A,N, this is Dean thinking about Rory and Jess ENJOY! (if this has been done before sorry!)
Disclaimer: Nope not mine
I loved her. I know I did. I told her I did. I don't understand, why didn't she love me back? Then it all comes back to me. Jess is why.
When Jess first came to town, I tried to befriend him. I gave him a chance, but he didn't want my friendship. He wanted Rory. Since the day he got here, his eyes have been on her. And as it is right now, she wants him too. Not me. Not the person who would change the water bottle, not the person who gave her, her first kiss. She just wants Jess.
I tried to ignore it. I really did. I thought it would go away. I thought it was just some thing, and that at the end of the day, Rory would love me, and forget about Jess. Boy was I wrong.
I don't know even know why I am still with her now. I guess in the back of my mind, I truly believe she will come back to me. I truly believe that she will get over Jess. But really, everybody can see it. She loves Jess. She would rather spend her day with him at some bookstore, then with me. And really, since when does hanging out with Lane, involve Jess? Since when does studying involve Jess?
Whenever she is with me, her mind is always somewhere else. She isn't fully with me. She is always daydreaming…about him. She says they are just friends, and the first 10 times she said it, I believed her. But now, I would be a fool to believe her.
I need to get some air. Breathe. A think a walk will do me good.
You know, when I first moved to Stars Hollow, I thought it would be good, a nice change. And it was, I mean I got a girlfriend with in a couple of weeks. And… Is that Rory? I am about to call out her name when I see him. I see them talking. He suddenly puts his arm around her, at first Rory looks uncomfortable, but then she adjusts. She smiles at him and continues talking. I can vaguely hear them. They are talking about Hemmingway. Jess is trying to tell Rory that Hemingway is amazing, Rory is not agreeing. Hemmingway is a nut she exclaims! This is all very boring to me. How could they possibly think this is interesting? I just don't get it.
After a while of talking about books, Jess asks about me. I am instantly tuning in. Jess asks what Rory see in me. Rory stumbles a bit. She doesn't answer. Go figure, I say in my head, no answer. He asks what we talk about. "Everything" Rory answers. I roll my eyes. We don't talk anymore. It is just her rejecting me. They continue walking.
It is getting late, I should probably go home, but I don't. We are now at some worn out bridge. I have been following them for over an hour. They sit down, for awhile they just stare at the water. It is Rory who speaks first. " I shouldn't be here" she whispers. "but you are" he tells her while leaning in. "I know, but Dean…" she is cut off by his lips on hers. I watch, I close my eyes thinking maybe it's a dream. But it is not. This is life. His hand at her hip, her hands in his hair. I turn away. This is life. She doesn't love me. Did she ever?
The next day, she broke up with me.
The day after that, I saw her with Jess.