AN: I've never owned the Teen Titans, so why would I now? Quite asking!
He hated getting up in the morning more than anything else in the world. It was hard for him to fall asleep at night and he woke up early in the morning, so he never got enough rest. He opened his eyes and the blinding sun shone right into them. He groaned and turned over. On the other side of him he saw the blond beauty that was his girlfriend.
Terra, who had rejoined the Titans once her memories and powers came back, was spread out in the bed and hogging most of the covers. She was sleeping quite soundly with a slight smile on her face. He figured she ought to be after the night they had had together.
He slowly sat up and crawled out of her bed. He had been spending many nights in her room, since they had been together for about three years now. They were just in their twenties and they were all maturing. He gave a good stretch and scratched the back of his grass green head.
He threw a pair of pajama bottoms over his boxers and headed out to the common room. He didn't bother with a shirt. He made a quick stop at the bathroom, where he relieved his swollen bladder, then continued on. It was pretty early, so he didn't suspect anyone to really be up.
The doors swooshed open and he walked into the common room. He went straight to the kitchen to make himself a cup of coffee. As he began to fix it his heightened senses noticed that he was not alone in the room. He looked up and saw Raven sitting in front of one of the large windows. She was levitating and he knew she must have been meditating. Of course, he realized he was wrong a moment later.
"What are you doing up so early?" she asked. She was in a pair of gray sweat pants and a black tight fitting tank top. Her violet hair was being held back in a low ponytail.
"I can't sleep anymore," said Beast Boy taking a sip of his coffee. Raven always put the coffee pot on in the morning, even if she didn't drink the stuff. "I think I have a problem."
"A problem?" said Raven in her usual monotone voice.
"Ha ha," he said sarcastically and walked over to her, a pleasant smile on his face. He saw that she was watching the just rising sun. "Nice view."
"I know," said Raven softly. "It's one of the perks of getting up so early." Beast Boy smiled at her and took another sip of his caffeine filled drink. "Didn't feel like putting on a shirt?" she asked.
"No," said Beast Boy plainly. "It's warm enough out."
"You should only show your body off to Terra," said Raven. "We have no need of it."
"Fine, I'll go put a shirt on," he said rolling his eyes.
"Thank you," she said and touched down. She brushed past him and went into the kitchen to make her self some tea.
Beast Boy sat down at the table and Raven soon joined him. They were quiet, but it was a comfortable, morning silence. It was a good time to wake up and gather their thoughts.
"So how are you and Terra?" asked Raven as she blew on her tea.
"We're… good," said Beast Boy. The truth was that lately he had gotten bored with her. Lately as in the past two years and a half years. She was a nice girl and all, but he noticed that there really was no spark between them. The only reason they were still together was because he was afraid no one else would ever love him. He was, after all, green.
"That's good," said Raven. "You seem very happy together."
"Yeah, it's nice not to be single," he said with a chuckle. He then realized what he said and said, "Sorry."
"Don't be," said Raven calmly. "I like being alone."
"No you don't," he said smiling and shaking his head as he sipped his coffee again.
"Okay, maybe I don't, but I don't exactly have a choice," said Raven. "Relationships aren't allowed with my powers. Not to mention the fact that I'm half demon. It's certainly not a turn on for guys, and if it is I don't want to know them."
Beast Boy chuckled and said, "Don't worry; I'm sure you'll find someone someday."
"You're obviously not getting the point I'm trying to make," she laughed bitterly. "I literally can't love or be loved. I would become a nun if it wasn't for this damn demon thing."
"A nun?" laughed Beast Boy. "That's the last thing I'd see you as."
"That's what the church said," she sighed and stood up to refill her cup.
The doors to the common room slid open and in walked Terra rubbing her sleepy eyes. She was in a light blue nightgown and her blond hair was askew. "BB? What are you doing up so early?"
"I dunno," said Beast Boy. "Just couldn't stay asleep." She walked over and the two kissed.
"Good morning, Raven," said Terra sweetly.
"Morning," said Raven as she took a sip of her tea and moved over to the couch.
The doors opened again and this time revealed Robin fully dressed for his morning workout. He always worked out early in the morning to wake himself up. He was surprised to see Beast Boy and Terra, since only Raven was awake so early in the morning.
"What's going on?" he asked as he did a few small jumps to wake up his body. "What are you two doing up?"
"I couldn't sleep," said Beast Boy.
"And I can't sleep without him," said Terra, wrapping her arms around Beast Boy.
He gave a smile, but it was obvious the he wasn't exactly interested. She released and he took his last sip of his coffee.
"See you guys in an hour," said Robin and he left for the gym.
"See ya," they all said.
Beast Boy went into the kitchen and washed his cup. Terra was right behind him and she slithered her arms around his waist. "I'm gonna go back to bed for a little while," she said.
"'kay," said Beast Boy as he dried his cup.
Terra smiled tiredly and walked back to her room. Beast Boy put his cup away and turned to see that he was completely alone. Raven had gone at some point, he wasn't sure when. He decided it was time to make him self some breakfast before Cyborg woke up and screamed at him for contaminating his beautiful pans with his tofu.
Raven had finished her meditation and decided to start reading her book again. It was a little past lunch now, but she wasn't all that hungry. She knew that they would leave her alone if they were eating. She opened her book and sighed happily as she began from the paragraph she had left off on.
She only got about two pages in when she heard someone knock on her door. This was a little peculiar, since the Titans worked like clockwork and she was sure that they were all eating right now. "Who is it?"
Now this was very strange, since he of all people never missed a meal. "What do you want?" she asked, slightly annoyed.
"I was wondering if I could talk to you."
She wondered if she was asleep or something. Beast Boy had missed a meal and he wanted to talk with her? "Come on in," she sighed and put her bookmark back in her book.
Her door opened and in he walked; a friendly smile on his face, "Hi."
"Hello," she said plainly. "What do you need to talk about?"
"Well, I just need someone to actually listen to me for a few minutes," said Beast Boy. "I've got a bit of a dilemma, but I don't know what to do."
Raven was a bit surprised by this. "Why can't you talk to Cyborg or Robin? Or do you need a woman's point of view? And if that's the case, then I would suggest Starfire over myself."
"Trust me I would, but I don't think they'll give me as clear an answer as you could possibly give me," he said. "Plus, if I were to start a mature conversation they would take my temperature or something."
"That's true," said Raven. "You aren't usually one to want to talk about anything remotely serious."
"So… can I talk to you?" he asked, still unsure if she was willing or not.
"I'd be more than happy to hear an actually conversation come out of you," she said sitting up and getting ready.
"Cool," said Beast Boy. "Mind if I sit down?" He motioned to the bed.
"Go ahead," she said in a sigh, knowing that it would be rude to tell him no.
"Thanks," he said and sat down. "Okay, as you know, I've been with Terra for like three years now."
"And I know that she still likes me and everything," he continued on. "But… I think I'm gonna break up with her."
"Really," said Raven, surprised. "You two seem so happy. Why the change of heart?"
"Well, it's not that I don't like her, I do, but I just don't feel anything with her," he said, trying to explain. "I feel like I'm only with her because I know that no other girl will ever fall for me."
"Well, that's just ridiculous," said Raven. "You shouldn't stay with someone if they don't make you happy and you're afraid of being alone."
"I know, but I also don't want to hurt her feelings," said Beast Boy. "Like I said, we've been together for three years! We've never really fought or anything and we get along fine. But… I don't know, I just don't think I can go the rest of my life living with someone who makes me feel like they're no different than anyone else in the world. I mean, at this point I'm thinking the whole girlfriend thing is emphasized on "friend". I don't know what to do."
"Well, that is an interesting problem you have," she said thinking. "It is true that Terra loves you, but a relationship can't only work one way. It isn't right if she loves you, but you can't show her the same feelings back. Maybe you should talk to her and try to get the spark back in your relationship."
"I've been trying to do that for the past few months," said Beast Boy. "I've tried to be more romantic, and she's loves it, but I still don't feel any different about her. I mean is this what love really feels like? Cuz I was always led to believe it was more intense and passionate. Not boring. I just feel like I'm settling."
"Well, I still think you should talk to her," said Raven. "But, hey, what do I know? I've never been in a relationship, let alone loved anyone."
They sat there quiet for a few moments. Beast Boy took in everything she had said and sorted it out in his mind. Then he thought about the last thing she said. "Raven, do you ever actually want to fall in love?"
"Why would you ask me a stupid question like that?" asked Raven plainly.
"Stupid because you do, or stupid because you don't?" asked Beast Boy.
She scowled at him and said, "Do you have any more questions concerning Terra?"
"Then you can please leave," she said picking her book back up.
"I didn't mean to hurt your feelings," said Beast Boy. "I was just curious."
"You didn't hurt my feelings," said Raven coldly. "You've just overstayed your welcome." She found her page and pretended to read until he got the picture.
He sighed and stood up. "Well, thanks for the advice."
"Uh huh," she said and found her spot in her book.