Chapter 10: When We Make Love

Lyrics by Alabama

There's a light, in your eyes tonight.
You know I know that look anywhere.
You got plans, and I'm one lucky man.
Before we get so carried away,
There's just something I've been wanting to say.

Sean paced around his apartment that night, trying to forget his afternoon with Emma. Why in the hell did he feel so damned guilty?! It's not like he wasn't planning on breaking up with Ellie anyway…still, the memory of this afternoon made his heart flutter…and his stomach hurt.

He swallowed hard, trying not to stare. "Em…you dripped some ice cream," he murmured as his finger slipped across her chest, dangerously close to her breast, making her tremble.

"Oh! Ummm…thanks," she whispered as his finger slipped into his mouth. His eyes never left hers.

"I want to kiss you, Em," he murmured softly.

"W-We really shouldn't. Not until…" she sighed. "Sean…I can't be your other girl."

Sean nodded, but he pressed his lips to hers as he pressed her back into the grass, covering her body with his.

He flopped down on the sofa, listening to the phone ring. He glanced at the clock and realized that it was too late to be Ellie or Emma.

"Hey! You've reached the Cameron/Nash abode," came Ellie's voice over the answering machine. Sean rolled his eyes. She'd insisted on making this stupid tape, when all he'd wanted was a simple, "Yeah…not home…speak." Ellie wanted this, and he'd wanted so badly to make her happy…"We're not available to take your call right now. Could be home…but maybe not. Anyway…if you're calling for Sean or me, leave a message. If you're calling for Bueller…you've got issues. Take two pills and call back later!" Her chuckle filled the air just before the machine beeped.

"Hey, Bam-Bam! Where are you? You're missing a hell of a party, you know! Oh! Did you and your girl make up? Makeup sex is always the best sex, aint' it? Oh! Yeah…guess I'll leave you two at it then. Call me later."

Sean rolled his eyes and stood up. He needed a shower. He needed to think.

When we make love
It's more to me than just an affair
I want you to know how much I care
When we make love
Oh it's such a precious time
We share our hearts, our souls and our minds...
When we make love

"Just a sec!" he called as he stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist. He hurried to the door and yanked it open. "Em?"

Emma swallowed hard and tried to look away. "Ummm…yeah. I…I thought maybe we could hang out…since…since…" she sighed as the blush crept up her neck and splashed across her cheeks. "I thought we could watch a movie or something. But I can see that you're-"

Sean caught her hand as she turned to leave. "Wait, Em. Come on in. Just let me get changed."

Emma nodded, staring at the floor as he shut the door and hurried into the room. A few minutes later, he came out wearing jeans and a white wife beater. He smiled. "Take it you changed the pajamas."

Emma blushed, staring down at her lavender sweats with matching hoodie. "Ummm…yeah. I took a shower to get all the ice cream off."

"Mmmmhmmm…makes sense."

Emma sighed. "Sean…I'm sorry. I shouldn't be here."

Sean shrugged and took her hand, leading her to the couch. "How about pizza and a movie?"

Emma nodded nervously. "Sounds…sounds good."

Sean sighed. "We've known each other forever, Em! You know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. Don't be afraid of me, please."

Emma shook her head with a small smile. "I'm not afraid of you. I'm afraid of me."

"Huh?"

Watching you make your little moves
Well I can tell it's gonna' be a long night
All day long, we keep holding on
It couldn't be any better than this
I got it all in my fingertips

They've been sitting on the couch, eating pizza and talking, the movie in the background forgotten.

"I don't know how you…is it hard to live on your own?"

Sean shrugged. "Sometimes. I mean…yeah, the student welfare helped, but it's not that easy when you're the only one paying the bills."

"Doesn't Ellie help?"

Sean nodded. "Oh, yeah. Her mom sends half the rent, but since she's not working, I still have to make up the difference with all the utilities."

"Can't you ask Mrs. Nash for help with that?"

Sean frowned. "No. I don't want a damned thing from her. The rent thing was Ellie's idea."

"Oh."

Sean sighed and dropped his pizza back in the box. "What's this all about, Em? Why all the questions?"

Emma shrugged and smiled softly. "Just small talk, I guess."

Sean nodded. "Oh. But…why are you really here?"

"To apologize for last night. To give you an out, I guess. You love her, Sean. She loves you, and I don't think it's fair for me to-"

"Who ever said life was easy…or fair?"

Emma chuckled sadly. "After last night…I guess I'm the only easy thing around here."

Sean sighed sadly. "Stop it, Em! I was there too, you know."

"Is that supposed to make it all better?"

Sean shook his head and cupped her cheek in his palm. "No. Look. Nothing's gonna' change what we did. I don't want it to anyway. Do you?"

Emma shrugged, trembling from his touch. "The circumstances could have been better."

Sean nodded. "Yeah…but they weren't. So…" he sighed and rubbed his thumb softly along her cheek. "So I don't give a damn about the circumstances. I'll take what I can get if it means that we're together again."

"Are we? I mean…you're still with Ellie!"

"Not forever," he murmured softly as his lips touched hers. She sighed softly, melting against him.

Sean Cameron had always been Emma's undoing.

When we make love
Oh, it's more to me than just an affair
I want you to know how much I care.
When we make love
Oh, it's such a precious time
We share our hearts our souls and our minds...

These moments..these feelings..mmmmmm

Emma was trembling and whimpering beneath Sean. One hand lay on her stomach as his thumb gently caressed the smooth, flat skin…the other was threaded through her hair. He placed small kisses along her jaw line and she moaned softly, burying her hands in his light brown hair as his lips found her neck. She tipped her head, allowing more access to her neck and shoulder.

His hand moved further up her shirt and she gasped as his thumb found the tip of her small breast. "Sean!" she moaned softly as his lips searched for hers again.

He placed a soft kiss against her lips. When he pulled away, his eyes searched hers. "I…what do you want, Em?" he whispered softly.

Emma moaned again and pulled his lips back to hers as her fingers began playing their way down his chest. He moaned and caught her hands in his, pinning them above her head. "Tell me what you want," he whispered teasingly.

Emma frowned for a moment before the smirk slowly spread across her lips. She pushed him back and straddled his waist. "What do you want?" she whispered back.

Sean's face suddenly became serious. "I want you," he murmured before pulling her back down to kiss her lips.

She pulled back and pulled her shirt over hear head, making him moan and pull her back down to him. She whimpered in surprise as his lips began pulling gently at her breast. She put her hands on either side of his head to brace herself, her moans becoming stronger as her hips began rocking against his.

Sean groaned. "Tell me…what you want," he murmured against her breast as he held her hips and rocked against her.

Emma stood up and took his hand, pulling him up in front of him as she kissed him. "Tell me," he repeated in a harsh whisper as her slender fingers found his hardness and squeezed him through his jeans.

When we make love
It's more to me than just an affair
I want you to know how much I care
When we make love
Oh, it's such a precious time.
We share our hearts, our souls, and our minds...

Emma couldn't speak. Her lips trembled…her eyes begged…and Sean's resistance was wearing thin. "Tell me," he whispered again.

"I…I…" she mumbled then sighed.

He took her hand and led her into the bedroom. He laid her on the bed and knelt over her, his hand slipping into her sweat pants. She whimpered as his finger began slowly moving in and out of her. She began rocking gently against his hand as he looked into her eyes. "Tell me, Em…please?"

She whimpered again and pulled his lips to hers. Her tongue slipped softly into his mouth. He broke the kiss and began slowly dropping small kisses along her body, making her tremble as his hand continued its slow, gentle movements. She gasped as his tongue flicked softly across her belly button. She cried out his name.

Sean wanted her…more than he'd ever wanted her, but something drove him to keep asking her…driving them both crazy. He wanted to hear her say it. He could feel her body tightening and pulled away. He stood up. "Say it," he whispered harshly as he stood in front of her, watching the passion in her eyes become stunned pain. He sighed, trembling. "Please, Em. I need to hear you say it," he murmured.

She smiled softly as she sat up and unbuckled his belt. "Sean…" she unbuttoned his jeans. "Hope…" down went his zipper. "Cameron…" she mumbled as she pushed his jeans and boxers to the floor and stood up. Emma gently shoved his shirt over his head, dropping a kiss on his collarbone that made him gasp and steady himself by grabbing her shoulders. She removed her pants and lay before him nervously. "I want…I want us…this…" she sighed and closed her eyes with a whimper as the weight shifted on the bed as he sat next to her. She opened her eyes to see him watching her with pleading eyes. She smiled, gaining strength. "I want you. I want you to show me…what my first time should have been."

Now lets make love, sweet love

Sean moaned softly and smiled. He kissed the tip of her nose and positioned himself over her as she wrapped her legs around him. She whimpered and dug her nails into his shoulders as he entered her slowly.

Both were sure that, in that moment, they'd found a piece of Heaven that no one would ever take away.