I'm sitting on my bed in the hotel room. All Deans' stuff is still scattered around the room messily. I'm a bit freaked out, this is the first night I'm going to spend here with out him, I spent last night in the hospital with him, and of course we didn't get to the hospital until like 2 am. I've called everyone in the journal and so far one person can help Dean. I've called dad and told him what's happening, and I promised to make him better, promised to help him. I will live up to this promise, I will save my brother. I'm so lost in my own thoughts that I jump at the sound of someone knocking on the door. I walk over, not knowing who to expect because no one knows who we are, unless its dad. I open the door and see Dean standing there.
"What the hell are you doing here?" I'm so shocked to see him standing there, he should be in the hospital, he's too weak to be here.
"I checked myself out."
"What, are you crazy?" My brother is insane. Leave it to him to check himself out of the hospital after being told he's going to die.
"Well, I'm not gonna die in a hospital where the nurses aren't even hot." I know I should be pissed off at him for what he did, but all I can do is laugh. Of course, all he cares about is whether the nurses are hot, that's how he always is. But I need to try and talk some sense into him.
"You know, this whole I-laugh-in-the-face-of-death thing? It's crap. I can see right through it."
" Yeah, whatever, dude." He brushes off my concern like its nothing, "Have you even slept? You look worse than me." And of course, puts the focus back on me. He's concerned for me. He's the one dying! But he's right, I haven't slept. Yeah, he told me to get some sleep before I left the hospital, but how can I sleep when the only thing running through my head is how to save my brother.
"I've been scouring the Internet for the last three days. Calling every contact in Dad's journal."
"For what?" I can hear the complete confusion in his voice, he doesn't get it. He doesn't understand just how much I'm willing to go through to save him.
"For a way to help you. One of Dad's friends, Joshua, he called me back. Told me about a guy in Nebraska. A specialist." I'm excited that I found something, one thing that could lead us to a cure, to a way to make him better.
"You're not gonna let me die in peace, are you?" Die in peace? Ha! The Dean I know and grew up with would never let go that easy. But I ignore his cynicism and keep smiling, because I know that he doesn't have the strength to stop me from taking him to this guy in Nebraska.
"I'm not gonna let you die, period. We're going." I hear him sigh, defeated. He looks down at the flood and then back up at me.
"Ok, I'll go, but only if you promise me one thing."
"Sure Dean, what is it?"
"If this guy doesn't work out you'll let me die in peace. If this really does turn out to be the end, you won't spend my last few weeks dragging me around the country trying to find something that doesn't exist. Promise me that and I'll go to Nebraska." I sit in shock, he's serious. I can't answer right away, I need to think. I look from my hands folded in my lap to him and back before I look him in the eye and give him my answer.
"Ok, yeah, I can do that. But first we see this guy and then we'll worry about that." I hear him laugh a little and I just know that he's gonna continue this conversation.
"Somewhere warm Sam, maybe a beach with hot girls in bikinis. No hospitals, ok? I never want to be stuck in a hospital again, I hate them." I hear the exhaustion in his voice as he rambles on about where his perfect place to die would be. As he stands up I help him to the bed. He flops down on top of it, not even caring about the blankets.
"Yeah Dean, I know, no hospitals." I tell him as he states the fact that he hates hospitals for the third time.
"Actually, anywhere would be ok I guess, if I'm gonna die that is. Anywhere as long as I'm not alone, as long as you're with me." He says, dozing off to sleep. I smile and turn off the lights in the hotel room and get into my own bed.
"I'll always be there, no matter what." I tell him and I can almost hear him reply Thank you before I too drift off to sleep.
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