Hi everyone! Editing here is done, so here is my song...I made it up over two days, after reading Ptlemy's Gate for a second time. My feelings and Kitty's after Nathaniel's death...

Disclaimer: I do not own the Bartimaeus Trilogy, but there's not any real references here anyways.


Twisting Again

I always thought I was the tough one

But now I just can't bear to see the rain,

I never thought I would need you

But that much is part of my pain…

Maybe it's good you can't see me,

'Cause tears made us both hurt inside

But you promised me you'd see me outside the door

And here I am waiting, not believing you lied…

Sometimes you just have to cry…

'Cause sometimes your feelings don't have wings to fly.

The tears come softly, and with them the pain

Burning, and hurting, and twisting again…

And it breaks my heart to know

That you will be gone every day.

I took away all your protection

And laid you bare before the world that day

You always believed I'd be there for you

But then you're the one who went away…

Sometimes you just have to cry…

'Cause sometimes your feelings don't have wings to fly.

The tears come softly, and with them the pain

Burning, and hurting, and twisting again…

And it breaks my heart to know

That you will be gone every day.

So they told me that everyone hurts

But why does it seem like it's only me?

They all act like the world's lovely

When you died, you hurt me…why didn't you see?

I feel it! I feel it! It stabs me like a knife…

I feel it! I feel it! Just get out of my life…

Sometimes you just have to cry…

'Cause sometimes your feelings don't have wings to fly.

The tears come softly, and with them the pain

Burning, and hurting, and twisting again…

And it breaks my heart to know

That you will be gone every day.

I always thought I was the tough one

The one who would never need to cry.

But now I can't take you from my mind

'Cause you were here, standing here, not saying goodbye…

Teach to me to cry!

I know I will have to break…

Help me to cry!

I don't need permission

But I just can't seem to bring myself

Back in time…

Falling…

Falling…

Breaking…

Gone forever…

Sometimes you just have to cry…

'Cause sometimes your feelings don't have wings to fly.

The tears come softly, and with them the pain

Burning, and hurting, and twisting again…

And it breaks my heart to know

That you will be gone every day.

Burning, and hurting, and twisting, and hurting.

Hurting, and hurting, and hurting, and hurting…

The tears come softly, and with them the pain

Burning, and hurting, and twisting

Twisting

Twisting again…