Thinking

Summary: Leia thinks about the course of events Anakin goes through in his life.

I think of a man who played an important role in history. I think of a man whom I pity. I think of a man who needed a family. I think of a man who loved a woman very deeply. I think of a man who has seen people die far too many times. I think of a man who was brainwashed into thinking he could stop death from occurring. I think of a man who betrayed everyone, even himself. I think of a man who killed his number one reason to live. Part of him died when She died. I think of a man who shut himself from the world and turned into a monster. I think of a man who I could never picture as a real human being with feelings. I think of a man who was forever blinded by a mask that never let him see things through his true eyes. I think of a man who tortured me on the first Death Star. I think of a man who killed many innocent people to get his anger out, but that only made him feel worse. I think of a man who had to live with the sorrow and guilt he made himself feel. I think of a man who had almost no reason to live.

I don't know what made him want to keep living. I think of a man who obeyed every command given. I think of a man who forgot things he wanted to remember and remembered things he wanted to forget. I think of a man who cared only about himself and had no compassion. I think of a man who never laughed, cried, or was ever truly happy. I think of a man who the truth was kept from. I think of a man who gave his life for my brother. I think of the only man who turned back to the light side from the dark. I think of a man who is with his wife in a better place, at peace with the galaxy, and has the answers to questions he thought about every day of his life. I think of a man who I can finally call Father without wondering if it's true. I forgive him. It took me a long time to give in, to look past the suit. After all, it's only the armor that kept his true self from coming out.

I found what my past and heritage mean. I know who I am now. I am a Skywalker and I have no regrets. Life is a privilege. Anakin has taught me that it is okay to take risks and stand up for what you believe in. I should live every day as if it were my last because one day it day it will be. He is my inspiration. I love him with all my heart because he loves me and my brother and was sorry for what he did to the galaxy, even if it were only for the last few moments of his life. I should learn from his mistakes and let destiny take over. I know he is watching over my brother and me and won't let anything happen to us. I think of a man who will never be forgotten in this galaxy.