Just a little drabble; I haven't written in a while, huh?

Disclaimer: I still don't own it. I'll let you know if that changes.

I've thought about it a long time. Countless different ways. With boundless creativity, really.

But I can't think of a single way.

Not a single way to kill him, that monster.

Avada Kadevra? Wouldn't work, I don't think. It didn't work last time; he'd only come back.

A gun? Pah. Like Voldemort could bleed.

Gryffindor's sword? I can't even touch it anymore. My Slytherin side has taken full force, and the sword knows it. My friends still stand by me, though. They know that that's the way it must be. One needs a blend; the qualities of just one house cannot stand alone.

A Gryffindor couldn't end this war. It takes Slytherin cunning and guile; Gryffindor courage, though necessary, is often foolhardy and misplaced.

Courage is not willingly running into a hopeless situation. That's how Sirius died.

I won't make that mistake again.

Courage is walking away from a hopeless situation, knowing you would lose. To be brave, you must know your limits, and listen to them. Stupidity will only get you killed. Both are needed, as are loyalty and cleverness. All of Hogwarts is needed in this war.

I guess the phrase is, "fight fire with fire." I can't defeat Voldemort with a few light spells. Or, at least, not those spells classified as "light".

No, I must fight fire with fire, darkness with darkness.

But back to the point.

Dumbledore says the 'power Voldemort knows not' that I have is love.

I think he's lying to me.

Love is all well and good, happiness and sunshine and all that, but love won't kill a monster. It's just so cliché that it couldn't possibly work.

So what's the answer? What can possibly kill such a monstrous foe?

What the hell can I do to not let them down?

What can I do to save them all?

What can I do to save myself?

I don't know what the answer is.

I don't know what to do.

You know, for all Dumbledore's preaching on 'house unity' and 'teamwork', he still places the fate of the world in the hands of one single person.


How is that fair? How can I win this war by myself? How, how, how?

Why, why, why?

I can't do this alone.

Help me, please.