Book One


I've heard the stories, the legends. Their nice for children I suppose, but I take them with a grain of salt now. Not everyone does, not everyone wants to. The idea of one thing being evil no matter what, the idea of -How did He term it?- absalloots… something like that… Anyways, that idea… it isn't right. I saw that for myself. If anything is really right or wrong, it's that what we think of right and wrong is probably all wrong in the end.

I thought I was right, I thought when the bird came that I was going to die.

I was wrong.

I thought they were monsters, all of them, less then me.

I was wrong in that too.

I was wrong about a lot of things.

Funny thing… is people don't ask. They say, "It must have been horrible.", "We won't ask, it must have been scary, we don't want to scare you.", I think that they don't want to be scared by what happened so they don't ask. It doesn't scare me, not in the least. Not to say I wasn't scared, a lot of things scared me, especially how big everything was. I won't be the first to say I didn't understand everything, I don't think anyone understood everything that happened… not even Him though I think He'd like us all to think that He knew everything. He's like that sometimes.

If anyone were to ask me what happened I'd tell them the truth. I made some friends, did a little of this, a little of that, it was really busy and a lot happened. I don't think I could ever tell anyone what really happened though, about the Mobolins, and the Wolfos packs, and the Miniblin and Mokoblin kvlans, or even about Fire Eyes.

It's not that I don't want to, I really do…

I just don't think anyone would believe me.

I don't think anyone would understand or would want to understand what happened or even want to know why what happened happened!

But He said it would be like that… and there are days, some days… I wish I hadn't gone back. Because at least when I was There I didn't have to act like nothing happened.

Here, Home, I don't say anything, and He's right in the end…

Silence is the hardest thing in the world.