Pairing: Martin Brewer and Ruthie Camden
Theme set: Alpha
I wish I could comfort Ruthie, but I'm the reason she's hurting.
I'll never know what it feels like to kiss Martin.
When I hugged Ruthie that night, she felt so soft.
I want this pain to go away.
Tonight I'm sitting alone eating cold mashed potatoes.
I love watching the rain, love standing in it more.
Today is Valentine's Day and I almost bought Ruthie chocolate candy.
I'll never have that happiness that I dreamed of with Martin.
I just want to pick up the telephone and call Ruthie.
Martin telling me that he loved me would be music to my ears.
It has been months since I've heard Ruthie call my name.
I even tried to dance differently so that it was sensual.
I have a bad feeling that I'm going to love Ruthie until death.
If only Martin had waited until he got married to have sex.
I'm dying just to touch Ruthie.
God forgive my weakness, I'll let go of Martin.
I hate to admit it, but I've actually shed tears over losing Ruthie.
I need to get over Martin, but speed is not on my side.
Every time the wind blows, I hear Ruthie's name.
I need to have freedom from Martin.
I really wish I hadn't messed up my life.
The jealousy I feel toward Sandy isn't good.
I had Ruthie in my hands, and I let her down.
This situation is leaving a bad taste in my mouth.
Ruthie deserved my devotion and more.
Martin is out of my life forever.
Ruthie is in my heart, mind, and I swear she flows through the blood in my veins.
Martin is a sickness; I have to find a cure.
Every melody I hear on the radio reminds me of Ruthie.
I've wished on my last star, I will no longer wish for a future with Martin.
Here I am home alone, dreaming of what can never be.
There has been so much confusion, too much.
My biggest fear is watching Ruthie marry someone else and have the family I wanted to have with her.
As the lightning starts, Ruthie starts to cry.
The bonds between Ruthie and me have been forever broken.
I'm officially back on the dating market.
I wish there was technology out there that would make Aaron Ruthie's instead of Sandy's baby.
True love is a gift; I just have to wait for mine.
I wish there was someway to make Ruthie smile at me again.
I've lost my innocence now, I know longer believe life is fair.
Without Ruthie, my life will never have its true completion.
The clouds will roll away and my life will go back to normal.
I keep looking at the sky for answers; so far, all I see is Aaron.
Marrying Martin would have been Heaven.
Living without Ruthie is going to feel like I'm living in Hell
The sun will shine again someday.
The moon will always rise and fall out of the darkness.
The ocean flows with the current of the waves, as I must in life.
I can still smell her scent form the shampoo she uses on her hair.
Like a supernova exploding in my heart, I let go of my dreams.