me!"

He remained silent.

"Beast Boy," Raven began, "I'm your friend! Your teammate! You have to trust me!"

He glared at her with tears in his eyes.

"It's about Terra, isn't' it?

Beast Boy glared at her. "Was it that obvious?"

She sat down next to him. "I don't need to be a psychic to tell."

"Well, you guessed it."

"I should've known."

She sighed, trying to think of a way to cheer him up. An inspiration came to her from recent memory; the battle they fought a few days ago. "

You know," she began. "I never said how grateful we were for your help in fighting that white shape shifting thing."

"What...oh, yeah, that thing."

"I think it was brilliant of you. Getting it to turn into glass by having us work it into that recycling bin. And then having Cyborg use his sonic cannon to destroy it! Genius! I didn't think it'd work!"

"Raven, if you're trying to make me feel better, it's not working."

The mystic glared at him. "Look, you can't keep obsessing over Terra, Garfield!"

"Oh, it's Garfield now, is it? What about secret identities and all that crap?"

"I'm trying to be serious with you, and you're shutting me out!"

Beast Boy got up in exasperation. "Well, I'm sorry, but it's just how I feel now!"

He then glared at her. "Look, how would you like it if all of us had no idea who you were, didn't remember a thing about the good times we had, or the battles we fought, huh? You'd feel pretty shitty, huh?"

Raven sighed. "Yes, I would Beast Boy. But I'd eventually learn to accept it."

"Accept what!"

"That things change."

"What happened with Terra wasn't change! It was something just totally fucked up! She came back to life somehow, but doesn't even remember the life she had with us! With me!"

Beast Boy fell to his knees, crying. "We even left her a fucking memorial plaque! Didn't she even read the fucking thing?"

Raven stood up, and walked to the changeling. She put her hand on his shoulder, trying to comfort him.

As she did so, she felt her own anger rising. It was a lousy way for Terra to treat Beast Boy as she did, if that was indeed the real Terra he saw. Nevertheless, it had been three days now since that incident, and he was still visibly upset over it. He displayed a lack of appetite, a lack of enthusiasm, antisocial behavior, and just outright sadness.

Although the other Titans tried to keep up their happiness, Beast Boy's mannerisms were bringing them down. Raven knew something had to be done, if this was how he was acting.

Then, she realized that up until now, Beast Boy probably never talked about the incident openly. He just let his feelings bottle up inside him. Perhaps it was good for him to let it out. She hoped his frustrations wouldn't be taken out on her.

"I'm sorry, Beast Boy." she said.

"For what?" he replied, confused.

"This is...what, the third time Terra's broken your heart?"

"Well, let's see: first time was when she left us after we found out her problem with her powers. Then she did it again when I found out she was a traitor. Then...hell this is the fourth time! She did it when she died, and now this! Fuck!"

He seemed more confident, if anything. 'That's a start.' Raven thought.

He paced again, gritting his teeth. Then, his anger subsided. "Well, if that's how that bitch wants to be, then let her. I don't care if I ever see her again."

Now Raven was concerned. "Look, just remember what you used to have with her, okay Beast Boy?"

"Sure, whatever."

"Not 'whatever'! That's not a good attitude to have!"

"Is Terra's any better?"

"I don't know! Look, just drop it, okay?"

"Okay." He sighed. "We had good times, now they're gone. I gotta accept it." He wiped tears out of his eyes and sobbed.

"What?" asked Raven.

"What do you mean 'what'?

"You still seem upset."

"I am."


"I guess it's a feeling of longing."

"What kind of longing?"


"Love? How do you know?"

"I'm not too bright, but at least I know what love is."

"Okay, so you know what love is. You thought Terra could provide it?"

"Yeah. But not now. Not ever, in fact."

"So, what are you going to do?"

"Follow my heart. I'm gonna do what I should've done a long time ago!"

"What's that?"

"I'm gonna tell the girl I know that I really love my feelings for her!"

"Good for you, then. Who's the lucky girl?"

Beast Boy glared at her. "You are, Raven."