Jhondie & Justin (9) – Blood and Ice

Rated: Mostly PG-13, but some R (No explicit sex – at least not planned as of yet – but this is a very grown up story with a lot of adult situations and some harder language than usual)

Disclaimer: (Takes a deep breath) Dark Angel and the concept of Manticore and all that belongs to James Cameron but the rest of the characters and the whole storyline, which really picks up at S1 BBWW and from that point on is totally mine and original so don't use it without permission and since I'm not going for monetary gain don't bother to sue unless you want a '96 Sebring with a torn rag top and something wrong where it won't start.

Author's Note: Yes, friends and neighbors, Cat is back after a long hiatus, and she's brought some old friends with her. The reason for the absence is that I chose to finish school and finally get my degree. And with the time that demanded of me, I had to make a choice between school, my job, my family, and writing. However, through an odd quirk or two, I am currently not working, so I suddenly have time to write once more and decided to celebrate with a new J & J. To answer a few other questions. The last X-6 story will be completed soon. I am working on it; however, this J & J was so clear in my head I had to start getting it down as soon as I could. There will be a total of 11 J & J stories. One of the problems I was having with this one (and why it went on hiatus before I even went back to school) was that there were going to be 12 stories, but I finally figured out that 9 & 10 are essentially the same story. Also, there were scenes that were pivotal to breaking up the two stories, but if I used them, it would force these guys to act in ways that were totally out of character and I couldn't find a way to make them work until inspiration struck. I combined the stories, and kept my characters true to their natures. For new readers, I would suggest reading the first 7 J & J stories, and then switch over to the first X-6 story, then read J & J 8, and then the rest of the X-6 stories. That keeps things in better chronological order. My other two stories are stand alone. Also, if you like the characters and want some fun with them, then check out (click on "Cat") where I've been giving the old MST3K treatment to stories that are painfully deserving of it! Okay, no more babbling. Please enjoy and send me some reviews. We love reviews!

Justin

Everything happens for a reason. I've heard that a lot of times. And things work out the way they are supposed to, blah blah blah. It's true. In the end, things worked out. And we were all better for it, I suppose. But oh, God, I wished things could have worked out in a different way. There are some things that can be explained. There are others that have to be experienced before you can really understand what it's like. As a journalist I like to know things, but some stones really are best left unturned.

I knew there was a major problem when Kayla called and asked me, in a whisper, to come over to her house. Kay didn't say anything, but considering this was the first time she had ever called and asked me to do something like that, I figured that the house was either burning down, or the military was there. I didn't even bother to take the time to put my sandwich back in the fridge; just dropped it, grabbed my keys, and ran out the door.

When I got to the house, everything was calm. I cursed lightly. If Kay had dragged me over here for something to do with the wedding, I was going to kill her. She was almost as excited as Jhondie was, especially when Jhondie had Kay help pick out the bridesmaids' dresses. There was a lot going on, but the wedding was still almost two months away and there was nothing that required a panic, drop-what-you're-doing emergency.

When I went in, it was dead quiet. Okay, so that worried me. I thought I heard something upstairs and finally found them in the bathroom. Kayla was sitting on the edge of the tub, staring at Jhondie, worry and fear all over her face. Katrina was leaning against the wall. She wasn't worried so much as bemused. And Jhondie…Jhondie was sitting on the floor with her knees pulled up, forehead resting against them.

"What's wrong?" I asked. Jhondie looked up sharply and shot Kayla a glare. She shrunk back.

"I'm sorry," she said. "But I was worried and you always want him around when something's going on."

I knelt down in front of Jhondie. "What happened?" I asked, thinking of all of the possibilities. Another X-5 got caught by Manticore? Something happen to Max? Or Alicia and the baby?

Jhondie looked like she was about to say something, but then shook her head and looked down again.

"Oh, for crying out loud," Kat snapped. "There is so no need for the drama. This is not some big tragedy."

Jhondie glared at her. Kat didn't give an inch. Like that had ever happened before anyway. "Not a big deal?" Jhondie growled.

Kat's hands were on her hips. "Yeah, not a big deal considering your situation. Trust me, I've seen a lot of people go through this, and with their situation compared to yours, you're on easy street." She straightened up. "Jhon, I hate stupid women. And since I still have every intention of hitting it with you one day, all I can say is quit being stupid." She grabbed Kay's hand and hauled her up. "We're going downstairs. You two talk. And no freaking out."

She flounced out of there leaving me alone with Jhondie. And very, very confused. "Baby, talk to me," I finally said.

She looked up, fear in her eyes. And then she said the last two words that I ever expected to hear come out of her mouth.

"I'm pregnant."

Jhondie

Father Carlos had insisted on premarital counseling before Justin and I could get married at St. Andrews. He said it was really important for a couple to talk about certain topics so that they didn't become major issues after marriage. One of the important topics was family. Did we both want to have one? How many children did we want to have? How long did we want to be married before starting a family?

Justin and I were pretty much in agreement. We did want a family one day. Neither of us wanted a huge family, but a couple of children sounded nice. Justin was very adamant on one point though. He was not ready to be a parent and did not want to have any children soon.

"With my job and you going to medical school, I just don't think it's a good idea at all," he explained. I agreed with him, though I wasn't as firm on the topic. If we had a child in the next few years, I wouldn't see it as a tragedy, but Justin really, really wanted to wait before even thinking about it. Personally, my biggest concern was that I wanted to wait until I was sure that Manticore was dying and a child would be safer. But even with that, I wasn't as set-in-stone as Justin was on the topic.

But now everything was different. I could even pinpoint the day that everything changed. We were in Mexico visiting Justin's family and went out to the beach one night for a swim. It was a perfectly clear night and we were all alone, still celebrating my recent graduation from college. Making love in the ocean was tricky, but we figured it out quite nicely. It was the only time in the last two months that we hadn't used any protection.

I felt so stupid. I knew that sex under water did not prevent pregnancy. I was going to be a doctor, I knew that the myths about how to prevent were just that – myths. For the last week or so I had been getting sick at night and was tired all the time. And the "heat" cycle that was due hadn't happened yet. I knew the signs. Seeing a positive on the test almost seemed anti-climatic.

I had gone back over to Mom's house with the EPT so that I could talk to her. She was working later, but Kay and Kat were there. Kat saw the test, couldn't keep her big mouth shut, and now I was on the floor with Justin frozen in shock in front of me. His jaw moved a few times like he was trying to speak but nothing was coming out.

"Are you sure?" he finally said. Better than 'is it mine?' I supposed. I nodded and handed him the test. The positive sign was pretty obvious. He sat back heavily, staring at the stick.

"I'm sorry," I whispered. "I swear I didn't do this on purpose."

"I know that," he muttered. "I'm just…you know…just…wow." He looked up at me. "You're pregnant?"

"Yeah," I said sharply. "We've already gone over that." I didn't mean to snap at him but he was acting like he was trying to wake up from a nightmare. Was the thought of having a child with me that horrifying?

Justin sighed. "I guess we're going to have to get married now."

"What?"

He gave me a tiny smile and I realized he was teasing me. "It's okay," he finally said. "I mean, yeah, way sooner than we wanted, but it'll be okay. This is from one night of unprotected sex not like a one night stand or something. It's just…timing. The timing is weird, is all."

I almost started crying in sheer relief. Justin moved so that he was sitting beside me, his arm around my shoulders. "It'll be okay," he repeated, sounding more like he was trying to convince himself than me. "Kat was kind of right. We could be in a much worse situation."

I wanted to tell him I was scared too. That it would be okay if he said it. Our lives were going to be dramatically different and that scared the hell out of me too. But neither of us said anything. We just held each other and pretended to be brave.