"You been a Mexico, Jack?" Mexico was the place. He'd heard. He was cutting fence now, trespassing in the shoot-em zone.

"Hell yes, I been. Where's the fuckin problem?" Braced for it all these years and here it came, late and unexpected.

"I'm gonna tell you this one time, Jack fuckin' Twist, an' I ain't foolin'. What I don't know," said Ennis, "all them things I don't know - could get you killed if I come to know them. I mean it.

"Try this one," said Jack, "and I'll say it just one time. Tell you what, we could a had a good life together, a fuckin real good life. You wouldn't do it, Ennis, so what we got now is Brokeback Mountain. Everthing built on that. It's all we got, boy, fuckin all, so I hope you know that if you don't never know the rest. Count the damn few times we been together in twenty years. Measure the fuckin short leash you keep me on, then ask me about Mexico and then tell me you'll kill me for needin it and not hardly never gettin it. You got no fuckin idea how bad it gets. I'm not you. I can't make it on a couple a high-altitude fucks once or twice a year. You're too much for me, Ennis, you son of a whoreson bitch. I wish I knew how to quit you."

"Then why don't you? Why don't you just let me be, huh? It's because of you Jack, that I'm like this. I'm nothing. I'm nowhere."

Jack goes to him to comfort him. Ennis pushes him away.

"Get the fuck off me!"

Jack refuses to be pushed away, and grabs him in a big hug and holds on, as Ennis collapses to the ground.

"It's all right. Damn you Ennis."

"I can't stand this any more Jack"


The words Ennis had just spoken resonated through Jack's body, punching him hard in the stomach. Jack helplessly held Ennis as he sobbed in his arms. The Ennis that was his rock. The Ennis that was strong and silent, tough and thick skinned. He had fallen apart, he was completely broken. And something in Jack was about to break too.

Like time testing a dam holding back the waters of a raging river, the dam surrounding Jack's heart was about to burst. For twenty years he had held this back. For twenty years he had loved Ennis, the only person he could or would ever love. For twenty years, so much had been left unsaid, pushed down and locked away deep inside Jack's heart. And he couldn't hold it back anymore. The time had finally come for Jack to tell Ennis all the things he wanted to tell him, but never did.

This was the moment that would decide the rest of their lives, this was the moment that would test their love for eachother to the absolute limit. It had to be all or nothing. Jack's heart couldn't take it any longer, twenty years had taken its tole. The pain, the love, everything, was just to much and had to break out. There was simply no room left in Jack's broken heart.

The dam broke, sending a surge of untamed emotion through Jack's body, and out it came.

"God damn it Ennis," Jack shouted, as the stinging tears started to fall. He pulled away from Ennis and grabbed his face, forcing his watery red eyes to look at him "So you think I can fuckin' stand this? I HAD to for twenty goddamned years, Ennis! I had no other choice! You know what it's done to me? You know what you done to me? Ever' year, ever' time you leave, I die, Ennis, I fuckin' die! Three fuckin' weeks a year with you is the only thing, the only thing, in this world that keeps me breathin'! Don't you fuckin' get it? You're my life Ennis, I only feel alive when I'm with you. And this is just bullshit, Ennis, that's what this is! I can't live like this no more! I'm sick of dyin' inside ever' time you drive away. I just can't do it no more, I can't!"

The wind started to howl as Ennis closed his eyes. He couldn't look at Jack anymore. He couldn't bear to see the pain, the hurt in Jack's eyes anymore. But Jack would have none of it. He grabbed Ennis by the shoulders and shook him hard, demanding that he look at him. "Fuckin' look at me Ennis Del Mar! I'm talkin' to you!" Ennis heard a tone in Jack's voice he had never heard before.

Ennis opened his eyes, Jack's eyes were wild and filled with tears, pounding deep into his soul. "This is it, Ennis. You drive away from me again, I swear to you it's gonna be the last time!" Jack was practically hysterical now.

"I can't take this no more. I can't. It's all or nothin Ennis! You know what I want, you've always known. So this...what happens to us...is your fuckin' choice. And you better decide right fuckin' NOW what it's gonna be. God DAMN IT, Ennis, what's it gonna be!"

Jack was out of control, shaking and crying, with a crazed look on his flushed face. Ennis blankly looked at Jack, the color draining from his face, the life draining from his body. He was in a state of shock, unable to fathom his life without Jack.

Jack could clearly see the impact of his words on Ennis' face. "Damn it Ennis, it kills me to see you like this. Ennis!" Jack yelled his name trying to get some sort of reaction, any kind of reaction from Ennis' paralyzed face.

Jack didn't mean to or want to hurt Ennis, he was just telling him what had to be said. "Ennis...you have any idea how much..." Jack paused and became silent.

Their eyes locked for what seemed like an eternity until Jack took Ennis' face gently into his hands. Jack brought his forehead to Ennis' and paused for a moment trying to compose himself. He slowly drew away, his blue eyes softening, as a tear rolled down his cheek. As he looked into Ennis' eyes, he let the words that had never been spoken drift out of his mouth like a soft spring breeze "I love you, Ennis. I love you."

Ennis squeezed his lips together as they started to tremble, the tears welling up in his eyes again. "Jack..." Ennis cried, and he pulled Jack into his arms, holding him tighter than he ever held him before. They held eachother in an embrace that no force could ever break, as Jack's words encircled them.

Ennis knew what his choice was. He pulled away from Jack, and looked into the eyes of the only person he ever loved. "Jack, I could never live without you. I'll never leave you again." He was scared and unsure, fearful and uncertain of what the future would bring to them, but he knew without Jack in his life there was no point in having a future at all.

With that, Jack and Ennis clung to eachother. They held onto eachother in silence as the sun started to set. Neither of them had a clue where they would go from here, but all that mattered now was wherever they went, they would be together.