I wrote this to release some stress.

One shot Casey point of view.

-Enrty


My life is going in spirals,circling around,turning and wipping threw the mazes. I gave up hope a while ago. Who cares about my dream.Dream of becoming a successful women,It doesnt matter now,nothing matters. Nobody cares,nobody understands what Im going threw. They try but they cant. They ask what wrong,I tell them nothing and just strugg it off but they kept asking,finally I tell them. Guess what they said,they said not to stress out they said that its going to get better. Whatever,all of that is bull. It's not ok and its not going to get better and as for the stressing thats just me...I hate feeling like this,I hate feeling alone. I hate feeling like giving up.I HATE IT. I'm ready to just throw in the towel, raise the white flag. I can feel every part of my body breaking each second. I lock myself in my room and did something I didnt normally do...cry...I cried myself to sleep. Wanting this to all be over,not caring about anything, not caring about life. I lost everything, my grandmother my uncle everyone they all seem so distant from me. People try to confort me but its not working,the only cure for me is starting over. As I sit in this room writing this I looked on my mirror. I saw a picture of my grandma and my uncle along with some other friends,there all dead those images were obituaries...Every morning I would look up there reminding myself how this world can treat like a freak in a side show a carnival creature.Reminded that lifes to short and that you got to live your life the way you want it...I tell myself that every night I pray to GOD to help me threw each day. I hope he hears me cause I need him,I need someone to help me. I'm tired of this I'm tired of life itself...Maybe...Maybe its time to just give up...Or is it...


Hey thanks for reading this,I had a whole lot of other stuff in it but that was more personal anyways thanks again...

-Nika