A/N: I am writing it in Ruthies POV, like she is writing everything down in a journal, so if this just gets confusing I'm sorry.
Dear Diary, Yeah, I know I have wrote anythign down latley, I have been busy. Getting my mind off things, well I guess I could tell you, I am sort of going to be seeing someone, and his name is Paul, he's 17 and he asked for my number. I have gave it to him and he called me up tonight, I am actually kind of excited. Even though, I still miss Martin, I say I'm over it..but I am really not. But Martin wont be a problem anymore since he's probably never coming back.
So Tomorrow is the day, the day my family has been dreading, well most of them anyways. Simon and Rose are getting married. Shocked its actually happening? Yeah I am too. It's weird Mom actually 'loves' Rose now. I didnt see that one coming at all. I just wish Simon would just realize that hes too good for her, and realize that he doesnt love her. I remember when I first met Deena, she was Simon's one true love. Well until she pretty much dumped him for some guy that dumped her. I dont know anymore. I just miss my brother, and I want him to be happy. But not with her. I know that sounds mean, but its how everyone feels. Its just so complicated.
My head is starting to hurt from all of this thinking, I am going to go. -Ruthie.
As she closes her book and falls to her bed.
The next morning, she wakes up as the sun is shining in her window, she gets up, takes a shower, gets dressed, and heads downstairs.
"Morning" She says to Sam and David.
"Morning" The say in unison.
"Where's mom and dad?" she says pouring some milk in a glass.
"Talking outside" Sam says.
"To Sandy" David says.
"What?" Sandy is here? Why is she here? Is Martin with her?" she drops the glass to the counter and runs over and peeks out the window to see whats going on.
Sandy, Annie, and Eric are all sitting on the steps. Sandy is holding the baby.
"He is beautiful" Annie says looking at the baby.
"Now Rose doesnt want you, her best friend to come to the wedding?" Eric asked.
"No, and I want to be there for her and Simon." Sandy says almost crying.
"Sandy, is everything okay?" Annie asks.
She drys her tear and looks up. "Everything will be fine, if I could just talk to Simon, to maybe talk to him. But he isn't answering my calls."
"Has Martin tried talking to him?" Eric asked.
"Martin, Martin and I aren't exactly speaking either." Sandy said looking around and noticing Ruthie spying out the window.
Sandy gives Ruthie a look, a knowing look about Martin. But Ruthie brushes it off and walks away. Annie and Eric look back to see what Sandy was looking at.
"How's she been?" Sandy asked.
"She has her days, good ones and bad ones." Annie says.
"Where is Martin?" Eric asks hoping he isn't in town.
"Hes not with me if thats what your wondering." Sandy replied.
"Martin has been great for this baby, acting like a father and everything. But---me and him just got into this huge fight, and it just ended up badly, I havent spoken to him in three weeks."
"And isn't that when Rose said you couldn't come to the wedding?" Annie asked.
"Yeah, but it wasn't about that, really. Martin still comes over to help with the baby, he wants this lil boy to feel like he has a father, but he just doesnt talk to the mother. He is going to a community college and taking some classes. He's a good guy. He's just hurt." Sandy says looking down at the baby.
Annie and Eric look at eachother and sigh.
Ruthie is in her room now. Clutching her pillow tightly. Sandy knocks on the door.
"Can I come in?" Sandy asks
Ruthie looks up and wipes a falling tear from her face.
"What are you doing here?"
"I came to talk to your mom and dad to try and see if they could sneak me into the wedding today, Rose wont let me go. I didn't come here to make you feel any worse then you already do about Martin. I didn't think I would see you until tonight. And then--well even then I would stay out of your way. Ruthie, Martin and I, we are not together."
Ruthie just looks at her.
"Why should I believe you? You took him away from me. He left me. I loved him (she pauses) I love him. And he still left me. For you. For you and that baby." Tears flowing now.
Sandy moves over and sits next to Ruthie.
"I know this may not help but I am telling you the truth Martin, and I we are not together, we never have been." She hugs her tightly and gets up and walks away.
Ruthie is just sitting there alone, again, thinking about Martin.
Sandy goes downstairs and makes a phone call.
"Look I know you aren't talking to me. But the least you should do is pick up the phone and at least listen to what I have to say. There was once a point that we were sort of friends, just pick up the phone or meet me at the church in an hour and a half."
A/N: Should I continue or not.?