AN: Ok, this is something iv been working on for a while. Its two parts, this is the first, and then the next chapter should be coming out soon. well, i hope you like it, so here it is. ENJOY!
(PS: not a lemon!)
She didnt quite know what to say. She layed her head down on his chest, savoring the last few moments she would ever have to be in his arms. He had made a promise, and she understood that he must keep that promise, even if he did not wish to. She understood that he loved her, and she loved him. Kikyo held his life, she held his heart. And whilst she wanted more, she knew that this would have to suffice, this was all she could get, and it was good enough. Who wouldn't want his heart.
She wrapped her arms around him and let the tears fall down her cheeks and onto his red haori. She didn't want him to leave. She wanted to stay like this, his forever. She had told him that she would forever remain faithful, always his, that no one else could have her. He told her that would be stupid, she deserved to be loved. She fought back saying that she had his love, and that was all she ever needed. He wouldn't hear it, saying that she needed to find someone who could hold her, and speak with her, and be with her forever.
He lifted his nose to the air and ten looked down upon her with sad, loving eyes. "I'm sorry, my love, but it's time for me to go."
"No!" Kagome screamed, latching onto him as though her life depended on it. She wasn't quite sure if she wanted to live witout him. "You can't go! Not yet at least."
"Kagome..." Inuyasha started, pulling her into a hug. "I have to go,
"I don't care! I don't care. She's going to have the rest of eternity with you, I only have now. She can wait just a little longer! Can't she?" She looked up at him with big tear-filled eyes. How coul she have thought that this was fine. It was not fine! It was unfair! Kikyo was a self-righteous, selfish, inconsiderate bitch! Yes, she said it, and she didn't care. It was truth. She couldn't live without Inuyasha, she needed him, or something close enough to him to make it feel better.
"Kagome, I can-"
"Inuyasha?" She cut him off.
"Would you do anything for me?" She asked, diverting her eyes.
Inuyasha knew exactly what his answer was, but he was getting nervous.Where was she going with this? Finally he answered, "Of course I would, in this world or the next."
Well, there was no going back now, but.. she didn't want to, either. "Then I ask one thing of you." SHe lifted her eyes up to meet his."Make love to me."
Inuyasha was completely taken aback by this. "W-what?"
"I want you to make love to me. I want you to be my first. I want one special moment with you that I can never forget, even if I wanted to."
"But Kagome..." He could't believe she was asking this. Didn't she understand what it entailed. "I can't do that to you. If I do then you'll be my mate, you can never be with anyone else. What if you get pregnant? It will be a bastard child. I can't do that to you."
"I don't care, Inuyasha. I want to be yours. I could never be with anyone else anyway. I want a part of you with me always. You deserve to have a child to keep your namesake and your blood going after everything you've been through. Please Inuyasha, I want to be able to have a part of you with me, forever."
"Please?" Sheasked him one more time. She needed this, she wanted this.
She loved him and he loved her. This is what you did when you loved someone, wasn't it.
"I... I.." What could he say. He couldn't deny he wanted to, cause frankly, he'd wanted to for a long time. But, how could he do that to her. Leave her all alone to take care of a pup all on her own. He went through it in his head over and over. When he looked into her eyes, he knew. He would. He had to, he wanted to, no, he needed to. But there would be a couple of things she'd have to agree to. "Alright, but, you have to do a couple of things."
"You will go to your time, and stay there. I don't want you or our pup in any danger because I can't be there for you. I know your mother will help you in any way and that you'll be fine. But you have to know, your life expectancy will become as long as my own and our pup will have a long life as well because of its demon blood. You do undestand this,
right?" He told her in all seriousness.
"I know." She said. "I understand everything. I'll go to my time, I'll finish school and make a good life for me and our child. Now, please, make love to me?"
How could he deny her now. He leaned in and kissed her feverently. She was surprised at first, but soon returned it with the same intensity. They continued to kiss as their arms wrapped around each other, and slowly InuYasha leaned her onto her back.
Kagome's eyes slowly opened to find the light shining brightly on her. She groaned lightly and rolled over away from the light, but was suprised when she didn't feel the warmth she expected. Her eyes snapped open and she looked aroun, sitting up stark straight and pulling up the fire rat coat to her front as she looked around desperately. Where is he? she thought as she twisted her body to look behind her. He couldnt have left already, could he? she asked herself as she stood up and wrapped it around her body, ignoring the pain in her thighs and tieing the ties around her waist.
"InuYasha?" she asked as she looked around. She got no response. "InuYasha?" she asked a little more frantically as she moved around the clearing and looked into the forest around her. She continued to call out his name until she heard a noise behind her. She turned and looked at the trees. "InuYasha?" she asked quietly, not sure who it was.
A hand clasped over her eyes and she screamed, instantly fighting against the figure and screaming for InuYasha. Suddenly, a laugh came from behind her, and she recognized the voice. "Inuyasha?" she asked, cocking her head to the side.
"Ding ding ding, we have a winner." he said, smiling as he pulled his hand from her eyes.
She turned around to him, fuming and hit him in the chest a few times. "Dont do that to me!" she screamed. "You nearly gave me a heartattack! Now where were you?"
He waved his hands in front of his face lightly, one holding a basket. "Kagome calm down." he told her, taking hold of her hands. "I didnt mean to scare you, and i was just out getting breakfast. See?" he said as he showed her the basket, full of different berries.
"Oh." she said quietly, feeling rather stupid and smiled at him lopsidedly. "sorry, i guess i was just afraid that you..." she didnt finish her sentence, realizing what she was about to say.
A look came over his face and he sighed lightly, looking down and leaving his arms to his side. "i wouldnt go without saying goodbye." he told her, his voice barely above a whisper.
"I know." she told him and took the basket. "so, for now, lets just eat breakfast, alright?" she said, smiling at him as she tried to change the subject.
He looked up at her, his eyes dull and put on his own smile and nodded his head. "ok." he said and walked with her back over to the area underneath the tree, sitting down and pulling her into his lap as she laughed.
They stayed there for a while, smiling and laughing and kissing as the fed each other berries. Unfortunately, the moment wouldnt last and they remembered this as one of Kikyo's soul stealers floated through the darkness of the forest, followed by more and more. Kagome gulped lightly and lowered her head, feeling the tears come to her eyes already. "You have to go now, dont you?" she asked
His eyes were transfixed on the forest, but it looked like he wasnt seeing anything as the frown on his face deepened, and his eyes torned glossy. He slowly nodded his head, almost as tho he were forcing himself to. "yes... i do." he said, his voice cracking.
Kagome's shoulder shook with her silent sob as her bangs covered her eyes, tears starting to leave trails on her face. InuYasha saw this and tightened his arms around her, kissing away the tears on her cheek as he put a smile on his face. "come on, dont cry." he said, sounding like he was fighting tears himself. "well see each other again mate, i promise."
Her shoulders stopped shaking lightly as she looked up at him with puffy, red eyes and slowly nodded her head. "right." she said, her voice strained as she wiped the tears. "of course we will. we have to right?" she asked, smilin at him as her eyes fluttered lightly.
He smiled and nodded his head as he slowly moved out from under her, kissing her lips and putting his hands on her cheeks. "right." he said as the glow from the flying creatures grew stronger. He looked out at the trees and sighed before looking back at her, a bittersweet smile on his lips. "i love you." he said and put his hand on her stomach. "both of you." he said quietly, smiling.
Her eyes widened, having forgotten and looked down at her stomach before lookback up at him. "am i..." she couldnt finish, but he nodded his head anyway. slowly she smiled and kissed him. "i love you too." she said. "and i always will."
"you have to go now." he told her, not wanting to dance around anymore. "remember, you need to stay in the future."
She sighed and nodded her head. "i will." she told him, tears in her eyes again. "now... go... before she comes here." she said, smiling bitterly at him as another tear dripped down her cheek, not wanting to see him go, but knowing he would have to. She looked over his face one more time, memorizing ever line from his smile, his lips, the golden brown eyes she fell in love with, and then moved up to his twitching ears, smiling sadly.
He looked at her sadly and kissed her one last time. "i love you... now and forever mate..." he said against her lips before pulling away and turning to the trees, dissapearing between them and not looking back, afraid to.
She stared at the trees for a moment before realizing what she was gripping onto. She stood up and took a few steps forward. "wait! your... coat..." she said quietly, before realizing it was too late... he was gone.
InuYasha made his way through the trees, tears streaking his face as he went, leaping through branches, not paying enough attention and getting scratches along his face as he made his way to the clearing, following the soul stealers. Finally, he arrived and jumped down to the middle of it to find Kikyo on the other side. "im here." he said bitterly. "lets go."
Her cold and dead eyes looked at him, looking him over and noticing the missing fire rat coat. "wheres your coat?" she asked casually
"Cut the crap." he said. "I told you id go with you, so that what im here to do." he snarled lightly as her eyes didnt change.
"You left it with her didnt you?" she asked bluntly, and his eyes wavered for a moment and she smiled. "dont worry, i take no offense."
He growled lightly as he leaned forward on one foot and clenched his fist in front of himself as he normally did when angry. "take no offense!" he growled out. "like you have the right to anyway! I dont love you anymore Kikyo, get it into your head!" He slowly returned to a normal stance, standing still and his muscles relaxed.
Kikyo smiled lightly on the other side of the clearing. But it wasn't an evil smile, or a wicked or cruel one. Just a... smile. This took InuYasha back a step. This wasn't something you saw everyday from the dead miko. Slowly, she started to walk towards him, and he kept his ground, not sure what to expect. She made her way to him and put her hand on his cheek, leaning into him, but his eyes were connected to hers and she moved to his, surpassing his lips and whispered quietly. "Go back to her, InuYasha."
Kagome cried in the field as she dressed, and cried as she went back to the village, and cried as she said her goodbyes.
"Are you sure you have to go?" Sango asked, tears in her own eyes as she hugged her friend once again.
Kagome laughed bitterly and nodded her head, sniffling as she pulled back from the hug. "yeah, i do." she told her and looked at the others. "im so sorry, but i need to go home."
"But I dont want you to leave!" Shippo screamed as he jumped up and wrapped his arms around her neck and cried into her chest.
Kagome broke down again as she wrapped her arms around Shippo tightly, hugging him to her and kissing the top of his head over and over. Miroku reached forward and slowly pealed him out of her arms. Shippo continued to cry and turned into Miroku, crying to his chest as Kagome tried to straighten herself up again. "We're going to miss you Lady Kagome." he said quietly, smiling at her sadly and leaned forward, hugging her with his free arm, making sure to keep far away from her rear. He seemed to have been the only one to notice the small bite marks on her neck.
"Im going to miss you too." Kagome said and gave each of them one more hug, giving Shippo some pocky and a bit of cat nip to Kirara. She pulled out the full jewel from her pocket and gave it to Miroku. "promise youll keep it safe." she said to them and they nodded quietly. "goodbye you guys." she said, tears coming again as she picked up her backpack and slowly backed up a few feet, smiling at them before turning away and heading up the path fast until she was over the hill, the village out of sight where she broke down again, her movements slowing down as her shoulders and chest shook.
InuYasha pulled back and looked at her. "What... what do you mean?" he asked confusedd with his hands on her shoulders.
"What? you dont want to go back to her?" she asked him lightly, her face back to that almost permanent frown. "im leting you go InuYasha. Now... go... before she does."
InuYasha looked in her eyes for a moment later, trying to find any source of deciet before hugging her lightly. "thank you kikyo." he saidquietly, letting her go and taking off into the woods. He kept running as fast as he could, even when the forest turned an inky black color behind him before returning back to normal. He had to get back to Kagome. He just hoped he wasnt too late.
After a while, he took to the branches, skipping trees as he jumped over the tree lines. He took back to the ground as he neared the well, running as fast as he could. He saw a green and white figure with a big yellow backpack with a bit of red hanging out of it. Her legs were over the edge of the well, as tho she were about to jump.
Kagome had made it to the well and swung her legs over the lip, sitting there as she thought back to all the times she had been here before. At those times, she was glad for the break, going home for a nice bubble bath. But this time... it felt like she was leaving home, and this time she wasnt coming back.
Tears were still coming out of her eyes as memories flashed back to her, of everything they had been through, all there battles, all ther fun and hard work. Her hands tightened on the edge, but she knew she would have to go. Slowly, she slid towards the edge, about to fall in when...
She twisted her body back just in time to see a white and red figure making its way towards her. She gasped as she realized who it was, but... he was too late. The sudden movement of her turning body knocked her off the lip of the well, falling down. She screamed for him as she reached upwards. She caught a glimpse of his face looking down at her in fear before she was surrounded by swirling blues and purples and white orbs in a world of black. Her rear finally hit the bottom, but when she looked up all she saw was the roof of the shrine.
"no..." she said quietly as she looked around. "no... InuYasha! No!" she screamed over and over as her body shuddered and shook with her sobs, tears hitting the bottom of the well as she pounded her hands on the ground, the dust rising up and into her eyes, making her cough as she continued her futile attempt to get back
AN: ok, theres the end of Part 1. i hope you liked it. sorry about its length, Part 2 is most likely going to be shorter, hopefully :P. well, i hope you read it, and, bye.