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But she knew she couldn't drink anymore. At least, not when Fin was around. Besides, he had all of her alcohol, and she didn't want to take any more beers from his refrigerator. And to make things worse, her brother was leaving. Kaitlin wasn't sure what she was going to do. At least, her and Fin had had a heart-to-heart. She felt a little more comfortable with her new guardian, although she still wasn't completely sure of him. He was hard to read. She didn't know what he was going to do next.
She closed her eyes to keep the tears from coming.
"Are you okay?" Ryan asked her.
"Yeah, fine." She lied.
"Well, we need to be going, then." Fin started, sending a concerned look towards Kaitlin.
The three got up and made their way into the living room to gather Ryan's bags. Kaitlin picked up one of the lighter ones and waited as Ryan shoved a black hoodie into another bag.
"Is this everything?" Fin asked Ryan.
"Yeah, I think so." He replied, yawning. It had been a long few days.
He walked towards the door, pausing to take the bag from Kaitlin. She wrapped her arms around him, "I'm gonna miss you." She whispered.
"I'm gonna miss you too." Ryan replied. He pulled away from the embrace. "But remember what I told you. I'm just a phone call away." He gave her another quick hug. "I love you."
"I love you, too." She answered.
Fin was just watching the interaction between the siblings. He followed Ryan wordlessly out the door and was surprised when he heard Kaitlin yell behind him, "Bye! Drive Safely!" as he closed and locked the door.
Now all alone in Fin's apartment, Kaitlin didn't know what to do. She thought back to what she always did when she was this stressed. Drink. That was out of the question. She was beginning to get Fin's trust, and she wouldn't throw that all away. Besides, she didn't know what Fin would do to her if he caught her drinking again. It was not something that Kaitlin was ready to test. What else could she do? Smoke. Yes, a cigarette sounded quite nice right about now, but Kaitlin wasn't sure what Fin would think. She also didn't have a key to the apartment… and she knew that she couldn't smoke inside.
She sighed, finally deciding to just watch television. She plopped down on the couch and flipped on the set. Nothing good was on. Nothing good was ever on. She flipped the television off and got up from the couch. She walked into the kitchen and opened up the refrigerator. Her eyes were immediately drawn to the cans of Coors Light Beer. She took a deep breath, and hastily grabbed a can of Diet Cola. She bit her bottom lip, proud that she avoided temptation. At least, this time.
The piercing ring of her cell phone broke her out of her thoughts. Flo Rida's "Low" blared from Fin's bedroom, where she must have left her cell phone after being sent to her room. She raced in the room from the kitchen, almost knocking down her pop. The last lines of the chorus came to a silence and the words 1 Missed Call were almost instantly replaced with Message.
She called her voicemail and was happy to hear a familiar voice. "Hey Kaitlin, it's Cody. What's up? I heard about what's going on and I just wanted to tell you that I'm really sorry and I'm here for you. What are you doing tonight, babe? Do you want to hang out? Just call me back."
The message made Kaitlin smile. She saved the message and hung up the phone, not wasting any time calling Cody back.
Cody answered after the very first ring. "Hey you."
"Hey Cody." She smiled. He was one of the few people who could make her happy.
"How're you doing?" He asked. She could hear the concern in his voice.
"I'm fine." She laughed quietly. "Or I'll be fine, at least. Thanks for asking."
"Let's do something tonight… it'll take your mind off of everything."
"That sounds great…" Kaitlin started, then suddenly realized that she was grounded. "But I'm grounded."
"Grounded? Already? How long ago did you move in with this guy?"
"Well, he caught me drinking… the vodka you gave me." She laughed. "He freaked. Gave me this huge no drinking, no drugs spiel and grounded me for 2 weeks."
"That sucks." Cody started. "I'm sorry about the vodka. But I only wanted to help…"
"Yeah, I know." Kaitlin reassured him. "It's no big deal. If he's anything like dad with working and stuff, then he'll be out of the house more often then he'll be here."
Cody laughed. He remembered the times that Kaitlin's dad had been out all night working and Cody had stayed over to keep Kaitlin company in a misguided attempt to protect her. "Okay… so are we on for tonight?"
Kaitlin made up her mind. "Yeah, for sure." She smiled, despite herself. All of a sudden, she had a really bad feeling about this.
"That's my girl!" Cody encouraged her. "When should I be over? Where do you even live?"
"I don't know about the time, just let me call you, okay?" Then she proceeded to tell her best friend where she lived now. She heard the door open. "But hey, I gotta go."
"Okay, talk to you later."
She hung up the phone and left the room quietly. Fin was standing in the kitchen.
"Did the plane take off okay?" Kaitlin started, unsure of what to say.
"I just dropped him off. His flight leaves in about an hour."
"Oh, okay. Thanks."
Fin could tell she was nervous about something, but didn't know how to push her. At least, not yet. "Is something wrong?" He decided to go for it.
"No, nothing." She faked a smile. "I just feel bad about everything."
Fin exhaled. He didn't even realize he was holding his breath. "It's okay. Just know that I'm here for you if you need me. I'm always ready to talk."
"Thanks." She genuinely smiled, probably for the first time since being there. "That means a lot."
Not wanting to ruin a good moment between the two, Fin was reluctant to answer his cell phone when it rang. Finally picking it up, he answered, "What's up?" There was a pause. "Right now?" Another pause. "Okay, I'll be right there."
Kaitlin just glanced up at him, pretending like she wasn't listening the whole time.
"I need to go to work for a little." Fin started. Kaitlin just nodded, trying not to smile. "Are you gonna be okay here alone?"
"Yeah. I'll be fine." She answered.
"Thanks. I'll give you a call later on, okay?" Fin made his way to the door, grabbing his jacket on the way. "I shouldn't be too long. If you get hungry, there's frozen dinners in the freezer."
"I got it." Kaitlin walked to the door with him. "I can handle myself." It came out slightly harsher than she meant it to.
Fin was taken aback slightly. "I know that. I'll see you later. Bye." He shuffled out the door, almost happy that Kaitlin was comfortable enough to talk back to him like that.
Kaitlin was pretty much ecstatic inside. She quickly found her phone and called Cody back. "He's gone!" She pretty much yelled into the receiver before even saying "hi."
"Nice." Cody replied. "When do you want me over?"
"As soon as possible… I don't know how long he'll be gone." Kaitlin just knew this wouldn't end well… but she didn't even care at this point. After all, she was all alone and needed someone to be with, at least for a little while.
She decided to change her clothes and straighten a little while she waited for Cody to get to Fin's apartment. She let him in exactly 23 minutes after she called him.
"I'm so glad you're here." She wrapped her arms around him.
"I'm glad I'm here too. How're you holding up?"
"I've been better…" She sighed. "I just hate this whole being alone thing. I'm not by any of my friends, my brother just left. I even miss my dad." She snickered at the thought.
Cody looked her right in the eye. "You still have me…"
"I know." She gave him another hug. "I'll be okay, babe." She paused. "So… what do you wanna do?" She plopped down on the couch and reached for the remote. "Wanna watch a movie or something?"
"I was actually thinking about something else…" Cody said slyly.
Cody pulled a plastic baggie out of his pocket. Inside, there was something green and plant-like. Kaitlin didn't know what it was.
"Cody!" She practically yelled. "Is that… weed?" She whispered the last word.
"Of course that's what it is. Come on, I'll pack a bowl."
"No! We can't… I've never smoked pot before. And I knew you did… but no! Not here! Fin would kill me." Her voice tapered off.
"Are you scared of him?" Cody asked her seriously. "Wait… has he hurt you?" His voice rose sharply.
"No." Kaitlin answered.
"Because if he has, I'll take you home with me. I'm not leaving you here if this guy's gonna hit you…" Cody's protective side was coming out.
"I'd tell you if he had hurt me." Kaitlin answered. "Fin hasn't laid a hand on me… at least, not yet."
She didn't think that Cody heard the last part.
"Not yet?" He looked like someone knocked the wind out of him. "What does that mean?"
"Nothing." Kaitlin wasn't ready to open up to Cody, especially not right now. "Please, put the pot away…"
"Fine." Cody put the bag back in his pocket. "But you have to promise me that you'll call me if he ever hurts you… I'll come here and get you, day or night."
"I promise." Kaitlin took in a deep breath.
"So, what do you want to do? Ya know, I only brought the weed because I thought it would help you relax, loosen up, and forget about everything else going on…" Cody defended himself.
"Yeah, I know." Kaitlin smiled to show that there were no hard feelings.
"Let's just watch TV or something. Sound good?" He ruffled her hair and they found a movie on HBO to watch. Before she even realized it, she had fallen asleep, her head on Cody's muscular chest. He stroked her hair gently, but he too drifted off.
It was only when the door silently creaked open and then the booming voice of Fin, "What is going on here?!?!" that either woke up. Kaitlin jumped off Cody so fast she almost fell to the floor. She looked up at her guardian, fear coloring her eyes.
She was really in trouble now.
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