A/N: This is simply something I had the insperation to write at 12:30am one morning. It may be somewhat confusing, and I apologize for not making a lot of sense. Enjoy!
It wasn't for the science.
In fact, at present moments, I couldn't possibly care less about alchemy. It's for you.
It's because I miss you…I need you. That's why I'm trying so hard to bring you back.
I wish I could remember better. The feeling of your smaller hand in mine, the sound of your laughter that was more of a song than laughter itself, the warm touch of your lips to mine in a gentle reminder of your withheld passion. Four years is a long time to forget, brother.
Perhaps someone other than I would do it for the science: to prove that the laws of equivalent exchange could possibly be undeceive. But not me. In fact, it is the laws of alchemy that I am dueling with. It's alchemy that goes against me. But I don't need to believe the laws this time. Because deep down, it is so much more than science that brings me to the conclusion that you're still alive. It isn't science that makes me believe you're still out there, still waiting for me to find you, to let you know we'll always be together, just like we promised we would. I still hear your voice, hushed and barley audible…teasing and distant, whispering in the wind…I see the brilliant gold of your eyes reflected in the sun.
Because despite the fact that we've lived our lives revolved around alchemy, there is so much more than that in life, brother. And it's now when I'm forced to be without you that I realize this.
Even Winry is giving up hope. She doesn't want to consider you're still out there somewhere because she doesn't want to have to grasp the let down if I can't find you.
I won't let that happen.
I love you, brother. I love you and I miss you and I need you to be with me…always.
So I won't give up…I can't give up. I will find you; nothing can hold me back. Not the laws of alchemy, not the doubt of this world …nothing can keep me from you. All I need now is to complete the task of discovering a way to open the gate that will lead me to you.
You gave up your limb for me… gave up four years of your life searching for the stone to save my body… sacrificed yourself for me, and though I don't yet remember, I know it's true. Even though I won't be giving up as much, I'll still put all of me into bringing you back. I not only feel that you want to be found, but I want to find you just as much. I know you're out there, brother, and I won't stop trying until we're together again.
And deep down, I'll always know. I'm not doing this for science, to make a statement, to prove a hypothesis, as an experiment. I'm doing it for you and I'm doing it for me. Because I love you and being without you tears me apart. Because life without you, isn't really life at all. It was never for alchemy, it was, and always will be, for you, brother, you and you alone.
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