Memory

By: DracoPotterMalfoy-JackEnnisDelMar

Rating: R

Pairing: Jack/Ennis

Genre: Angst/Romance

Warning: This story will contain slash (ie. male/male relationships) and some mild- heavy sex scenes.

"Everytime"

The sun slowly made its way over the mountains and spreading its rays of light and warmth across the plains, mountains, forests and seas. The light slowly made it way upon a good sized ranch located in the middle sized town of Springfield Vermont. This ranch with it two story white house with a porch in the front side and the back. It had a good sized stable that held the owners horses and a fairly sized barn on the other side of the property. Spring barley hit the fields of the land making everything turn green and bloom. The fields beyond the ranch's property were filled with different colors of wild flowers. After a few more moments with the sun rising it began to seep the curtains of the bedroom window that faced the sun rise. The light perfectly lit up the room and the two occupants that were still in king sized bed. An arm that was draped across a smaller man's waist pulled the man into the warm chest; unconsciously seeking his comfort of his body. After a few moments more of sleep gorgeous blue eyes began to flutter open to the sun-lit room, he could feel his husbands arm draped across his waist and the warm loving body behind him. The dark haired blue eyed my turned around in his lovers embrace to face the still sleeping form; when he did so he was met with a piercing emerald gaze.

"Mourning rodeo," The green eyed man said.

"Good mournin' to ya to cowboy."

Jack leaned over and kissed Ennis on the neck and up to his lips. The blond man pulled Jack closer to his body and deepened the kiss. When they finally broke apart Ennis looked deep into Jack's eyes and saw the love for him shining there like a beacon.

"We need ta get up," Ennis said.

"Do we have ta," Jack whined.

"Yea, we need to go and check the fences on the north and east side," Ennis stated.

"What about the west side," Jack asked sitting up.

"Junior and I went by there last night before we came back for dinner," Ennis replied.

Junior came to live with both men a little after Ennis and Alma had got their divorce. Jack and Ennis both remembered the day that changed both of their lives. 'Ennis had given Jack a call when Alma said she wanted to get a divorce. Ennis had his girls with him when he met Jack at his old house, but he wasn't really expecting for Jack to drive the sixteen hours back to Riverton. He once again told Jack that they weren't going to be able to be together but when he saw that saddened look on Jack face, it broke his heart into a million pieces, but the thing that really had changed his mind was when Jack stepped back into his truck and started it. Ennis had that same feeling deep in the pit of his stomach when they first left each other after their summer at Brokeback. Once he realized his soul was screaming not to let Jack leave unknowing began to leave his mouth in rapid succession.

"Jack Wait," Ennis yelled.

Jack looked back at the blond man, "what is it Ennis?"

"Let me go drop off the girls and when I get back, we'll talk." Ennis stated.

"Ok," Jack replied turning off his truck and stepping out of his vehicle.

"The house is unlocked, so you can make yourself at home," Ennis stated.

Jack went inside of the house and began to wait for the man he loved. After a few hours he finally heard Ennis's truck pulling back up to the house. Jack met him outside on the porch.

"So what did ya wanna talk about," Jack asked.

"Remember what you said, how we can be together," Ennis stated.

Hope and excitement shot through Jack like a lighting strike, "Yea I remember."

"Well would ya still be up for doin' it?" Ennis asked.

"Hell fuckin' yea I would," Jack replied.

After both men had moved, Junior began having problems with living in Riverton so Ennis was finally able to move her year when she turned sixteen. She had lived with the two men for the last three years. Ennis was happy that Junior had accepted Jack and not rejected their relationship.'

Once Ennis and Jack were finished getting dressed they headed down the stairs. Once they reached the kitchen they could smell coffee and breakfast being cooked. They found Junior standing by the stove when they both entered.

"You know," Ennis stated to his daughter, "you don't have to make breakfast every mourning that's why we hired Liz, plus when she's not here Jack and I do know how to cook."

"Good mourning to you to daddy, and yes I know, but I was just trying to keep busy, you know how I am when I'm nervous," She said.

"Watcha nervous for darlin," Ennis asked.

"Well daddy, I got accepted in Springfield Community College," She said.

"Junior that's great news," Jack said walking over and gave her a hug.

"Its wonderful news darlin," Ennis said, "So whatcha all worried for?"

"Well, I'm going to have to pay for most of the cost," She replied.

"Well we can help ya," Ennis replied.

"How much is it?" Jack asked.

"Gonna be around five thousand," She replied with a hint of worry in her tone.

Jack was filling is cup of coffee when he heard the cost for her school, he had a light grip on his coffee cup and it accidentally fell from his hand and broke on the counter which sent broken glass and coffee everywhere.

"Shit," Jack muttered under his breath as he began to clean up the mess. Once he was finished cleaning up the mess he quickly ate his breakfast and finished his coffee. He and Ennis headed out the door to the stables.

"We'll be back in a few hours Junior, were going to check the other fences," Ennis said to his daughter.

"Alright, I'm just gonna stay around here and wait for Liz," She replied.

Jack and Ennis headed out to the stables and saddled up their horses and headed out to the respective fences. For the first little while they were riding out in silence until Ennis spoke up, "Why did it seem you were kinda shocked when Junior said how much it was gonna cost for her ta go ta school."

"Because I was kinda surprise, and I didn't really have a good hold on my coffee cup, why you askin' cowboy," Jack replied.

"I dunno, it just seem like you don' wanna have ta pay that much for it is all."

"That's not it at all," Jack replied, "I'm happy for her, epically that she wants to go to college. We make more than enough to pay her way through college and you know that and we still wouldn't be affected."

"I know," Ennis replied.

"Hey, the Maxwell's are having a party this weekend, and they invited us to come over." Jack stated.

"Yea," Ennis replied.

"Oh come on Ennis, you know that they don't care that we are married, you know that we do have friends in this town that actually like us." Jack stated.

"I know, but this is a big town get together, when it's just us and a few other friends I don't really mind but you know that I don't like big crowds." Ennis replied.

Jack began to get a little angry because it always seemed that Ennis was always trying to hide that they had been married and especially when Ennis would hardly touch him in the open crowd. "You sure you aren't just afraid of the crowd, or is it me that you're ashamed of!" Jack snapped.

"You know that's not fair Jack," Ennis muttered.

"Fuck that Ennis, everytime were together in public you barley even touch me," Jack yelled.

"You know that I have a hard time, and I'm afraid about the people who don't like the fact that were together, and that if something were to happen to your fucking ass, Jack Fuckin' Twist that it would kill me," Ennis yelled back.

"Ennis, I'm sorr…" But Jack was cut off by the blond man.

"Fuck You Jack, if you gonna start a damn fight, then you had better fuckin' end it," Ennis stated in a whispered angered voice. Ennis then turned his horse and headed off to the north fence leaving Jack who was heading to the east fence.

Once Ennis made it to the north fence he dismounted form his horse and sat down on the ground, he brought his knees up to his chest and began to cry. Images from his dreams came thundering through his mind as he watched as unknown men beat his rodeo into a bloody pulp. He wished Jack understood what he saw at night, but he was to afraid to tell him about it. He knew deep down if people weren't like they were he would easily show affection to Jack in the open, he just wants to try and protect what is whole life is based on.

As Jack rode to the east fence he tired to understand why Ennis was so afraid to show affection to him in the public. It didn't really bother him most of the time but sometimes it just hurt. Jack had an idea of what it was because of the screaming Ennis had done while he was asleep; Jack was just to afraid to confront Ennis because he didn't want to upset him. Once he reached the east fence and it check out ok, he turned his horse to the north side and set off at a run. He wanted to talk to Ennis and get everything out in the open.

After about half and hour later Ennis heard hoofs beating up behind him. He knew Jack came to him to try and make up to him, and he was going to try and make things right with him. Jack came up behind him and Ennis quickly stood up.

"Listen Jack I'm sorry bout what I said to ya," Ennis whispered.

"I'm sorry too," Jack replied.

The two men stood there in a tight embrace trying to show the other how much they were sorry and how much they loved eachother.

"Ennis there's something that I need to ask you?" Jack said.

"What?" Ennis replied.

"I have an idea why you're so afraid about people and us, is it because of the dreams you have? I was going to ask you before because sometimes in the middle of night you just start screaming "NO, PLEASE NOT JACK". Do you have dreams that something happens to me?" Jack asked.

A guilty expression fell onto the blond's face, "yea, I try and save you, but I can't ever get to you. It scared me so bad. I don't know what I would do if I lost you Jack," Ennis stated holding Jack even stronger.

"I'm sorry, I had no idea until now," Jack whispered.

While Ennis was holding Jack, the blue eyed angel heard the blond start singing a song to him.

"Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I know I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your hurting face, it's haunting me
I know I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I know I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your hurting face, you're haunting me
I know I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will be safe away from harm

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I know I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I know I need you baby"

"Jack, I'm so sorry that I managed to hurt you so bad, I promise that I'll try and be a little more affectionate in public. You deserve that more that anything, but promise me that you'll never leave me, and if anything were to happen, that you would always be there to guide me. I'm just always afraid that something bad is going to happen to you, and I'm not going to be able to save you." Ennis whispered.

"Oh God Ennis, I swear that no matter what happens, I'll always be here for you." Jack replied holding his husband even closer. Jack held up his hand and showed Ennis his silver ring in his left hand on his wedding finger, "You see this, I promise you that no matter what I will be here for you, to help you through anything that happens to you."

Deep down, Ennis was burning that promise into his heart and soul, and some how that one little promise managed to quell all the fears that he was having and he was no longer seeing the vision of Jack being beat to death.