Lies of the one u love

I am sitting here in the car and all I can think about is B; my god that dumb bitch can't get her out of my fucking mind. We have been together for about 1 month now and I am so in love with her but… she doesn't love me…not like I love her. Her words have become empty to me. Just from the look in her eyes I know she doesn't mean it…but she wants it to be true because the person she longs for is taken. I start my car and laugh at the irony of how neither she nor I can have what we want.

As I start driving down the dark endless road the song Something I Can Never Have by Nine Inch Nails comes on

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears,
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore,
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore,

I can't get you out of my fucking mind you are going to drive me insane B but I guess that is what you always wanted your in my dreams, your in my thoughts you are in every fucking breath I take.

Come on tell me.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.

"You are making me want to do things I haven't wanted to do in years with just one lie….why?"

You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

"Please make these feelings go away…..please"

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me

"Your lies are killing me…." A lone tear falls down my cheek as I keep driving the lyrics of the song echoing in my head.

Come on tell me.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.
You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

"I'll never have your love and that's all I have ever wanted from you…"

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me

"Without you I'm nothing Buffy….nothing"

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.
You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

"You are all I live for, your love is all I want…and you never gave it to me" I start crying harder, my heart feels like it has been ripped out and left on the floor for rats to eat but I don't mind because I feel nothing…

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

"I became a better person for you Buffy! But do you give a damn?" My vision blurs from the tears falling carelessly from my eyes.

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.
You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have

"Something I can never have…." As I move my hand to wipe the tears away I see a bright white light coming at me and as the songs ends I figure out what that bright light was… a truck.

Think I know what you meant.
That night on my bed.
Still picking at this scab
I wish you were dead.
You sweat and perry ellis.
Just stains on my sheets.

Author's Note: Ok, so you guys think I should write another chap? Or no? I want answers people