NUMB

By Jacquie and Sassy

Chapter 1

Mulder woke to warmth against his skin. With some effort, he was able to lift his hand and touch Scully's hair. A growle escaped his lips when he was unable to pull her against him.

The sound woke Scully. Mulder grew frustrated again. "Hey," Scully gave him a smile. She felt his forehead, making Mulder close his eyes at her touch, giving a soft grunt in response. "Why don't you try blinking?" Scully suggested. Mulder blinked one for yes.

His fingers reached vainly for her hands as he tried to say her name. "It's okay," Scully said softly. "Everything's okay."

He barely moved his finger against her hand. Scully blinked back a tear as his skin touched hers.

"Sc..." was all he could whisper. Damn you for not being able to tell her what you want and need.t. That since she came into your life she's the only reason you breathe.

"Sssh...It's okay, Mulder," Scully soothed him, caressing his forehead. She leaned over him slightly to check his IV. He began to get sleepy again. She noticed this. "It's okay. Sleep."

He awoke several hours later and he noticed a faint feeling along his body. He moved his hand slowly to caress her face. She had fallen asleep with her head on his stomach. That has to be uncomfortable. Feeling his hand on her, Scully opened her eyes. But what moved her was the nurse coming into the room to take Mulder's blood pressure.

GO AWAY! Mulder screamed inside his head still unable to speak clearly. He just wanted to be alone with her. He tightened his fingers around hers before she could pull her hand away away.

"It's okay, Mulder," Scully soothed. "I'm right here." He clenched his other hand in anger at his body for betraying him. The nurse was replaced by the doctor on duty.

He picked up Mulder's chart and looked at it. "How's he doing?" he asked Scully.

Mulder grunted. He hated being left out.

"Impatient. I think he wants to get out of here." Mulder rolled his eyes. Scully barely managed to stifle a grin. She cleared her throat. "He has minute motions in his hands. The IV drip seems to be working well."

Mulder's middle finger went up at the doctor. Scully quickly put her hand over his.

If you could speak right now, Mulder... she thought

"He seems to be in good hands," the doctor smiled at Scully. "Call one of the nurses if you need anything." Then he was gone.

Mulder smiled a lopsided grin because he knew he was about to get reprimanded for the "finger" incident.

"Never mind smiling, Mulder." Scully scolded. "That was uncalled for."

He rolled his eyes again.

Tears were managing to escape down Scully's cheeks again."Damn", she muttered as she wiped them with the back of her hand.

He took her hand in his. "Sorry." He muttered as good as he could.

"Keep this up, Mulder, and I'm going to be gray by the time I'm forty" Scully muttered. She gave Mulder's hand a light squeeze and went to lie down on the cot beside him.

She laid down with her back to him. He tried to smile and almost succeeded Sleep tugged at his body once again.

He began to jerk a little on the bed. The visions he was seeing were horrific. He was watching the "white man" kill Scully and there was nothing he could do about it. He cried out in his sleep. Tears poured down his face. He couldn't move.

Scully sat straight up in bed when she heard Mulder cry out. It took her foggy mind a few seconds to realize that it was Mulder who made the strange strangled noise. When she did, she was up and by his bedside, wiping away his tears.

"Mulder, its okay...you were dreaming." she said softly. His hand slid up and pulled her to him. "It's okay," she whispered again as her hand gently caressed his trembling muscles. His hand slid up to her face where he wiped away the tears that had spilled from her eyes.

"Let hold you." he managed to get out.

"Hang on a sec." Scully shifted herself a little so she was up on the bed beside Mulder

He watched almost helpless as she wrapped his arms snugly around her. He managed to kiss her head softly as she laid her head on his chest. He sighed.

She looked up at him. "You comfortable?"

He blinked twice for yes. He had exhausted himself with only the small amount of movement. Before she could stop herself, Scully kissed him softly. As she laid her head on his chest again, she wondered why she did that.

His lips tingled where hers had just been. His hand slid up to touch them. "Scully?" he whispered.

"Hm?" He wanted her to look at him. He cleared his throat. Scully couldn't resist a small smile at that. She lifted her head, "Yes, Mulder?"

He lifted his head and lets his lips brush hers again. Now it was her turn to have tingling lips. Her eyes remained closed for a moment. Then she smiled. "You better rest some more," she said softly.

Mulder nodded. And when I next see the sun, I had better have use of my own body.

She was unaware he could hear her sigh. "I..." she stopped again. "Don't worry. I'll still be here when you wake up"

"Good," he yawned.

And she was. But so were the orderlies. They were waiting to do another round of blood tests and x-rays.

Mulder groaned. "I don't want too."

"You have to, Agent Mulder" When the orderlies were rough with Mulder, that's what got under Scully's skin.

Two gruelling hours of being poked and prodded had him returned to his room achy and sore. "I just want to go home, Scully." He looked up pleadingly at her. "You be my doctor...you nurse me back to health. You are more gentle."

Scully glared at the orderlies when she saw the bruises forming on his wrists. "What do you guys think you're dealing with? A sack of potatoes?"

"He was being uncooperative..."

"Uncooperative? He's half paralyzed." Scully was struggling to keep calm.

He laid his hand on top of hers. "It's okay, Dana."

"What you going to do? Call the supervisor?"

"I'll do one better. I'll go straight to the AMA."

Mulder had to hold in a smile. She was protective of him. He liked that about her. She went to the mat for no one but him. His fingers slipped into hers and stroked her palm with his fingers.

The orderlies clearly thought Scully was serious. They slinked out of the room.

She took a few cleansing breaths.

He tapped her hand. "Calm down."

She gently pulled away. "I'll be right back, okay?" She walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind her. She leaned her forehead against the mirror. What am I getting so worked up for anyway?

When she returned, he was half out of the bed coming after her.

"Mulder..." she gently repositioned him in bed. "You're going to hurt yourself."

"I wanted to make sure you are okay." He looked up at her. "Are you?"

"Yes, I'm fine. I kind of overreacted," she said softly.

"I was being difficult." He admitted.

"Why am I not surprised?" She allowed herself to brush back a strand of hair before moving to her bed again and lying down.

He turned on his side. "Comfortable?"

"No not really" she looked at him. "Think you can manage to drink some water?"

"Only if you get back up here with me." He compromised.

Scully had to admit it was more comfortable than the cot. She also managed to tell herself it didn't mean anything.. Mulder was going to forget about it the moment he was well again. Silently she reached for his water bottle and held it to his lips.

He took a sip. "Seriously, Scully, why can't you take me home and nurse me back to health?" I hate hospitals.

"I know you're being serious. I'm sure they just want to make sure there's no permanent damage."

You mean "I" don't you? a voice in her head asked.

"Do you think there is? Permanent damage I mean." He was worried now.

"No. You seem to be...recovering well." She bit her lip then smiled. "Might take a few more days before everything's back, but it's looking good."

He let out a sigh of relief. "You don't have to stay with me if you don't' want too." He wanted her there...but he couldn't stand the thought of keeping her from her life. "I'm sure you had plans." You are to beautiful to sit home alone.

"Me? Plans?" Her eyebrow went up.

Then she smiled. "You're not a burden if that's what you're worried about." I need to be with you she mentally added.

He smiled and pulled her closer to him. "Good." I've got you all to myself. Just how do I convince you that you need me as much as I need you?

TBC…