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Set after 6-17.
Before Luke goes on the stupid trip with HIS FREAKIN DAUGHTER, how could you do this to us ASP, pause, breathe, ok calm down Louise, Not going to go there at this moment in time.
Later that night, Luke and Lorelai are watching a movie.
She looks over at him,
He really hates this movie, thought Lorelai smiling.
She sat there for a moment thinking about how different things had become lately with them. She realized that when her mother had said she could picture her and Luke together, in her/their house, she didn't know if she could anymore. She realized he was looking at her, she smiled.
"You hate the movie", she said.
"Weeell, I know something you don't hate"
"What's that" Luke said, obviously not understand what she was getting at.
She moved over to him, poisoned herself about an inch from his face.
"Something we haven't done in a while", she said with just a hint of resentment in her voice.
She pressed her lips on his, and moved into a slightly more comfortable position. She slid her arms around his neck and just as she was about to deepen the kiss he pulled away.
She looked at him question.
"Eh?" she asked
"I'm just kind of tired; I think I'm just going to head to bed."
He stood up. She looked sadly at him.
"I guess you've just been tired for the past two weeks" she muttered under her breath.
"What?" said Luke, even thought he caught the gist of it.
"Luke lets not pretend anymore, I'm sick of pretending"
Luke knew exactly where this conversation was heading.
"What do you mean?"
"Luke, we…are…engaged" she said slowly, "We haven't spend the night together in two weeks!"
"We spend every night together"
"You know exactly what I mean" Lorelai responded crossly.
"Fine" Luke said
He sat back down and kissed Lorelai on the lips. She was surprised at first, and when she realized what she was doing she pulled away.
"Fine, huh" Lorelai said shaking her head, "real romantic Luke"
"I'm sorry" he said, before kissing her more fiercely.
Lorelai pulled away. "Stop Luke, just, just get away from me" she said in an incredibly angry voice.
Luke could see how angry she was getting and needed to stop her before she got into her stride.
"You're getting mad at me because we haven't slept together in a while."
"Damn right I am" she stood up "we're engaged, you're my FIANCE. Doesn't that mean anything to you? We both know this isn't working out"
"W-what?" Luke said jumping in quickly.
Ok, sure he knew things had been weird. He was a no change kind of guy and this whole April and Anna thing had thrown him for a loop. But it wasn't his fault. Well it was but but.
I just, I just can't talk about this to Lorelai, I know I have been shutting her out but I don't know what to do, thought Luke
"Come on Luke! its not exactly a secret, I saw the bag, you you've been regretting our whole relationship. I get it. You want her" She said simply.
Wait I want who, Luke thought.
"You have this whole great family with the super daughter and the pretty mother, and then there's me" She said unable to look at him, she wondered briefly if she had ever felt this insecure in her life. "Your girlfriend, who you aren't even attracted to anymore" she paused
"That's not what this is about, Lorelai, you know that. Of course I want to be with you"
She shook her head.
"And its Fiancé" Luke corrected gently
"Sure" she said sadly "You called off the wedding when your super instant family showed up. Just add boiling water, break up with Lorelai and serve." she said gesturing wildly with her hands.
"I am not breaking up with you" Luke said slowly touching her arm and stepping closer to her.
"Sure you're not Luke. You're a great guy; you don't want to hurt me. But we can't pretend anymore" she said repeating her words from earlier.
"That you're in love with me", she whispered looking away again because it hurt too much.
"That's ridicules, of course I do"
"Then why didn't you tell me" she challenged.
"I did, at valentines."
"No, right there a minute ago, you said of course I do, but you never said it, you never say it!" she said her lip now quivering and a knot forming in her throat.
"Of course I love you, I love you Lorelai, I have always loved you, always and I always will"
Hot tears were forming in Lorelai's eyes and she willed herself not to cry.
"I know you love me" she replied
"Well then what's this about?" he interrupted.
"You love me, but you're in love with her and her kid, April", she corrected.
"Lorelai, she's my daughter, of course I love her" he said raising his voice.
Damn him, thought Lorelai, if he had just said he didn't love Anna maybe things would be okay.
She closed her eyes to compose herself for a second.
She felt Luke's arms around her and she buried her head in his chest for a moment, breathing in the familiar smell. Then she pulled away completely.
"You never said you didn't love her, Anna" Lorelai breathed, her voice barely audible.
"She's April's mom, I've known her forever" he tries to explain.
"And you will know her forever"
"Don't do this"
"Luke you don't want this, not really." He went to interrupt her but she continued, "I know you love me, and Rory, and…you care about us. We've known each other a long time Luke"
"I know, Lorelai, I know. You believe in fate. We are meant to be together. I know it" She had never heard Luke talk like this before.
"No" she whispered
"Yes" Luke said a little desperately.
"No" she said a little more forcefully "I always knew you'd be there for me, always. And when we got together it was like magic. It was perfect..." the tears that had threatened earlier were not streaming down her face. Damn she thought. She was usually so strong.
Luke just looked at her, he hated to see her like this, and knowing he had caused it, well…
"It can still be perfect" Luke said
"We tried Luke, we tried, and it didn't work out, then we tried again, and it didn't work out. Maybe we weren't meant to be together. Maybe I'm being punished for something I did"
"You did nothing wrong, your not being punished"
"Then why do I feel like this?" Lorelai questioned putting her hands over her heart.
"Why are we fighting Luke, why am I making this harder than it has to be? This isn't working, this relationship. You wanted t postpone the wedding. You wanted this"
"To postpone it, not cancel it!"
It was going to be the best day of my life Lorelai thought, it was all planned, it was perfect, we were perfect.
"Go to your family Luke, just go" she said struggling to get the ring off her finger where it had become so content.
"You're my family" he tried
"No, no I'm not" she leaned up and gave him one last kiss on the mouth and forcing the ring into his hand, she turned and with one last look she left.
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